Venting being online has made me spiteful.

[Duochrome-Seahorse]

I swear having social media was a mistake. i hate being reminded that everybody in my life has friends they hang out with in person and post it online of all the events and places they went to. I hate it so much because as much as I want to go out and make new friends, I haven't found a place/people i call my people in real life. I don't usually share my whereabouts online (ive been stalked twice) so even flexing is dangerous to me. I wish all the bad things in my life didn't make me this jealous and paranoid.

I'm gonna focus on my portfolio i put off for a really long time so i can have a job that might sustain me for a while, and if i can't find something to do in the next 6 months I'm just gonna cbt, since I cancelled the one that was gonna happen a few days from now because I was given an opportunity to work, but it's going to end soon, and I have to act now to be prepared to get another one.