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OutOfTheVoid

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Feb 10, 2023
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my preferred method to ctb would be to od, however i attempted before and was too scared to go high enough in dose

i have a few different substances i can easily access. i want to combine xanax gabapentin and dxm. maybe alcohol too, maybe kratom? i dont want to throw up or be in pain or panic or have a 'bad trip' while dying. i just want to peacefully disappear into void. so im thinking of taking all my xannies and gabbies and just a lower amount of dex like 2nd plat, maybe a little alcohol but not too much bc im a lightweight. that would maximize sedation and probably kill any anxiety right? can that combo kill me if i dose high enough? if i dont have enough or it doesnt work then maybe i'll just keep fucking around with getting high and gambling on the chance that i 'accidentally' od and die. thats what ive been doing, but im getting tired of it and i feel guilty doing it since i made a promise to be clean. techically i made a promise to live too and not hurt myself, but i cant keep those promises anymore, im sorry
 
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Aug 28, 2022
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I don't think it'll be easy to do on that combination. You'll need something that accentuates the respiratory depression of the Xanax like morphine and in large quantities. It's not worth ODing on the above, you'll just suffer for it ❤️
 

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