Buying shotgun on my payday. I think

[MisterOGBongWater]

Did some looking into and all in all, background check, and firearm and ammunition shouldn't cost me more than 350. I average a little more than that right now per week.

It feels a little weird. Knowing that tomorrow I can have enough change in my pocket to end my life before I even know it. It's almost too easy. I'm scared to commit to it because once I own the shotgun It'll feel too real and my survival instinct will kick in. I don't know. I'm just constantly making excuses for myself no matter what I do. At the very least I could commit to this. I probably won't do it this weekend. Maybe the next. Maybe the comfort of having a ready to go escape will prevent me in the first place because the comfort is there. That's all I desire. Im scared to die. I just wanna feel comfortable. But maybe that enteral comfort comes in death only. I don't know anymore.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah, that's a big step. And you're right in that it could provide "peace of mind" to you knowing you have a way out should life become absolutely unbearable to you. Who knows, you may never need to use it. I think having a method available works that way for a lot of people.

What kind of shotgun? 12 gauge? I think I paid even less for mine, but that was a lot of years ago, and I didn't buy it for ctb, just home defense. I think I paid $250.

 

[Ligottian]

If that is your chosen method, I would advise a.12 gauge and use .00 buckshot. And perhaps place it on the side of your head. Never under the chin.
My firearm method, though will be .357 Magnum pistol fired just above my ear.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck, I personally envy those who can access such a method as it's not available where I live.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

Yeah, that's a big step. And you're right in that it could provide "peace of mind" to you knowing you have a way out should life become absolutely unbearable to you. Who knows, you may never need to use it. I think having a method available works that way for a lot of people.

What kind of shotgun? 12 gauge? I think I paid even less for mine, but that was a lot of years ago, and I didn't buy it for ctb, just home defense. I think I paid $250.

That's exactly what I was thinking. It's a scary big step just like any. The scariest part about it I guess is accepting the fact that I've given up. I'm hoping the availability will help me cope.
As for what kind yeah I was gonna go for 12 gauge. Before dicks removed guns from their websites In New York and in stores I saw shotguns for as cheap as 200 before tax. That was only a year ago so I'm assuming it hasn't changed much. I'm gonna be stopping at the local gun shop t ask what his most affordable model 12 ga is, if it's in my price range I'll set up the process. If it's not I'll tell him I'll be back when I'm more strapped. No pun intended.

If that is your chosen method, I would advise a.12 gauge and use .00 buckshot. And perhaps place it on the side of your head. Never under the chin.
My firearm method, though will be .357 Magnum pistol fired just above my ear.

Side of the head for sure. It's been my chosen method for a while now and I've spent that time meticulously removing any room for failure. I'm just waiting for the pin to dropped and it dropped. Know what I mean?

 

[LaughingGoat]

Before dicks removed guns from their websites In New York and in stores I saw shotguns for as cheap as 200 before tax.

Just laughing imaging all the people here not from the US thinking you're saying people in New York are dicks and not knowing it's a sports store.

 

[Callie Arcale]

I envy you people who live in countries where you can buy guns legally. I'd give anything to be able to buy a gun and shoot myself in the head.

 

[reaasd11]

I would use a gun but i don't want to traumatize my family when they come across my mutilated corpse

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If I were going to go the shotgun route, the only way I'd do it is by placing the barrel into my mouth and completely blowing out the back of my head. I'd never risk shooting myself in the side of the head.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

If I were going to go the shotgun route, the only way I'd do it is by placing the barrel into my mouth and completely blowing out the back of my head. I'd never risk shooting myself in the side of the head.

I've read that the lower back side of your head is the best spot due to the brain stem and that area being the most lethal

I would use a gun but i don't want to traumatize my family when they come across my mutilated corpse

Me either. That's why I would do it in the woods and only have officials find my body

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I've read that the lower back side of your head is the best spot due to the brain stem and that area being the most lethal

How are you going to miss a brain stem with a shotgun blast in the mouth? Holding a shotgun on the outside of the head will allow for "flinching" while squeezing the trigger, while placement of the barrel into the mouth steadies the gun. Someone sitting down, placing the barrel of the gun into their mouth, placing the stock onto the floor, and then squeezing the trigger, stands the best shot (no pun intended) at successfully killing themselves. It's just a more "solid" way to do it. And by sitting and placing the stock on the floor, it's much easier to reach the trigger without stretching, thereby reducing the stress in the arm, which *could* cause shaking and/or flinching. And this way pretty much automatically sets the proper angle. If this method was my choice, that's how I would do it. To each their own, though.

 

[reaasd11]

I've read that the lower back side of your head is the best spot due to the brain stem and that area being the most lethal

Me either. That's why I would do it in the woods and only have officials find my body

thats a fair point what a good idea

 

[karmaisabitch]

It must be painless since everyone is using shotgun! I'm thinking about it too.. we're dying anyway why not using painless method better than drinking nasty salty sn. When we die we will look weird regardless so the blood doesn't bother me I'll do it in the forest too just to keep my room clean..

 

[iloverachel]

Did some looking into and all in all, background check, and firearm and ammunition shouldn't cost me more than 350. I average a little more than that right now per week.

It feels a little weird. Knowing that tomorrow I can have enough change in my pocket to end my life before I even know it. It's almost too easy. I'm scared to commit to it because once I own the shotgun It'll feel too real and my survival instinct will kick in. I don't know. I'm just constantly making excuses for myself no matter what I do. At the very least I could commit to this. I probably won't do it this weekend. Maybe the next. Maybe the comfort of having a ready to go escape will prevent me in the first place because the comfort is there. That's all I desire. Im scared to die. I just wanna feel comfortable. But maybe that enteral comfort comes in death only. I don't know anymore.

Good luck my friend. I wish you peace and freedom from suffering

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

If that is your chosen method, I would advise a.12 gauge and use .00 buckshot. And perhaps place it on the side of your head. Never under the chin.
My firearm method, though will be .357 Magnum pistol fired just above my ear.

Would 00 buckshot penetrate the skull from the side of the head?

That is holding the the shotgun on the side of your head would 00 buckshot 12 gauge penetrate my skull and destroy my brain?

 

[calm_canine]

Just make sure you aim it right. People have managed to survive shotguns, and it is not fun to do so.

 

[Beyond_Repair]

If that is your chosen method, I would advise a.12 gauge and use .00 buckshot. And perhaps place it on the side of your head. Never under the chin.
My firearm method, though will be .357 Magnum pistol fired just above my ear.

I thought you were supposed to aim at roof of your mouth. Isn't that the best way to ensure you're hitting the brainstem?

Also sorry for my ignorance, but aren't shotguns the long ones? How would you be able to reach far enough to aim at the side of your head?

 

[Ligottian]

I thought you were supposed to aim at roof of your mouth. Isn't that the best way to ensure you're hitting the brainstem?

Also sorry for my ignorance, but aren't shotguns the long ones? How would you be able to reach far enough to aim at the side of your head?

People die all the time from a head shot not hitting the brain stem. Suicide, murder, accident, combat in war, etc.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

It must be painless since everyone is using shotgun! I'm thinking about it too.. we're dying anyway why not using painless method better than drinking nasty salty sn. When we die we will look weird regardless so the blood doesn't bother me I'll do it in the forest too just to keep my room clean..

exactly how i feel. unless youre not american any other option is silly really.

 

[karmaisabitch]

exactly how i feel. unless youre not american any other option is silly really.

I just need to learn got use the gun!! I never used one before

 

[suffering_mo_7]

I just need to learn got use the gun!! I never used one before

Right there with you.

 

[LostSoul1965]

I just need to learn got use the gun!! I never used one before

Well that sounds like a recipe for disaster. You mess up with nasty salty SN by most accounts you end up fine or with minimal damage to yourself. There are threads on this. Mess up with a gun and you are missing your face and maybe a good portion of your brain but still alive and helpless. Gun is number one in fatalities for suicide but like with all methods you have to be prepared and know what you are doing. To each their own but plan and choose wisely.

 

[MrOptions]

I've owned the same pistol since 1997. It's easy access in my night stand ready and waiting. I'm 50 now, depressed, anxiety, in treatment for cancer. It's only a matter of time.

My point is when your really ready. You have the means.

Me personally I have a daughter I don't want to traumatize with me ctb.

But, when your ready you will know.

 

[suffering_mo_7]

Well that sounds like a recipe for disaster. You mess up with nasty salty SN by most accounts you end up fine or with minimal damage to yourself. There are threads on this. Mess up with a gun and you are missing your face and maybe a good portion of your brain but still alive and helpless. Gun is number one in fatalities for suicide but like with all methods you have to be prepared and know what you are doing. To each their own but plan and choose wisely.

I found some threads where some who took SN ended up with severe kidney/bladder/heart issues and terrible tinnitus and this was from very small amounts..if you take the AEs, they can also cause akathisia that can be permanent. If you have stomach issues, it would likely be like pouring acid on a wound. I got a tiny amount on my skin, like 1 crystal, and ended up with a small burn. I don't think SN is anything to mess around with.

 

[divinemistress36]

I just need to learn got use the gun!! I never used one before

How unTexan!

 

[karmaisabitch]

Well that sounds like a recipe for disaster. You mess up with nasty salty SN by most accounts you end up fine or with minimal damage to yourself. There are threads on this. Mess up with a gun and you are missing your face and maybe a good portion of your brain but still alive and helpless. Gun is number one in fatalities for suicide but like with all methods you have to be prepared and know what you are doing. To each their own but plan and choose wisely.

Exactly and I never used or even owned one… I went to the gun shop and left empty hands because I didn't know what to get since I have no knowledge

How unTexan!

Well you would think everyone in Texas is mafia but really in our community we live in peace no guns or drugs not so ever

I found some threads where some who took SN ended up with severe kidney/bladder/heart issues and terrible tinnitus and this was from very small amounts..if you take the AEs, they can also cause akathisia that can be permanent. If you have stomach issues, it would likely be like pouring acid on a wound. I got a tiny amount on my skin, like 1 crystal, and ended up with a small burn. I don't think SN is anything to mess around with.

I agree with you

I've owned the same pistol since 1997. It's easy access in my night stand ready and waiting. I'm 50 now, depressed, anxiety, in treatment for cancer. It's only a matter of time.

My point is when your really ready. You have the means.

Me personally I have a daughter I don't want to traumatize with me ctb.

But, when your ready you will know.

I can't argue here! You're absolutely correct

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

Just make sure you aim it right. People have managed to survive shotguns, and it is not fun to do so.

my solution for that would be to die from the damage done even if it doesnt immediately kill me by doing it deep into a wooded area.

Well that sounds like a recipe for disaster. You mess up with nasty salty SN by most accounts you end up fine or with minimal damage to yourself. There are threads on this. Mess up with a gun and you are missing your face and maybe a good portion of your brain but still alive and helpless. Gun is number one in fatalities for suicide but like with all methods you have to be prepared and know what you are doing. To each their own but plan and choose wisely.

im VERY familiar with guns so this methods a no brainer, pun intended

 

[LostSoul1965]

my solution for that would be to die from the damage done even if it doesnt immediately kill me by doing it deep into a wooded area.

im VERY familiar with guns so this methods a no brainer, pun intended

Haha! That was a good one.