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skywhywalker666

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looks like here comes my bus. I have been fasting for almost a day, followed metoclopramide, drank 400 mg of propranolol, 1000 mg of paracetamol and 1 mg of clonazepam. about 30 minutes left. I think 3 minutes before SN I will drink 10 mg of clonazepam. Thanks to this great forum and its participants. May everything work out for you the way you want it to.
 
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unluckysadness

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I'm so sorry life brought you at this point 😞 I wish you peace 🕊️
 
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kitkat9234

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Wishing you peace ❤️
 
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I think this is a good plan.I wish you a peaceful departure.
 
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Wishing you a safe journey to the beyond.
 
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Surek

Surek

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Aug 26, 2025
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К чёрту автобусы, даёшь поезда! Удачного тебе пути, приятель.
 
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skywhywalker666

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Does anyone know if so many lumps are normal?
 

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Surek

Surek

Peaceful
Aug 26, 2025
59
Does anyone know if so many lumps are normal?

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Some people are worried that clumping lowers it's efficacy, this is not the case. Here is a picture of pure sodium nitrite [3] and as you can see there is clumping. Small compounds will slowly stick together over time, it is natural and usually has nothing to do with it's efficacy.
 
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skywhywalker666

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I used lidocaine spray and mouthwash. I'll tell you the taste now.
 
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unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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I saw other posts saying lumps are normal. My SN has lumps too.
I hope propranolol will help
 
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U. A.

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Praying nothing goes wrong for you again ❤️‍🩹
 
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skywhywalker666

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Aug 5, 2025
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вполне терпимо. я ложусь спать
пока ничего не происходит
 
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U. A.

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вполне терпимо. я ложусь спать
пока ничего не происходит
"quite bearable. I go to bed
so far nothing happens"

😢 sleep well...
 
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Surek

Peaceful
Aug 26, 2025
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пока ничего не происходит
Ты хоть и принял бензодиазепин, но если не затруднит, то уточни насчёт своего сердцебиения.
 
unluckysadness

unluckysadness

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Many thanks for your updates. God bless you 🕊️
 
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skywhywalker666

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Aug 5, 2025
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сердце бьётся как обычно, мб из-за пропранолола. уже чувскю себя пьяным с лёгкой тошнотой
 
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Surek

Peaceful
Aug 26, 2025
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сердце бьётся как обычно, мб из-за пропранолола. уже чувскю себя пьяным с лёгкой тошнотой
Понял тебя, спасибо. Больше не буду беспокоить.
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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Peace and Love dear SaSu friend, wishing you well.
 
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Firefly.Forest

Student
Aug 28, 2025
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Sorry that it has come to this - hope you find peace.
 
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zzzzzzz
May 18, 2020
208
i hope you find the peace you desire. :heart:
 
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sweetcreep

reincarnating as a worm
Jul 21, 2024
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go in peace darling, sleep well 💚
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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I don't need to know you to know that your in clear pain,, in the grand scheme of things I hope you gain whatever peace your searching for,, it's always hard to know someone else is in such immense pain that this is at times the only resolution, whatever happens were here for you and Thank you for sharing your journey,,
I wish you the best..
 
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U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
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сердце бьётся как обычно, мб из-за пропранолола. уже чувскю себя пьяным с лёгкой тошнотой

"My heart is beating as usual, maybe because of the propranolol. I already feel drunk with slight nausea"
 
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Visionary
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I hope you are successful in finding your peace.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,175
"My heart is beating as usual, maybe because of the propranolol. I already feel drunk with slight nausea"
Sharing it with us was very useful, many thanks my friend ❤️ I hope your soul is freed from suffering. I'll pray for you tonight 🙏 And if you see God, please tell Him that we need some miracles here on this sick planet. Have a good journey
 
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savavmdiv

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Sep 11, 2025
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I hope catching your bus gives you relief. I am sorry it came to this and hope for your soul to be free from the pain.
 

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