I agree the meds I'm on seem an odd mix but I don't have enough info to challenge my psych. They are to treat severe depression and generalised anxiety disorder.
My tolerance to diazepam is nuts. I can take 50mg and not feel much other than a dull sense of fatigue. I e been on them for 18 months.
When I mix them with energy drinks ie 50mg D and 1200mg caffeine, I feel a sense of calm and ability to enjoy things but that is temporary and probably awlful for my heart .
Would you mind sharing your current or existing regime and the reason you're on then?
Thanks again
I take Bupropion, since a few months, did not want an SSRI. I had a bit of insomnia at first, but I feel like my brain works better after a few months on it. Seems to have some interesting potential (
Took small doses of Flubromazepam 4-8mg on my own, not prescribed for about the last two weeks.
50 mg diazepam, my god, I just looked up the dose. That is heavy. I can't tolerate short acting Benzos at all. I obtained Quetiapine for a purpose (not a Benzo), I got 12.5 mg tablets. If I take one, all my limbs feel like stone within 10 minutes, I can't continue doing anything. I once took 25mg and it put me to sleep for over 13 hours easily, I was so irritated when I woke up. The maximum dose of this stuff per pill is 400mg! The maximum dose per day is 800mg! I don't know what has to be going on with your brain, for someone to even handle that. I think I would just be out for 5 days.
Ultimately, you get into drugs, eventually you learn to obtain pretty much everything, it feels like a win, but it is really not. I don't want to preach to you, I know this is not your original question, but I would say, before you consider going, fuck drugs, you aren't missing out on anything.
I assume you have some free time, I would say honestly, make yourself a crazy plan to work out every day for 40 days, calisthenics and running, get off the internet completely if you can, don't watch TV. Go outside, you have nothing to lose, just talk to 10 random people a day, about anything, go crazy. If you are truly on your way out, just do it, you have nothing to lose.
And I am not trying to move you to recovery, but I know doing something like this will have a stronger, longer and larger impact than if you take MDMA or smoke a gram of weed. I understand the appeal of drugs completely, but it is over-hyped. Also tell your psych you want to taper of diazepam, my advice.
then we should charge and sack people after the fact when government rats admit to doing cocaine in tax payer toilets on tax payer money.
