Help BPD, disabled and just ready to go

[uwantedangel]

Hey I'm new to this site

I have BPD, I'm physically disabled and I am ready to ctb
I don't really know how to do it though
I want it to be as painless as I can access, I've already dealt with enough
Where I live, things like helium and nitrogen aren't accessible, not in its purest form
It's cause of all the people who've attempted using those methods
I don't wanna go out seeking drugs either
Im thinking of smoking some of my medical to get rid of the nerves then doing partial hanging
I don't know how successful that is though
Please help
I can't access a lot, it's hard to leave my bed, my legs don't work properly and everything hurts

 

[kelimackie]

I don't know the extent of your disability, but I'd advice against hanging, since you would need to get on a chair and be able to maintain balance for a little while.

OD or poisoning seems a bit more safe, I don't know where you live, but maybe try getting access to SN, as it's fairly simple and doesn't demand any physical strength.

 

[uwantedangel]

I don't know the extent of your disability, but I'd advice against hanging, since you would need to get on a chair and be able to maintain balance for a little while.

OD or poisoning seems a bit more safe, I don't know where you live, but maybe try getting access to SN, as it's fairly simple and doesn't demand any physical strength.

I've been seeing a lot about SN, but I don't know what it is
Mind filling me in?
Would it be something accessible in Australia

 

[kelimackie]

I've been seeing a lot about SN, but I don't know what it is
Mind filling me in?
Would it be something accessible in Australia

Sodium Nitrite is a salt used mostly in meats like sausages, it's extremely toxic in large quantities, and since it's a common ingredient in the making of these meats, it should be fairly easy to obtain.

Unfortunately in places like UK or US, it's not. I don't know about Australia though.

 

[uwantedangel]

Sodium Nitrite is a salt used mostly in meats like sausages, it's extremely toxic in large quantities, and since it's a common ingredient in the making of these meats, it should be fairly easy to obtain.

Unfortunately in places like UK or US, it's not. I don't know about Australia though.

Honestly, I don't have the energy to seek out stuff

I think my legs are in okay enough condition to do partial hanging, they're not paralysed or anything
I just dont want it to fail

 

[kelimackie]

Honestly, I don't have the energy to seek out stuff

I think my legs are in okay enough condition to do partial hanging, they're not paralysed or anything
I just dont want it to fail

Do a few test drives before, that's what most people who choose that method do.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really so cruel and horrible how people aren't allowed to have the option to just die in peace to escape from all the suffering. I wish that there's a straightforward way to just leave, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[uwantedangel]

It's really so cruel and horrible how people aren't allowed to have the option to just die in peace to escape from all the suffering. I wish that there's a straightforward way to just leave, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

It's unfortunate, I'm pretty sure where I live I could get medical assisted death on account of my BPD but it's so tedious to do
I'm feeling a bit better now, had a really bad patch there
But at the end of the day I'm probably still gonna take myself out eventually
Why delay the inevitable? Why keep letting someone suffer

 

[IWishToDie]

It's unfortunate, I'm pretty sure where I live I could get medical assisted death on account of my BPD but it's so tedious to do
I'm feeling a bit better now, had a really bad patch there
But at the end of the day I'm probably still gonna take myself out eventually
Why delay the inevitable? Why keep letting someone suffer

Hey, I'm Australian too and hunting for SN. Lost my spinal curve and have neck damage. I will follow you!