Came so close last night

[blacksand]

I was looking at social media of all my old middle school classmates, all living so well. I got drinking and had my 9mm against the side of my head and I squeezed the trigger a bit I'm honestly surprised it didn't go off. Just don't even know if I'll ever ctb honestly I'm too much of a coward.

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

I'm the same way about feeling like a coward. Dying really isn't easy and it's the last thing you do. Even with a gun in hand you can't just squeeze the trigger. You'd think it doesn't get any easier than a gun, but that probably makes it even harder. There's also the major fear of failure. If anything goes wrong then you might be in worse shape than you started. Suicide isn't the easy way out that everyone likes to believe when they lay in the guilt trip.