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[Namelesa]

819

 

[darkest]

820

 

[HereWeGo!]

821

 

[darkest]

822

 

[Namelesa]

821

 

[darkest]

822

 

[Namelesa]

821

 

[darkest]

if only heartache could kill

822

 

[Namelesa]

I wish, I would have died multiple times already if that could kill someone.

821

 

[darkest]

822 - I knowww right, I would've died an uncountable amount of times atp

 

[Namelesa]

821

 

[darkest]

I'm still pissed off about SI kicking my ass every time I've attempted so far, every single year I survived after a major attempt that I failed, ended up with an even worse year after it, I will keep trying this entire year until I fucking die from trying
822

 

[Namelesa]

I hope that one attempt works out the way you want it to. SI is so controlling and honestly for me feels like my brain is manipulating me into not dying.

821

 

[darkest]

822 - I feel you so much, it just always finds a way to get you to do something so that you fail

one time i was too exhausted and SI was like, maybe you should sleep and do it another time
another time, I took a nap beforehand and set an alarm, SI: hOw AbOuT nO, and i stayed in bed until i fell asleep again
another time, i slept a lot beforehand so that i didn't need a nap, minor inconvenience happens that can be fixed, SI: ehhhh let's do it later, we messed up enough already.
another time, i had everything perfectly in place, i was literally getting hanged and was close to losing consciousness, SI: FOR THY I SUMMON THE URGE TO LIVE LIFE NO MATTER HOW ABSURD OR MISERABLE IT MAY BE also +100000 panic points that forces your body to get up...
im so fucking done :')

 

[Namelesa]

Is its so awful that are own instincts made from evolution are disadvantaging us :c I really wish I had access to more methods, especially stuff like jumping or a gun as I can't back out in the middle of it.

821

 

[darkest]

822 - same :(

 

[NoPoint2Life]

822 - I feel you so much, it just always finds a way to get you to do something so that you fail

one time i was too exhausted and SI was like, maybe you should sleep and do it another time
another time, I took a nap beforehand and set an alarm, SI: hOw AbOuT nO, and i stayed in bed until i fell asleep again
another time, i slept a lot beforehand so that i didn't need a nap, minor inconvenience happens that can be fixed, SI: ehhhh let's do it later, we messed up enough already.
another time, i had everything perfectly in place, i was literally getting hanged and was close to losing consciousness, SI: FOR THY I SUMMON THE URGE TO LIVE LIFE NO MATTER HOW ABSURD OR MISERABLE IT MAY BE also +100000 panic points that forces your body to get up...
im so fucking done :')

And you would think being tired or exhausted would help si in the moment, but it doesn't. That's why drugging yourself for most other methods probably won't even work in the end.
821

 

[darkest]

822 - yup! I remember one time I had too much alcohol and wanted to CTB but kept blacking out, had a terrible hangover and couldn't even die right

 

[HereWeGo!]

Is its so awful that are own instincts made from evolution are disadvantaging us :c I really wish I had access to more methods, especially stuff like jumping or a gun as I can't back out in the middle of it.

821

I dream really much of ending it all with a gun, but I can't get any :(

823.

 

[darkest]

824

 

[Namelesa]

823

 

[darkest]

824

 

[Namelesa]

823

 

[HereWeGo!]

I've never tried drugs/medications. But I think it's the only way to defeat SI.

824

 

[darkest]

825 - not really no, the only thing I found out actually helps is meditation

 

[NoPoint2Life]

824

 

[darkest]

825

 

[Namelesa]

824

 

[darkest]

825

 

[HereWeGo!]

826