Being treated like garbage when on rebound

[No-name]

I was just feeling a bit better. Loneliness was still getting me extreme down. A bit of contact with a potential girl.

With my parents and brother in heaven its like their shouting to me to come over. When I walk along the ocean the soft sea (the white pale) is calling me. While the whole world seems to be going to nothingness. I seek a few loving people I can find, and they are there.

Then my old friends invite me. And at the day of going to the cinema, one friend calls it quits which is fair enough and invites me for another time. I ask the others and they don' t even reply. Then I hear they went off to another country for a day and didn't care to answer or call off the day we would go to the cinema. And this has not been the first time.

I told the good friend; thanks for always being a good friend to me.

The others started replying in panic lets set a date soon etc. I just gave them the finger.
This is one of the criteria of catching the bus, there is zero empathy for people who have lost everyone and struggle day by day and are on the line.

I feel zero regret towards those friends anymore, except the old days and the one that always had the empathy because he lost his mother at young age. Most people are egocentric and busy with their own lives, which is fine.

But don' t invite me if you cant respect the person you invite. Just leave me alone. Getting closer to the other thread again. I sometimes hate humans. Sorry for my rant. Outside family and maybe one or two friends, some good people wondering about. People aren't there.

 

[insomnia2727]

It seems like unless you can do something for others they don't want to do anything for you especially if they can't relate. I've been thinking about an old friend i had in college and once he joined a fraternity I was nonexistent, especially because I was poor and he was rich. He couldn't relate to me growing up being abused and it depressed him being around me.

People really suck.

 

[PugnaEnjoyer2137]

I was just feeling a bit better. Loneliness was still getting me extreme down. A bit of contact with a potential girl.

With my parents and brother in heaven its like their shouting to me to come over. When I walk along the ocean the soft sea (the white pale) is calling me. While the whole world seems to be going to nothingness. I seek a few loving people I can find, and they are there.

Then my old friends invite me. And at the day of going to the cinema, one friend calls it quits which is fair enough and invites me for another time. I ask the others and they don' t even reply. Then I hear they went off to another country for a day and didn't care to answer or call off the day we would go to the cinema. And this has not been the first time.

I told the good friend; thanks for always being a good friend to me.

The others started replying in panic lets set a date soon etc. I just gave them the finger.
This is one of the criteria of catching the bus, there is zero empathy for people who have lost everyone and struggle day by day and are on the line.

I feel zero regret towards those friends anymore, except the old days and the one that always had the empathy because he lost his mother at young age. Most people are egocentric and busy with their own lives, which is fine.

But don' t invite me if you cant respect the person you invite. Just leave me alone. Getting closer to the other thread again. I sometimes hate humans. Sorry for my rant. Outside family and maybe one or two friends, some good people wondering about. People aren't there.

I'm sorry they treated you like this. I've also been in that place.
After everything ends, such people sometimes have the audacity to say "had I known". They often know, but still act in a egocentric way, which is fine as you said, however let's not pretend that they truly care then.

 

[No-name]

I'm sorry they treated you like this. I've also been in that place.
After everything ends, such people sometimes have the audacity to say "had I known". They often know, but still act in a egocentric way, which is fine as you said, however let's not pretend that they truly care then.

Yes absolutely right. And then they say committing suicide (self euthanasia) is morally wrong. While they where not there.

This close friend is calling me, he is my protecting angel since I was young. I am not answering the phone. My rant towards the other two broke the friendship for good I am sure. I said things, truth mixed with anger and ask them not to contact me ever again. When my brother was dying of negative effects of schizophrenia they where too busy with their own world and who should call who first. There was no true understanding of the horror of slowly seeing your brother die, hitting his head, and me promising euthanasia will come soon. I used to put my hand around his head to stop damaging himself. That one friend understood, but the others where more busy with their own internal politics, musical success, or like friend politics.
And always blaming their father who was a narcissist in their eyes from the dark side, but not able to look at their own side of the story. For instance taking zero responsibility ever for keeping the relationship two sided or dealing with expectations. I scolded them for not taking responsibility for their side of the story in dealing with their dad, who they haven' t seen in 20 years. I did it to end the friendship.

It seems like unless you can do something for others they don't want to do anything for you especially if they can't relate. I've been thinking about an old friend i had in college and once he joined a fraternity I was nonexistent, especially because I was poor and he was rich. He couldn't relate to me growing up being abused and it depressed him being around me.

People really suck.

I had a girlfriend like this, al this mental stuff in my family, she just thought was weird or depressing. While for me taking care of another is the most beautiful thing that a human can do.