Discussion Breakdown of reasons why you are suicidal ?

[WorthlessTrash]

I hate being male
I hate the male anatomy
I am not female
I wish I had a body I didn't hate (female body)
average/attractive cis women make me extremely jealous and resentfiul (because I am not, nor ever will be a cis woman and they were able to be born the correct way since the beginning)
I have no interest in anything (hobbies, relationships, etc)
I cannot go through life without seeing my triggers irl, on tv, social media etc (attractive women)

I have a very intense case of gender dysphoria. I don't have a percentage distribution for each of the reasons as they all equally contributed to my decision to CTB. Maybe the lack of interest reason being slightly less than the others, but it was caused by my dysphoria.

 

[morgzfreeman2345]

Mental illness / Past Trauma - 30%
Financial hardship- 45%
Physical health problem- 0%
Recent or upcoming crisis- 10%
Romantic relationship gone wrong - 15%

Top it off with the life insurance policy I have that will help my ex-wife get out of a bad financial predicament I caused ...a bonus 10%

 

[girlsboysthems]

mental illness innit - 60%
philosophical relationship to suicide 10%
disappointed by my parents bc of being given birth to 10%
unsatisfying life 10%
inability to connect to anyone other than my cat and consequently caring only about my cat so relationships with me are always hot dumpster fires 10%

 

[sorrowful]

mental illness is the biggest factor, so many problems piling up onto each other, struggle connecting with others, only finding comfort in the wrong people, completely hopeless and i keep messing things up for myself. i believe i was wrongly placed here and there will be somewhere better for me.

 

[nembutal]

total loss of hope 100%

 

[catastrophix]

Suffering from (almost) life long abuse (and therefore, having C-PTSD and a dissociative disorder because of this, amongst other diagnosis) — 60%
Crippling anxiety/social phobia — 20%
My lack of freedom — 20%

 

[PeterThePizzaGuy55]

Gender dysphoria = 70
Mental illness = 10
Abuse = 5
Society/being hated = 15

Being transgender/queer has ruined my life. I can't change myself nor am I saying it was a choice, but boy do I wish it was. I'm hated by society, I'll never fit in, and I'll never be a real man. Maybe I can be in the next life :)

 

[Lysander]

dissatisfaction with life - 5%
autism - 5%
mental health - 30%
self hatred - 60%

 

[CantWait2D1E]

100% Ugly

 

[Ghostofthepast]

Being alone- 10%
Financial hardship- 5%
Physical health problem- 5%
Forgotten thrownaway or used 30%
Romantic relationship gone wrong - 50%

 

[bluefeather177]

40% lack of meaning in life and career
20% loss of relationship
20% mental health
10% don't want to exist in what this world is becoming
10% looks and overall physical health

 

[CentreMid]

Given my current circumstances:

25% - job loss
25% - money issues
20% - romantic relationship trouble
15% - mental illness
10% - family relationship trouble
5% - state of the world

 

[suprswag]

Mental health issues 30%
eating habits 15%
traumatic past experience 30%
being lied to in relationships/taken advantage of 20%
self hatred 5%

 

[terrastella]

>feeling both unbelonging and unavailable towards life since early youth
>exhausted caring about people and not being able to stop unmasking
>lackluster feelings towards human consciousness
>frustration about infrastructural failure, from social to financial to medical
>lots of attempted recovery lots of reflection lead me incredibly far >but i found it to be daunting when i realized that "getting help" is actually not very helpful for me
>after being hospitalized at 14, i wasnt motivated to do it for myself anymore
>and when i did find motivation after taking mushrooms at 17, i learned that the joy was just short-lived and life became underwhelming again (ive dabbled a few times now)
>at 18, i had an incredibly vivid death dream that made me start to crave death stronger than ever, like it was a spring upon hours of a resourceless trek through the wilds
>this made me spiral to the deepest depths of mental illness
>i found communities of different types of people with their own thoughts on death
>through it i became a lot more objective about grief, dying, postmortem, etc. and developed my own feelings about the whole
>to me it's all about letting go. letting go of time, letting go of the elements, letting go of space, of the senses. there is a lot to sacrifice and the fact will never be lost on me even until the end, but the prospect of being absolutely nothing is much more appealing than thinking about it
>ntm i've accepted if i'm going to hell:^)

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

50 % old age (growing)
50 % autassassinophilia (decreasing)

 

[redisblue]

50% Trauma
50% Mental illness

 

[Georg]

100% ugly middle aged man

 

[kindalone]

Inability to function like a normal human 70%
Bad upbringing 20%
Mental illness 10%

 

[koko]

40% health reasons
40% financial
20% in love with someone other then my spouse

 

[downndone2]

Mental/physical illness - 20%
Financial hardship - 35%
Past, recent or upcoming crisis, mistakes - 35%
Romantic relationship wrong: 10%

 

[Zulu]

40% wage/debt slavery for life, plus overall lack of purpose
25% trans
20% no real family or support
5% mental illness
5% trauma triggers inducing powerful tunnel vision with ideation
5% misanthropy with the state of the world