I have recently been diagnosed with terminal brain cancer. If I am lucky, I might live for another year, but chance of recovery is extremely unlikely.
I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts and attempts since the age of 11 due to a rough ubringing, with my parents actively contributing to my poor physical health and chronic illness that has left me mostly unable to function like a proper adult. I have spent most of my adult life bedridden, unable to properly socialize or enjoy life.
The thought of dying does not really scare me. However, I do not want to spend a year slowly withering away physically and mentally. Unfortunately, I live in central Europe, so euthanasia is not legal here and I do not have the money to afford euthanasia in Switzerland. Living in Europe also means I have no access to guns or chemicals like SN, KNO2 or cyanide without a chemist license.
I still want to die, but I want it to be quick. I know slicing wrists is not a valid method, dropping a toaster in bath will probably not work either (though I have an old apartment which has not been renovated since the 70s so there might be a chance that the safety circuits are not there or won't work as well) and trying to overdose on antidepressants is extremely risky and unreliable.
As such, could anyone recommend other methods that might work? Again, I refuse to suffer through months of detoriation. Only options I can currently think of are jumping off a tall building or jumping under a train, but I would honestly prefer to die in the privacy of my own home if possible. I am fine with some pain as long as the method is quick enough to make up for it.
I will appreciate any and all advice. I feel slightly awkward asking strangers online for the best suicide method, but as I mentioned, I find the thought of a quick, self induced death much less harrowing than a slow decline where I will be kept alive for as long as possible against my will.
I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts and attempts since the age of 11 due to a rough ubringing, with my parents actively contributing to my poor physical health and chronic illness that has left me mostly unable to function like a proper adult. I have spent most of my adult life bedridden, unable to properly socialize or enjoy life.
The thought of dying does not really scare me. However, I do not want to spend a year slowly withering away physically and mentally. Unfortunately, I live in central Europe, so euthanasia is not legal here and I do not have the money to afford euthanasia in Switzerland. Living in Europe also means I have no access to guns or chemicals like SN, KNO2 or cyanide without a chemist license.
I still want to die, but I want it to be quick. I know slicing wrists is not a valid method, dropping a toaster in bath will probably not work either (though I have an old apartment which has not been renovated since the 70s so there might be a chance that the safety circuits are not there or won't work as well) and trying to overdose on antidepressants is extremely risky and unreliable.
As such, could anyone recommend other methods that might work? Again, I refuse to suffer through months of detoriation. Only options I can currently think of are jumping off a tall building or jumping under a train, but I would honestly prefer to die in the privacy of my own home if possible. I am fine with some pain as long as the method is quick enough to make up for it.
I will appreciate any and all advice. I feel slightly awkward asking strangers online for the best suicide method, but as I mentioned, I find the thought of a quick, self induced death much less harrowing than a slow decline where I will be kept alive for as long as possible against my will.
