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How did you arrive here?

  • YouTube Video

    Votes: 66 37.1%
  • NYT Article

    Votes: 19 10.7%
  • Searching online for methods

    Votes: 63 35.4%
  • Referred by a friend

    Votes: 3 1.7%
  • Other

    Votes: 27 15.2%

  • Total voters
    178
Laivirt

Laivirt

No one is going to save you.
Feb 5, 2023
31
I think I randomly found this place while searching up the Lost All Hope website.

I didn't make an account until I watched Tantacrul's video, ironically enough.
 
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00nobody00

Member
Jan 25, 2023
44
I came across this site while researching methods on how to end myself. I would sort of lurk on here from time to time and decided to be a part of this community. In a way this site is sort of helping me a little. I enjoy interacting with others who are also traversing the abyss.
 
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terminalending

terminalending

Student
Feb 18, 2023
148
네, 저도 그렇습니다! 전 반은 한국인이에요. 우리 아빠가 인천 출신이거든요! 어렸을 때 많이 배우지 못해서 한국어는 서툴지만요. 제가 배울 수 있도록 도와주시겠어요? 친구가 되고 싶어요!
칭! 예전에는 서울에서 살다가 2021년에 영국에 왔어요. 솔직히 싫은데 부담스럽네요! 하지만 저는 친구가 되고 싶습니다. 제 영어가 어렵기 때문에 다른 사람들과 한국어로 말할 수 있어서 기분이 좋습니다. 하지만 내 한국어 페이드 ㅋㅋㅋ 를 느낄 수 있습니다. 나는 당신의 가장 친한 친구가 될 것입니다 ㅋㅋㅋ
 
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Zykg85

Zykg85

Member
Sep 30, 2021
40
I used to lurk on ash.methods & ash.holidays usenet boards. When it got taken down, i went looking for alternatives. Stumbled on articles about this place and immediately came to sign up
 
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SamTam33

Warlock
Oct 9, 2022
763
This was a good idea to gauge where the traffic comes from. I'm not surprised by the results at all.
 
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Implicationz

Member
Jan 10, 2023
7
I googled ways to CTB, everything is pretty much removed from the results except for self help (etc). There was a really obscure result that popped up- which was a cached copy of SaSu.net, Stan, talking about SN. So I fired up a VPN and here I am.

This place helped me choose a method that is less painful, stressful (on myself and others) and a little bit more dignified compared to jumping infront of a train.
 
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codedarchaeologist

codedarchaeologist

everybody ends up where the river meets the sea
Jan 21, 2023
46
tantacrul for me as well - no idea why he was in my recommendations. soon as he mentioned that a forum exists for this, i dropped everything to go look it up. it's the kind of forum ive only dreamed of existing, i never would have thought one *really* exists!
 
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d1987

d1987

Member
Feb 15, 2023
10
I found the forum while looking for a pdf of the PPH
 
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sadDaysAhead

hanging-on-a-thin-rope
Jan 23, 2023
51
i used duckduckgo how to hang yourself back
in 2021
 
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frog_prince

Member
Feb 8, 2023
35
from Google when I searched about exit bag method, I'm so happy that I found this magical place..
 
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Peerless_Cucumber

The one and only king of cucumbers
Feb 22, 2023
130
I watched a YouTube video of someone painting the site in a really bad light. The things he showed though I didn't find them bad at all. I could relate to a lot of the posts. So I figured I'd make an account since this is a site where I can actually speak open about this topic.
 
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Dextroid

Dextroid

Member
Feb 20, 2023
16
I watched Tentacrul's video and searched the comments for the name. I wanted a place I could talk about this stuff and felt like it was misrepresented by that video. Everyone here is much different than how he said.
 
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Peerless_Cucumber

The one and only king of cucumbers
Feb 22, 2023
130
I watched Tentacrul's video and searched the comments for the name. I wanted a place I could talk about this stuff and felt like it was misrepresented by that video. Everyone here is much different than how he said.
I also watched that video and I honestly didn't like the way he talked about the site. He seemed to have a lot of prejudices against it and the people interacting on here.
 
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Zelonis

Member
Jan 22, 2023
43
I found "Sanctioned Suicide" back in December 2022, when I was doing research on the topic of suicide, winter, and the holidays being linked. I instantly liked the forum, as it allowed people to talk freely about suicide. Then, suddenly another shoddy hit piece came out, and I almost immediately signed up for an account, in fear of what would happen. Thankfully, "Sanctioned Suicide" is up almost 2 months later, and hopefully things go back to what it was like in December 2022.
 
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reiko1337

reiko1337

Honestly? No idea.
Mar 12, 2023
34
I found this site around September last year and found it again recently because of a youtube video and decided to finally sign up and now I love this site.
 
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Ozi

Ozi

Life is a hallucination
Mar 14, 2023
21
Tantacrul's video, the title made this place seem way worse then it is. When I actually watched the video I thought "Huh. I actually would quite like a forum similar to that, let's do some research and see if it's as toxic as he says". Needless to say, this is not "The most toxic site I've ever seen"
 
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runrabbit

runrabbit

Professional Hater
Mar 14, 2023
14
Not entirely surprised to see so many people joined from tantacrul's video, myself included.

I felt a sense of relief when I saw the video in my recommended and thought, "Holy shit, a community, a real one, what is it where do I join?"

Went searching for the name after making sure it was legit accounts and not some gear-mongering creepy pasta type business. Very happy that I did.
 
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sorrowed_ender

sorrowed_ender

You should never trust the Pantaloon
Mar 3, 2023
40
Tantacrul's video. I've been on other websites and forums relsted to selfharm and suicide and mental illness, I"ve been in twitter subcommunities relating to suicide and mental illness. His video was a way to warn people about the website but I feel like that backfired on him alot lol. I was scared I'd be denied becausd I found this place through his video, but believe me, since joining I feel alot better knowing that I'm able to talk about my thoughts freely
 
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general bacon

general bacon

Member
Mar 3, 2023
27
Discovered after a friend of mine sent Tantacruls video. Told her I found the site and have been lingering. She didn't like that, so I've told her I stopped for her peace of mind.
 
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EndlessX

Member
Feb 1, 2023
20
Discovered after a friend of mine sent Tantacruls video. Told her I found the site and have been lingering. She didn't like that, so I've told her I stopped for her peace of mind.
I tell people in my life I am not using this site when In fact I am it's really none of their Business
 
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borderline-feline

borderline-feline

Constantly Sleepy Catgirl
Dec 28, 2022
646
I was watching a video about controversial subreddits, and one of the ones mentioned r/timetogo. I checked that sub out and found out about the SaSu subreddit that got banned, which led me here. It took some time before I worked up the nerve to create an account. It was just after Christmas that I joined, and well, you know how winter holidays and suicide go hand in hand.
 
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just_erika

just_erika

Member
Mar 14, 2023
22
was actively looking for a place to properly talk about ending my life and methods
on the clearnet I only found a lot of pro-life bullshit and articles about some "death forum" which probably meant this one. but didn't find a link until my search took me into the dark web where someone mentioned ss on nanochan
 
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crowbait

crowbait

they/them
Oct 4, 2022
65
i am thinking of doing a poll seeing how many people found this place through tantacrul's video... lots in this thread. deeply ironic. along with all the many issues of the video he should have known that going "there's a website where you can learn easy and effective suicide methods" is going to have people seeking out the forum no matter how much he tried to censor it.
 
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InSearchOfLess

InSearchOfLess

Alis volat propriis
Feb 22, 2023
42
The website is listed on the wiki page for Sodium Nitrite
 
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