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MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
687
I had been planning on jumping but that has a lot of risk. I don't have gun and don't have enough prescription pills. I'm not confident in my ability to hang
 
antithesis

antithesis

myriads
Sep 9, 2025
25
Hello MiMif.
I am sending a lot of support to you ♥ You are free to choose your own way of going ahead from here on. Big hug ♥

Some non-methods so you do not attempt risky methods.

Jumping is very random. I have known someone who ctb instantly by jumping from a 6 story, not that high, but some others survive on 20+ stories... Seems like a gamble to me.
About prescription pills, is it for sedation (benzos in association to another method), or to OD?
As for hanging, it's OK not to be confident. I myself cannot help you with that, I'm the same... I heard disinhibiting with alcohol beforehand and doing a full drop hanging helps success rates, but take my words with a grain of salt.

In any case I encourage you to lurk around the forum and read the PPH Essentials + January 2025, see if it clears up your thoughts.
Let us know about other constraints you have or about your feelings on the matter.
Good luck and take care ♥
 
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MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
687
Hello MiMif.
I am sending a lot of support to you ♥ You are free to choose your own way of going ahead from here on. Big hug ♥

Some non-methods so you do not attempt risky methods.

Jumping is very random. I have known someone who ctb instantly by jumping from a 6 story, not that high, but some others survive on 20+ stories... Seems like a gamble to me.
About prescription pills, is it for sedation (benzos in association to another method), or to OD?
As for hanging, it's OK not to be confident. I myself cannot help you with that, I'm the same... I heard disinhibiting with alcohol beforehand and doing a full drop hanging helps success rates, but take my words with a grain of salt.

In any case I encourage you to lurk around the forum and read the PPH Essentials + January 2025, see if it clears up your thoughts.
Let us know about other constraints you have or about your feelings on the matter.
Good luck and take care ♥
Thx for this. Is there any thread on super accessible methods?
 
antithesis

antithesis

myriads
Sep 9, 2025
25
Thx for this. Is there any thread on super accessible methods?
You might be referring to this megathread:
 
joaosembraco12

joaosembraco12

Member
May 4, 2024
36
It's sucks, they take away any potential way we have to kill ourselves. I'm obese , so I think hanging would be impossible. I think about jumping off a building or throwing myself in front of a truck on the highway.
 
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MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
687
It's sucks, they take away any potential way we have to kill ourselves. I'm obese , so I think hanging would be impossible. I think about jumping off a building or throwing myself in front of a truck on the highway.
Im not obese but I've tried hanging before and last time the thing I attached it to snapped and I tried partial hanging but genuinely no matter how much I look up how to do it I keep failing. I might try overdosing again ...last time I got help but this time if I don't I might have a chance
 
joaosembraco12

joaosembraco12

Member
May 4, 2024
36
Im not obese but I've tried hanging before and last time the thing I attached it to snapped and I tried partial hanging but genuinely no matter how much I look up how to do it I keep failing. I might try overdosing again ...last time I got help but this time if I don't I might have a chance
If you have money, there are methods of chemical asphyxiation, such as carbon monoxide, exit bags, and so on. I think suicide is legal in Switzerland and Canada too, that would be the best way.
 
MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
687
If you have money, there are methods of chemical asphyxiation, such as carbon monoxide, exit bags, and so on.
I'm pretty poor if I gather up all my money I only have like $500 ....$700 of I sell some stuff which I'm currently doing
 
antithesis

antithesis

myriads
Sep 9, 2025
25
If you have money, there are methods of chemical asphyxiation, such as carbon monoxide, exit bags, and so on. I think suicide is legal in Switzerland and Canada too, that would be the best way.
I cannot speak for Canada, but for Switzerland, sadly you need to go through a lengthy medical assessment to actually prove you need it By their standards, of course. Living near Switzerland, I have never read of any cases where someone got it legally from mental health issues alone. The patient (client? lol) always needs to have some form of chronic uncurable physical diseases. So eligibility is super strict there... sorry 😔
 
MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
687
I'm pretty poor if I gather up all my money I only have like $500 ....$700 of I sell some stuff which I'm currently doing
I also live in the US
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,185
I wish there is a straightforward accessible way to just be gone, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have that, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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NellyGoes

Sure.
Aug 16, 2025
166
I think it depends on your specific situation and access etc. and also a bit of research and planning. For example, falling onto hard surface (concrete) doesn't have good chances of survival (if high enough). Even less so if you're skinny (not much cushion), if you (somehow) try to land head first (not butt or arms or legs), and if you ensure you do it when no one is around who could save you shortly after. Also ensure no midway ledge or anything would interfere with the fall. The higher the better of course too.
 
MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
That's the biggest question that we've all been asking ourselves, each other and the dozen or so books we've read. Unfortunately, there's no one method and there's certainly no easy way out.
 
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MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
687
That's the biggest question that we've all been asking ourselves, each other and the dozen or so books we've read. Unfortunately, there's no one method and there's certainly no easy way out.
Honestly jumping is looking like the only way ...but if I become paralyzed....cause the highest place I can find is a 10 story parking garage
 
MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
Honestly jumping is looking like the only way ...but if I become paralyzed....cause the highest place I can find is a 10 story parking garage
Jumping from a high place is something that I considered, but I hate heights and my survival instinct will mostly kick in and I won't follow through.

Honestly, I am sorry that you are experiencing so much pain that you're considering ending your life. I wish I had easier answers.
 
AreWeWinning

AreWeWinning

·
Nov 1, 2021
585
Drowning with weights attached to my body. If I weren't doing hanging, this would probably be my method.

The only problem with it is to find a good location. The biggest risk is being seen and rescued. Otherwise, it's extremely simple and there is no way to survive.
 
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NellyGoes

Sure.
Aug 16, 2025
166
Drowning with weights attached to my body. If I weren't doing hanging, this would probably be my method.

The only problem with it is to find a good location. The biggest risk is being seen and rescued. Otherwise, it's extremely simple and there is no way to survive.
Oh yes! I remember my method I had considered before. It was bathtub with sleeping pills and alcohol. The sleeping pills I'd have are OTC though so I wasn't sure if I'd wake up or subconsciously paddle myself above water. But I was thinking sleepy/drunk enough and then into the bathtub to drown (you can't live with anyone though to not be rescued!!).
 

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