• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
lilurki

lilurki

Member
Mar 18, 2025
76
I just found out because I have been put in an involuntary hold, I won't be able to buy a gun cause I won't be able to pass a background check. I don't know what to do, I still really want to die via firearm but now it seems like that might not be an option for me. My creative lil mind is like maybe I could try to source one privately somehow or find an army man near me and use his (sorry to traumatize you soldier but I gotta do what I gotta do) this really dampened the relief and good mood I was getting close to having. PLEASE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: moonflow3r, Pale_Rider, bsb601 and 1 other person
ctemourge

ctemourge

and by the time ur hearing this ill already b gone
Aug 14, 2023
120
i am in the same situation which is why firearms have been taken off my list :/ the only thing i can really think of is buying one off the street but that poses so many risks its not even worth it imo .
 
  • Like
Reactions: bsb601 and lilurki
Halfhourdays

Halfhourdays

"Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt."
Mar 14, 2025
621
You said you're homeless. Do you stay in a shelter?
 
Dr. Finklestein

Dr. Finklestein

Member
Jul 31, 2024
40
I just found out because I have been put in an involuntary hold, I won't be able to buy a gun cause I won't be able to pass a background check. I don't know what to do, I still really want to die via firearm but now it seems like that might not be an option for me. My creative lil mind is like maybe I could try to source one privately somehow or find an army man near me and use his (sorry to traumatize you soldier but I gotta do what I gotta do) this really dampened the relief and good mood I was getting close to having. PLEASE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
you may not like this but encouraging you not to act in the moment. Think this through, give it several considerations. You can always plan something out after careful consideration.
 
lilurki

lilurki

Member
Mar 18, 2025
76
i am in the same situation which is why firearms have been taken off my list :/ the only thing i can really think of is buying one off the street but that poses so many risks its not even worth it imo .
I'm sorry, I am literally so distressed I finally thought I had found the solution, even made a post about it. I don't understand why states insist on keeping people who don't want to be alive from killing themselves. Like will you provide resources or help to address the underlying issues of our suffering? No of course not just keep us alive so you can profit off our misery thanks.
You said you're homeless. Do you stay in a shelter?
I stay in transitional housing through my local mental health facility it's a decent little house I guess I don't know.
you may not like this but encouraging you not to act in the moment. Think this through, give it several considerations. You can always plan something out after careful consideration.
I genuinely don't know what to do, live in misery for the rest of my life? 😭
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: bsb601, eggsausagerice and ctemourge
ctemourge

ctemourge

and by the time ur hearing this ill already b gone
Aug 14, 2023
120
I'm sorry, I am literally so distressed I finally thought I had found the solution, even made a post about it. I don't understand why states insist on keeping people who don't want to be alive from killing themselves. Like will you provide resources or help to address the underlying issues of our suffering? No of course not just keep us alive so you can profit off our misery thanks.
i absolutely agree with you !! i think they offer mediocre "resources" as a liability issue. nobody can be legally held responsible because they "tried to help" . but they genuinely dont care. its all a plot to make money and profit off people who are desperately trying to survive throughout this mess. i almost want to go to canada because i heard assisted suicide for people diagnosed with BPD has been approved. im not necessarily sure if thats factual but the fact that somewhere would allow me to go peacefully as i deserve, makes me have a little hope that theres a way out :/ im sorry you're in distress. i know that feeling all too well. anything that makes money will prevail unfortunately!! thank god this website exists because i would truly be so lost without it
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: 377e8372662, eggsausagerice and lilurki
lilurki

lilurki

Member
Mar 18, 2025
76
i absolutely agree with you !! i think they offer mediocre "resources" as a liability issue. nobody can be legally held responsible because they "tried to help" . but they genuinely dont care. its all a plot to make money and profit off people who are desperately trying to survive throughout this mess. i almost want to go to canada because i heard assisted suicide for people diagnosed with BPD has been approved. im not necessarily sure if thats factual but the fact that somewhere would allow me to go peacefully as i deserve, makes me have a little hope that theres a way out :/ im sorry you're in distress. i know that feeling all too well. anything that makes money will prevail unfortunately!! thank god this website exists because i would truly be so lost without it
Do you have bpd as well then? It seems we have a lot in common. I heard the same thing regarding Canada and assisted suicide and it's a nice thought but I have no idea how I'd get there 💔
 
  • Love
Reactions: eggsausagerice
CantTurnBack

CantTurnBack

thank you.
Sep 21, 2023
89
Depending on your location you may still be able to obtain a firearm via private sales, which wouldn't require any background checks whatsoever.
 
  • Like
Reactions: lilurki
lilurki

lilurki

Member
Mar 18, 2025
76
ctemourge

ctemourge

and by the time ur hearing this ill already b gone
Aug 14, 2023
120
Do you have bpd as well then? It seems we have a lot in common. I heard the same thing regarding Canada and assisted suicide and it's a nice thought but I have no idea how I'd get there 💔
unfortunately i do have bpd yes. im sorry u relate to that as well, this disorder is nooootttt for the weak😩 i know your pain all too well. it sucks it really does. i wonder how ill get there too. i'm like prepared to hold my diagnosis paperwork and beg for euthanasia lol im that desperate at this point . are you in the usa too? i know the "help" they offer us is a JOKE. genuinely. all they want is my paycheck lmao
 
  • Like
Reactions: lilurki
CantTurnBack

CantTurnBack

thank you.
Sep 21, 2023
89
I did do some research regarding this and I would be able to purchase a firearm this way I just am not sure how to go about finding a private seller…
Well, there are some markets online that are intended specifically for that purpose.
 
lilurki

lilurki

Member
Mar 18, 2025
76
unfortunately i do have bpd yes. im sorry u relate to that as well, this disorder is nooootttt for the weak😩 i know your pain all too well. it sucks it really does. i wonder how ill get there too. i'm like prepared to hold my diagnosis paperwork and beg for euthanasia lol im that desperate at this point . are you in the usa too? i know the "help" they offer us is a JOKE. genuinely. all they want is my paycheck lmao
Yes I am unfortunately in the US of A. I have no idea why my fucking state is keeping me alive against my will like this it feels so criminal. If you do ever make it to Canada take me with you please 🙏😭
Well, there are some markets online that are intended specifically for that purpose.
Oh???
 
Last edited:
P

pointlessliving

Member
Apr 8, 2025
29
Yes I am unfortunately in the US of A. I have no idea why my fucking state is keeping me alive against my will like this it feels so criminal. If you do ever make it to Canada take me with you please 🙏😭

Oh???
Someone recommended Armslist so I tried it but all the buyers are asking for proof of residence and ids for background checks so I have been unsuccessful in procuring one :( Are there other platforms you can share about?
 
LastNite

LastNite

I love you!
Mar 31, 2025
626
I recommend fentanyl overdose. It may not be what you've wished for but it's easy to get if you're in the U.S and it's peaceful. If you do insist on a fire arm then look up 3d printing a gun it's totally legal to 3d print a gun as long as you don't sell it. Buying a bullet shouldn't require any firearm license as long as you're not buying a lot of bullets or a big caliber.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Pale_Rider
P

pointlessliving

Member
Apr 8, 2025
29
I recommend fentanyl overdose. It may not be what you've wished for but it's easy to get if you're in the U.S and it's peaceful. If you do insist on a fire arm then look up 3d printing a gun it's totally legal to 3d print a gun as long as you don't sell it. Buying a bullet shouldn't require any firearm license as long as you're not buying a lot of bullets or a big caliber.
How do you get fentanyl? I have scouted some suspicious neighborhoods in my city but don't really know who to ask for what
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Pale_Rider
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,471
If you try printing out a gun, Id guess Gman will be knocking, or kicking the door in.
 
apict

apict

Member
May 4, 2025
36
I recommend fentanyl overdose. It may not be what you've wished for but it's easy to get if you're in the U.S and it's peaceful. If you do insist on a fire arm then look up 3d printing a gun it's totally legal to 3d print a gun as long as you don't sell it. Buying a bullet shouldn't require any firearm license as long as you're not buying a lot of bullets or a big caliber.
Living in the usa (Oregon), I would also like to know how to easily get F. Please pm me if you're willing to help.
Well, there are some markets online that are intended specifically for that purpose.
You might also look into gun shows.
 
Last edited:
LastNite

LastNite

I love you!
Mar 31, 2025
626
How do you get fentanyl? I have scouted some suspicious neighborhoods in my city but don't really know who to ask for what
I'm ordering it online, I know a market very trustworthy and a vendor who mainly sells fentanyl. I can teach you how to get on there and how to buy it. He sells a sample of 100mgs that costs $26 sadly he only does USA->USA I'm pretty sure. But if you don't live in the U.S there's other vendors but you'll have to check the reviews and make sure the vendor doesn't have a really bad rep. 2 bad reviews is alright but more than that it's just not worth it to buy from him. The guy I'm buying from has good support so if it doesn't arrive he'll probably reship it if you ask him.
 
  • Like
Reactions: VargosMelon
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
If you try printing out a gun, Id guess Gman will be knocking, or kicking the door in.
How would the government know what you're printing? Anyone can access/dl the files necessary for printing. They're available all over the web.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Pale_Rider
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,471
How would the government know what you're printing? Anyone can access/dl the files necessary for printing. They're available all over the web.
Probably the files themselves. Gonna make waves finding those I would think.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Probably the files themselves. Gonna make waves finding those I would think.
I don't think it's as difficult as what it seems like it should be. Honestly, it's not. If concerned about "making waves", just use a public wifi connection and encryption. There's still a couple "pieces" that might prove more challenging (for the OP) to get, but certainly not impossible.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Pale_Rider
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,471
I don't think it's as difficult as what it seems like it should be. Honestly, it's not. If concerned about "making waves", just use a public wifi connection and encryption. There's still a couple "pieces" that might prove more challenging (for the OP) to get, but certainly not impossible.
well there is the round itself. Not going to print that. personally its not worth it. that's just me.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
well there is the round itself. Not going to print that. personally its not worth it. that's just me.
No, you can't really print the round. Unfortunately.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Pale_Rider
P

pointlessliving

Member
Apr 8, 2025
29
I'm ordering it online, I know a market very trustworthy and a vendor who mainly sells fentanyl. I can teach you how to get on there and how to buy it. He sells a sample of 100mgs that costs $26 sadly he only does USA->USA I'm pretty sure. But if you don't live in the U.S there's other vendors but you'll have to check the reviews and make sure the vendor doesn't have a really bad rep. 2 bad reviews is alright but more than that it's just not worth it to buy from him. The guy I'm buying from has good support so if it doesn't arrive he'll probably reship it if you ask him.
Really? That would be awesome! Feel free to DM!
 

Similar threads

S
Replies
0
Views
175
Suicide Discussion
Slipknot_XV
S
takuyangel
Replies
7
Views
712
Suicide Discussion
aallsskksskk
aallsskksskk
takuyangel
Replies
1
Views
295
Suicide Discussion
rigsid
rigsid