Break down in therapy

[trying ungracefully]

I had therapy yesterday and we went to every other week because I felt like I was in a good place. But then it came crashing down when I went in and started realizing I'm not as good as I thought I was.

I can't shower or brush my teeth regularly, it's hard getting out of bed, I don't like playing the games I used to anymore even though they are my favorite things in the world. I got stuck in progress and won't leave the house anymore unless it's in the car.

I don't know if it's depression or me. I feel okay and I don't want to kill myself it's just hard to find the willpower to do anything. I still read but I have to force myself for that. I even hate going on my phone. The only thing I like is spending time with my boyfriend or family because they can really uplift my mood.

My therapist told me to talk to my psychiatrist but I don't think medication is the answer. It really does just feel like me not being able to do things as who I am. Like some people just have executive functioning issues naturally and I feel like I've been depressed for so long other than mania that I got used to not being able to do things much.

It's hard. I know what I need to do but it's just a mental block that is there keeping me in the same patterns. I went back to weekly with my therapist and she offered to go dog walking with me so I can deal with the not leaving the house portion. I went out with her before a few times and it does help it's just that I need to get over the initial block and fear

 

[TheShadowQueen]

How do you know medication isn't the answer if you haven't at least tried it yet. I have adhd and I'm the exact same way when I'm not on my meds for that day.

I get some people just have motivation issues like you said but at least try all the options available to you. A lot of people don't have the privilege to have both a therapist and psychiatrist don't take it for granted.

 

[trying ungracefully]

How do you know medication isn't the answer if you haven't at least tried it yet. I have adhd and I'm the exact same way when I'm not on my meds for that day.

I get some people just have motivation issues like you said but at least try all the options available to you. A lot of people don't have the privilege to have both a therapist and psychiatrist don't take it for granted.

I'm already on a lot. Five different ones for bipolar and anxiety, I'm definitely taking advantage lol. And they work relatively well it's just that there's just a block sometimes and I can't tell if it's me or depression. I don't like the amount of medication I'm on either so it's kind of hard to want to change it especially because it's been working well up until now.

I don't want to keep pumping in different things hoping it works, it really gets to a point with being medicated. Sometimes it's something that needs to be worked out in therapy and I'm processing what's going on and we are looking for solutions. I just don't think medication is going to fix what's going on and I'd rather wait it out and work in therapy.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I'm already on a lot. Five different ones for bipolar and anxiety, I'm definitely taking advantage lol. And they work relatively well it's just that there's just a block sometimes and I can't tell if it's me or depression. I don't like the amount of medication I'm on either so it's kind of hard to want to change it especially because it's been working well up until now.

I don't want to keep pumping in different things hoping it works, it really gets to a point with being medicated. Sometimes it's something that needs to be worked out in therapy and I'm processing what's going on and we are looking for solutions. I just don't think medication is going to fix what's going on and I'd rather wait it out and work in therapy.

my guess is it could be too much medication causing a glitch, a doctor can reduce and swap stuff to help fix it.. tho I genuinely don't know how much of the medication is the reason, vs other reasons, or both