Venting Breaking up with partner before CTB

[kittygolem]

This post is for me to vent, but it's also a question... How do you go about breaking up with a partner when you know it's so you can CTB?

My girlfriend and I had a bad fight today, and I don't think I can handle this anymore, even if I wasn't going to CTB as soon as I get my SN and other materials in the mail. She's rude, and yells at me if I try to communicate calmly. I live with her and some roommates, so my life will go on... at least for a bit. I've also realized that I'm not so interested in women, I've known this for years, but I'm finally ready to accept that I solely prefer men or man-adjacent people. Unsure if this realization and its changes on my life will delay my CTB, but that's to be determined. My main goal here in breaking up with her is so I can leave this planet.

I just want to be loved my someone who respects me, but not somebody who sees me as their everything and their god... is that so much to ask in the modern dating market? I'm either a fetish or a punching bag or I'm useless, and I'm so fucking tired of it. I want a man who's interested in me as a person, who finds me beautiful, who isn't ashamed of me. I feel pathetic venting to a forum, but I'm glad I have this place to be less inhibited.

Rant over...

 

[ilovejennaside]

Those are totally normal and healthy things to want out of a relationship and you absolutely have every right to want them as a standard and no ofcourse it's not too much to ask for, No matter what decision you decide to make I really hope you're gonna find your peace no matter what happens you deserve to find a healthy non toxic relationship and you shouldn't settle for less

 

[chillino]

You shouldnt end your life just because you havent find the right person to be with.
I hope you can decide in favor for yourself

 

[Forveleth]

Tell them you liked them at first (if true), but because of xyz reasons, you do not feel that way about them anymore (this can be brief). Then state your intentions going forward, still friends, no contact, whatever. Then stick to what you said.