can you overcome SI normally as long as you have enough time to mentally prepare yourself

[49Slides]

i dont really have access to any drugs to make it any easier, and i dont really get any time alone since i still live with my parents and im generally never left alone for more than 30 minutes. but, in a few days, my parents are planning to go a resort or something for the entire day soon (i dont really know any details about it) and ill have around 14h to set up a noose (im using hanging as my method). i tried earlier today but the moment i had the noose around my neck my head just started constantly repeating "i need to get out of this" which sucks. i can tie the noose in about an hour at max and around 20 minutes if nothing goes especially wrong, and i hope 12h should be enough to prepare, right?

sorry if this is a silly question haha

 

[FF777]

i don't think it gets easier just by having more time to "mentally prepare".. i had a long time to mentally prepare to CTB last month and it was still super terrifying when i finally went to do it and so i cancelled it (it was the H2S method)..

i didn't take any drugs either.. but if you can't get drugs then one thing you can do is stay awake for a really long time like 24+ or maybe even 48+ hours and it should reduce your SI..

make sure you don't get brain damage from your attempt.. i have severe brain damage (from a stroke though, not from a CTB attempt) and it's the worst thing that ever happened in my life.. good luck..

 

[0dysseus]

i dont really have access to any drugs to make it any easier, and i dont really get any time alone since i still live with my parents and im generally never left alone for more than 30 minutes. but, in a few days, my parents are planning to go a resort or something for the entire day soon (i dont really know any details about it) and ill have around 14h to set up a noose (im using hanging as my method). i tried earlier today but the moment i had the noose around my neck my head just started constantly repeating "i need to get out of this" which sucks. i can tie the noose in about an hour at max and around 20 minutes if nothing goes especially wrong, and i hope 12h should be enough to prepare, right?

sorry if this is a silly question haha

Liquor from your parents cabinet?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i don't think it gets easier just by having more time to "mentally prepare".. i had a long time to mentally prepare to CTB last month and it was still super terrifying when i finally went to do it and so i cancelled it (it was the H2S method)..

i didn't take any drugs either.. but if you can't get drugs then one thing you can do is stay awake for a really long time like 24+ or maybe even 48+ hours and it should reduce your SI..

make sure you don't get brain damage from your attempt.. i have severe brain damage (from a stroke though, not from a CTB attempt) and it's the worst thing that ever happened in my life.. good luck..

what age did you have the brain stroke?

what caused the stroke?

 

[FF777]

what age did you have the brain stroke?

what caused the stroke?

i caused it my self from being so depressed and hating life that i started beating the crud out of my heart really hard like 20 or 30 times and it caused my heart to not be able to beat correctly for a while and my brain wasn't getting the oxygen-rich blood that it needs and so the brain damage (stroke) started happening.. it happened on 2020-10-21 and i was 39 years old at the time.. literally the worst mistake of my life..

 

[49Slides]

Liquor from your parents cabinet?

My parents aren't drinkers sadly. Maybe I could go get some on my own i dunno. Never had alcohol before to be honest aha

 

[FF777]

My parents aren't drinkers sadly. Maybe I could go get some on my own i dunno. Never had alcohol before to be honest

sorry i'm going to sound like a dad here or some thing, but it's good that you don't have parents that drink alcohol.. alcohol is nasty and for the people that turn in to alcoholics it starts destroying your life, every time.. i'm 44 years old and have never drank any alcohol except one time at one of my grandpa's new year's parties he asked if i wanted to try some.. i tried some white zinfandel and some type of red wine..... both tasted like literal donkey poop (the "acquired taste" i guess).. it's a gross and messy drug in my opinion..

sorry, but any way, with that rant out of the way, i suppose you could try it if it is to help subdue your SI before you make a CTB attempt..

 

[itsgone2]

stay awake for a really long time like 24+ or maybe even 48+ hours and it should reduce your SI.

This is accurate?

I also have a noose but a gun too. I just can't seem to go through with it.
Everyone here struggles with it but I'm getting desperate. SI is awful.

 

[Forveleth]

The only way I have found to "fight SI" is to not make an attempt until I am ready. I made two attempts completely calm and ready for death because I did not force it. If tiu lick a random day and tell yourself "I have to die today" your brain is going to fight you. It is better not to make an attempt until both if you agree.

Does this mean loving in misery longer than tiu want? It can. But it also greatly increases the chance if success.

 

[Passenger4224]

The only way I have found to "fight SI" is to not make an attempt until I am ready. I made two attempts completely calm and ready for death because I did not force it. If tiu lick a random day and tell yourself "I have to die today" your brain is going to fight you. It is better not to make an attempt until both if you agree.

Does this mean loving in misery longer than tiu want? It can. But it also greatly increases the chance if success.

I would like to add, it feels empowering when you have a good plan in place, even if you aren't following through just yet. "Yeah, I'm still alive, but I can die whenever I feel like it's time"

 

[ctb_warrior]

I would like to add, it feels empowering when you have a good plan in place, even if you aren't following through just yet. "Yeah, I'm still alive, but I can die whenever I feel like it's time"

Very true . I too noticed this. I have attempted CTB several times, and either I was desperate or I was too confident of my method. Although I'm still here to tell the tale because i overestimated OD method based on what they show in movies

 

[49Slides]

sorry i'm going to sound like a dad here or some thing, but it's good that you don't have parents that drink alcohol.. alcohol is nasty and for the people that turn in to alcoholics it starts destroying your life, every time.. i'm 44 years old and have never drank any alcohol except one time at one of my grandpa's new year's parties he asked if i wanted to try some.. i tried some white zinfandel and some type of red wine..... both tasted like literal donkey poop (the "acquired taste" i guess).. it's a gross and messy drug in my opinion..

sorry, but any way, with that rant out of the way, i suppose you could try it if it is to help subdue your SI before you make a CTB attempt..

oh yeah i agree i dont really think id ever want to have alcohol in any other circumstance anyways. im also quite stupid and forgot the legal drinking age in my state is 21 and im only 19 so i cant do it regardless unless i want to break the law haha