BandAddict

BandAddict

Specialist
Apr 3, 2019
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I've been insecure about my body since I was 13. It came out of nowhere, and I wasn't in school yet, but it got so much worse when I stayed with family out-of-state. Their judgement was relentless. My self-image has been almost completely obliterated. I feel like when my eating disorder got bad enough, I actually started to feel like I could accept myself, but I always wanted to lose more to make up for other insecurities. Dysmorphia just wouldn't let up for more than a few seconds, then it's always back to always seeing something new and strange in the mirror.

Now that I'm somewhat "healthy" again after starting recovery a few months ago, I hate it. I fucking hate it so much but it's too late to go back. I will never be at peace with myself. I hate the way my body has changed back into something I can't stand and can barely look at. I hate this body.

I feel shitty for feeling this way, because no matter how much I think I look fucked up, a lot of people don't think so, and I've probably received far more compliments than insults. I just don't feel like it will fix my scewed perception of myself.
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,988
I'm really sorry to hear this.
However, I bet you have some positive things. Body is not everything.

Still, I understand what you mean. It's not the same but I hate my body now. I got way too fat.
S l300 Wornoutlife, have you tried these? They really do work,are not expensive, l started on them at 14-stone a year ago and am now at 11.2 stone! I intend to lose another stone, Hope this helps :-)
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
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Wornoutlife, have you tried these? They really do work,are not expensive, l started on them at 14-stone a year ago and am now at 11.2 stone! I intend to lose another stone, Hope this helps :-)

Hey pal! I had no clue about them!
Thanks for sharing. I'll take a look. :)
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,988
I hate my body with a passion. I'm short, semi bald, size 5 feet, tiny hands, excess skin after weight loss, underdeveloped genitals, large birth mark on leg, bland looking face along with a huge collection of physical and mental illnesses. I'm a walking state of emergency. I'm surprised the early warning system doesn't activate everytime I leave the house.

I hate my body with a passion. I'm short, semi bald, size 5 feet, tiny hands, excess skin after weight loss, underdeveloped genitals, large birth mark on leg, bland looking face along with a huge collection of physical and mental illnesses. I'm a walking state of emergency. I'm surprised the early warning system doesn't activate everytime I leave the house.
I'm short as well(5ft-7ins) small paw's, bald and still sporting a 90's goatee,Your not alone Mick!
Sorry about the double quote folks l'm not very Techno savvy
 
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death137

miserable
Jun 25, 2020
1,166
I hate my body. I feel like I'm the most disgusting person to ever lived.
I don't like my looks either. I'm baby faced, short and extremely scrawny. Legit never seen a guy with smaller or daintier hands than mine.

Can't even lift weights to make up for it cuz back and knee injuries, and even if I did I'd still end up weaker than the average guy untrained.



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My hand is smaller than you. Its the same size of young girls but it doesn't bother me much. But being of short height is painful.
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,050
I hate my body. I feel like I'm the most disgusting person to ever lived.

My hand is smaller than you. Its the same size of young girls but it doesn't bother me much. But being of short height is painful.
What height are you? I'm a shortarse too, I'm only 5ft 6" and I have size 5 feet.
 
orlandom

orlandom

Mage
Mar 4, 2021
514
My body suits me. I don't like people who hurt me
 
GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
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I am shorter than 200cm (manlet cut-off in 2021). Primary reason to ctb, tbh.
 
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Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,050
162cm (approximately 5'4)
This might not mean anything if you're not into motorbikes, but Dani Pedrosa was 5'1 and a highly skilled MotoGP rider which are the most powerful motorbikes on the planet. So there's hope for us.
I am shorter than 200cm (manlet cut-off in 2021). Primary reason to ctb, tbh.
WHAT? MANLET? ANOTHER WORD I DON'T KNOW!!! WHAT THE FUCKS A MANLET?
 
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Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
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Yes, just looked up manlet. I'm definitely not one of those as I have no muscles. Should see the state of me "manoeuvring" my 200kg bike about. It's like a dung beetle trying to push a trex dungball around.
 
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Deformationalplagio

Born deformed
Dec 28, 2019
376
I wonder if anyone of you can't stand body he or she was given by mother nature . I feel terrible inside my own body. I was given different nervous system when compared to other people. I hate it. I always hated it. Now I am in situation when I don't want to wake up in the morning in this body anymore. I am subject of abuse plus people call me weirdo. I hate being different. I don't know how to deal with this problem. I hate myself due to how my body works. Unfortunately nothing can be done about it. This is what I was given and I will die like that. I will never have a chance to feel like normal people feel.
Im very very badly deformed im probably in the top 20 of the world honestly and i know exactly what you feel if not more.
 
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death137

miserable
Jun 25, 2020
1,166
This might not mean anything if you're not into motorbikes, but Dani Pedrosa was 5'1 and a highly skilled MotoGP rider which are the most powerful motorbikes on the planet. So there's hope for us.
I'm also deformed/ugly, unintelligent and have fear about lots of things. There is no hope.
 
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