kittygolem
it/its she/her
- Jul 14, 2026
- 31
This post is for me to vent, but it's also a question... How do you go about breaking up with a partner when you know it's so you can CTB?
My girlfriend and I had a bad fight today, and I don't think I can handle this anymore, even if I wasn't going to CTB as soon as I get my SN and other materials in the mail. She's rude, and yells at me if I try to communicate calmly. I live with her and some roommates, so my life will go on... at least for a bit. I've also realized that I'm not so interested in women, I've known this for years, but I'm finally ready to accept that I solely prefer men or man-adjacent people. Unsure if this realization and its changes on my life will delay my CTB, but that's to be determined. My main goal here in breaking up with her is so I can leave this planet.
I just want to be loved my someone who respects me, but not somebody who sees me as their everything and their god... is that so much to ask in the modern dating market? I'm either a fetish or a punching bag or I'm useless, and I'm so fucking tired of it. I want a man who's interested in me as a person, who finds me beautiful, who isn't ashamed of me. I feel pathetic venting to a forum, but I'm glad I have this place to be less inhibited.
Rant over...
My girlfriend and I had a bad fight today, and I don't think I can handle this anymore, even if I wasn't going to CTB as soon as I get my SN and other materials in the mail. She's rude, and yells at me if I try to communicate calmly. I live with her and some roommates, so my life will go on... at least for a bit. I've also realized that I'm not so interested in women, I've known this for years, but I'm finally ready to accept that I solely prefer men or man-adjacent people. Unsure if this realization and its changes on my life will delay my CTB, but that's to be determined. My main goal here in breaking up with her is so I can leave this planet.
I just want to be loved my someone who respects me, but not somebody who sees me as their everything and their god... is that so much to ask in the modern dating market? I'm either a fetish or a punching bag or I'm useless, and I'm so fucking tired of it. I want a man who's interested in me as a person, who finds me beautiful, who isn't ashamed of me. I feel pathetic venting to a forum, but I'm glad I have this place to be less inhibited.
Rant over...
