WornOutLife
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- Mar 22, 2020
- 7,180
-Overweight
-Bipolar disorder
-Find life pointless
-Don't wanna get older
-Bipolar disorder
-Find life pointless
-Don't wanna get older
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- Sep 13, 2020
- 2,553
InaudibleEcho
Oh, it’s a reasonable sacrifice
- Jun 23, 2023
- 45
Verbal abuse from my father + neglect from every adult in my life when I was young.
Even more neglect throughout my life. used daydreaming as a coping mechanism and ended up loving my daydreams more than life.
Now I'm too lost in my head to be a normal person.
Then I learn how horrible my country is, the economy being so shitty people are struggling to afford to live, that people like me are gradually becoming more and more oppressed by the law, so now I want to die before I turn 18.
Even more neglect throughout my life. used daydreaming as a coping mechanism and ended up loving my daydreams more than life.
Now I'm too lost in my head to be a normal person.
Then I learn how horrible my country is, the economy being so shitty people are struggling to afford to live, that people like me are gradually becoming more and more oppressed by the law, so now I want to die before I turn 18.
Sexual assault
Emotional neglect as a child
Rape
Abusive relationship (now past but the trauma stays)
Sexual harassment
Harassment
Physical disabilities
Autism
Society filled with hypocritical, bigoted people
Emotional neglect as a child
Rape
Abusive relationship (now past but the trauma stays)
Sexual harassment
Harassment
Physical disabilities
Autism
Society filled with hypocritical, bigoted people
- parental mental abuse which led to ocd which led to them taking me to psychiatrist who prescribed me antipsychotics
- forced hospitalization 2 years later and another round od antipsychotics treatment, this time 3x dosage of the same med I already felt was damaging me last time so I stopped taking it, but this time they took away my rights and completely killed my soul, that was a point of no return and I started developing suicidal thoughts for the first time in my life
- continued living despite being completely different person but colapsed after a few years and started contemplating suicide, eventually deciding to give life another chance, atleast to improvise it and see what I can acomplish with damaged version of me
- after 5 years colapsed again, saw all the beauty of the world which deprived me even more cause I cant cherish it the way normal people do, completely lost my mind, majority of life savings, job and connections, sleeping barely 3 hours a day, hate the sun and live minute after a minute with the enormous pain in my chest
- forced hospitalization 2 years later and another round od antipsychotics treatment, this time 3x dosage of the same med I already felt was damaging me last time so I stopped taking it, but this time they took away my rights and completely killed my soul, that was a point of no return and I started developing suicidal thoughts for the first time in my life
- continued living despite being completely different person but colapsed after a few years and started contemplating suicide, eventually deciding to give life another chance, atleast to improvise it and see what I can acomplish with damaged version of me
- after 5 years colapsed again, saw all the beauty of the world which deprived me even more cause I cant cherish it the way normal people do, completely lost my mind, majority of life savings, job and connections, sleeping barely 3 hours a day, hate the sun and live minute after a minute with the enormous pain in my chest
