Can you imagine non existence?

[Ghost2211]

I must admit that are large part of me is afraid to die a lot of the time. I can intellectualize the concept of non-existence, but emotionally my brain keeps wanting to connect feelings or thoughts to non-existence. Unfortunately my brain prefers to make this weird image of experiencing non-experience. Basically what it might feel like to not be able to feel, and think what it might feel like to not be able to think. It's quite silly. I fear not experiencing the good parts of life. It's almost like my brain puts me in a state where it is or where it no longer has these things. It's quite annoying to be honest because on an intellectual level I fully understand what complete brain shut down would consist of. I have no fear of the physical body dying. It is a one time amazing experience that will be amazing to feel. I've said elsewhere I look at it similar to childbirth. It's scary and painful and unknown, but there's also something beautiful about it and every sensation that comes with it is amazing.

but yes OP, A lot of us either fear the process of dying or the there after.

 

[peacechoice]

I am only scared of the process of actual dying, not the aftermath.

Not really, when your asleep you don't really care about anything so I imagine it's like sleeping, but just more peaceful. I'm only scared of the actual dying because that part hurts, what I'm not scared is the after.

 

[Weary Soul]

Actually, going under is the best thing about anesthesia, waking up is the most disappointing.

Couldn't agree more!! :)

 

[TheGoodGuy]

What I'm scared about the most is having no consciousness for the entirety of the time. Does it scare any of you as well?
Having no consciousness
Having no "I"

No matter what I try to convince myself that it's fine, I'm so scared of absolute nothingness.

You never open your eyes again. You have so "senses"

And you have no consciousness and you will never regain one. Never open your eyes again as another life form.
The end of everything. Even after billions of years, or the end of the world, "I" will not exist.

Maybe this video will put your mind at ease it really makes sense.



Also if you have ever been under anesthesia death will most likely "feel" like that which I made this thread about

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/death-most-likely-will-feel-like-anesthesia.23932/

 

[Pookie]

I have no awareness of existence before being born, so I imagine it to be like that. Like a deep, dreamless sleep.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

There is literally no such thing as emptiness or nothing. There is no void even in space as we're coming to realize.

So no, I cannot even begin to comprehend not existing. But if there is such a thing then I don't have to comprehend it or worry about it either. Because even if I did worry about it, it wouldn't matter once I was there.

 

[Wayfaerer]

It's like trying to remember before you were born, it's impossible. I believe the closest one can get to experience non-existence is by going under anesthesia and I haven't even done that. It does sound nice though.

 

[StringPuppet]

Non-existence sounds perfect

 

[AngelGirl]

Personally at this point I think maybe it's my anxiety disorder. Everyone is so zen about death except me. Good for you guys.
I did read about 90 page long PDF file just dedicated to make you feel more comfortable about death. The link to a file was on this forum and the post that had the link was kind of a megathread. It was a collection of random reddit posts and internet articles about how death is nice, good, natural, peaceful, etc. I read it hoping that it would make me feel more comfortable about death.
I've also been under general anesthesia twice and twilight anesthesia many times cause I got many surgeries. I also have been get prescription benzos for years. So it's not that I haven't think about or heard about why death is peaceful, natural, etc.
So maybe for me it's just another anxiety problem. Like how logically knowing that there's nothing to worry
about won't prevent a panic attack.

 

[Conker]

What I'm scared about the most is having no consciousness for the entirety of the time. Does it scare any of you as well?
Having no consciousness
Having no "I"

No matter what I try to convince myself that it's fine, I'm so scared of absolute nothingness.

You never open your eyes again. You have so "senses"

And you have no consciousness and you will never regain one. Never open your eyes again as another life form.
The end of everything. Even after billions of years, or the end of the world, "I" will not exist.

I don't care about it any longer, I have far worse worries and nothingness isn't one of them.

 

[AngelGirl]

I don't care about it any longer, I have far worse worries and nothingness isn't one of them.

Good for you. Just like you might already know death is always the best option to end all the other worries and you don't worry about death. That must put your mind at ease.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

When you think about it you didn't exist before you were born and that wasn't so bad was it?

 

[AngelGirl]

When you think about it you didn't exist before you were born and that wasn't so bad was it?

Yeah I have already thought of that.
But just trying to think that death's not bad doesn't seem to work on me at all when it comes to my anxiety over death.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Yeah I have already thought of that.
But just trying to think that death's not bad doesn't seem to work on me at all when it comes to my anxiety over death.

If it's the loss of the life and consciousness you have that scares you I'm afraid there's not much to be done. The fact is that just wanting to die in general isn't enough to override your natural feelings of connection to your life. I don't have any real good advice but I hope you can reach a decision that you are happy with.