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dysfunctional

dysfunctional

Arcanist
Oct 26, 2018
459
You only feel numb because the damage is too big.

Your soul is being eaten alive inside you. But you shut out the truth.

Just like how when your body is damaged enough by the fire it doesn't hurt anymore.
Curious if you can elaborate on the part about shutting out the truth. Very interesting.
 
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Deutschv2

Deutschv2

Student
Sep 23, 2018
177
Meds to treat the mania, definitely make me numb. I remember joining this site with full blown crazy energy. Now I'm all medicated and that's gone now. It's replaced with an odd nothingness.
which mediciations? prozac made me numb and i'm grateful for it
 
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Fellow

Member
Oct 26, 2018
23
I want to cry but the tears don't come.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Illuminated
Aug 27, 2018
3,080
Not really except when I saw my childhood home had been demolished a few month back I was crying so much..
 
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DeletedUser4739

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which mediciations? prozac made me numb and i'm grateful for it

Pretty much anything to calm me when in a manic state like lithium or depakote. Traditional antidepressants like zoloft and prozac did it to me too. I hear the newer atypicals are better for some, but they have a tendency to raise my fasting blood sugar over 200. (I'm diabetic.) I'd prefer not to go blind and/or lose limbs before I die. However, I do find irony in treating many of my physical ailments when all I want is death.
 
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ForestLove

ForestLove

Jus wanna be a tree
Oct 16, 2018
236
I will cry whenever I think of going to CTB..
 
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Mud.

Mud.

Arcanist
Oct 27, 2018
403
Yes.
But it's my body that cries, not my mind.
A reaction to physical pain.
Tears can stream across my cheeks without any emotional trigger.
 
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Voldmort

Experienced
Sep 23, 2018
287
of course. its so easy, im weak.
 
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skitliv

skitliv

Le mort joyeux
Jul 11, 2018
485
I can't, even though I want to
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I cry often but I don't track it. Sometimes it's a few tears or an all out balling session. I could not restrain from crying if someone or something triggered it. Like extreme stress, uncertainty, loneliness, something I see outside can do it too. I live in this awfully depressing neighborhood right now too so that really can drive me to tears at times. Run down vacant buildings, just ugly area, it's depressing. It's an area that looks ghettoized.
 
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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
No I can't Evan fucking cry I hate myself I wear a mask at home and everywhere else I can smile Evan when under the desk I'll be cutting but I can't fucking cry it hurts o bad and I just wanna let it out but I can't. I can tear up but it won't come out
 
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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
To be a prude, its sad equvullant of being interpreted mid coitis except you feel more weak and inadiquite
 
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iamthezero

iamthezero

The Prodigal Daughter
Jun 22, 2018
35
Usually my problem is most days I can't stop. Itll start and restart. Usually for me its always in private, I've excused myself to the bathroom and came back before. Never made me feel better..just like shit.
 
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Shewaitsforme

Arcanist
Sep 23, 2018
493
Very rarely, sometimes i think if i could just cry it out id be ok. Then i think if i cry ill never stop. Apparently i lack emotions but the way i describe it is being stood outside a dark room. My emotions are inside, i know they are there. I can go in the room but cant see or find them so i come out empty
 
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Cee

Cee

cute girl
Sep 22, 2018
81
glad im not alone. I wish i could cry, but i just cant. Last time i cried was because i found my hamster after thinking i lost her just cuz shes my favorite thing about life lmao
 
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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
update: i was watching a you tube video started laughing then mid laugh started hrrdcore sobbing it was awsome still no tears tho my eyes were way 2 dry. is it just us though?
because it might be how much screen time we have drying out our eyes?
jeez i sound like im 70
it does make me depressed 4 sure tho cuz ppl only post there best selves on social media nd it makes me feel worse for not having that plus SO MUCH INFORMATION
(im not anti tech btw i was a freelance developer for my comunity service thing in HS)
 
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Jewels

Jewels

Member
Aug 23, 2018
29
I used to be able to cry when I was sad or get choked up at an emotional moment, etc. When this depression hit me, it's been by far the worst time in my life, but I haven't cried once. I'd like to! My emotions really flattened out to a low level. Can you still cry?
Mental health stole my right to cry with their bs meds
 
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Roph

Specialist
Sep 24, 2018
355
I dislike crying... but yes I can.
 
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Red star

Red star

Experienced
Sep 15, 2018
206
Usually no, sometimes it happens if something has a lot of meaning to me
 
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Mara

Member
Nov 1, 2018
23
I used to cry all the time. Lately I feel nothing.
 
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Goodgirlryeo101

Wizard
May 27, 2023
671
I have no tears left for me to cry.
 
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Nights

Nights

Student
Apr 27, 2023
163
Yes, i can cry only due to empathy other than that no amount of harm to me could make me cry, the last time i cried was because of a post in sanctioned suicide by @CTB Dream i felt too much empathy
 
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blue_muse

blue_muse

Mage
Jan 31, 2021
553
I've done my grieving for what could've been in life. I'm at the stage of accepting suicide.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,946
I don't remember when I cried the last time, there's nothing to cry anymore it's too sad and too hopeless all in all.
 
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