Being Cringe

[mondaymornings]

I spent like 20 minutes in Suicide Discussion trying to muster up the courage to post about my thoughts, got a few lines of words in, and promptly scrapped the whole thing. The same thing is happening now, I don't even know if I'll end up posting this yet or not.
I have such a difficult time adding to conversations already, much less starting my own. I'm just not at all used to my words meaning much of anything that isn't a joke, I guess.
Explaining is just really hard for me for like no reason, and on top of that, I find myself intimidated by how well read some of you are haha. Thinking like I can't rise up to some unspoken grammar code or something.
I also ramble a lot, which is what I feel like I'm doing now.

Aaaanyway, does anyone else have trouble with these kinds of thoughts? I feel silly asking because like, of course I'm not the only person to ever experience these things, but I guess some physical reminder that I'm not would help.

 

[Sulyya]

I get it - irl I'm quiet in groups almost all the time after years of feeling that I'm not able to participate competently.

Your post seems fine to me. So keep sharing imo

 

[wait.what]

I have a horrible time with spoken conversation, so yes, I understand. I can talk to one person at a time. Once you add one more, I frequently can't figure out how to catch that tiny window of opportunity where someone can speak without interrupting or being interrupted. God help me if there are three or more. It's annoying.

 

[Candy_Catalyst]

Definitely, I'm known to be pretty articulate and well-spoken irl, but certain topics especially explaining my thoughts of myself and emotions get very cloudy and difficult and I have the tendency to revert back to just rambling on about stuff that don't matter. I'm not a fan of social interactions but I love listening or reading people's conversations. I especially enjoy when people have flaws or certain writing quirks,(Horribly written fanfictions and such are why I wake up in the morning) so your post was actually very enjoyable to read :D I hope to see you post more and feel more confident in your writing and talking

 

[Hollowman]

I have the same trouble, brain damage has my vocabulary limited and makes me insecure.

 

[Noise]

I believe I am on the opposite end of the spectrum. What attracted me to join this forum was the fact that many participants are very formal, which permits me to express myself freely without having to confine myself to any particular style of speech that doesn't occur naturally.

However, while I may not be able to relate entirely, I think it's best that you try not to be overly critical of yourself when participating on this forum. I know that's antithetical to how most depressives tend to be, but I find that the active participants here are more likely to try and find things they can relate to in your posts than be critical of. Finding likeminded people is essentially the foundation of this place. Making this post was a good idea. I hope knowing that there are others who have had similar feelings by merely contributing to this forum makes you feel more at ease.

 

[wait.what]

(Horribly written fanfictions and such are why I wake up in the morning)

Oh Lord, me too. For a while I was an editor at a large curated fanfic site. The most amazing thing I ever read was a story that ended in a massive pitched battle, lovingly described in about 45 words. Some of those words were: "Obi-Wan got his leg cut off, but it was put back on in an hour." That will never stop being hilarious to me. I didn't keep a copy of the story, as funny as it was, because I'm pretty sure the author was about nine. You shouldn't keep little children's work around to laugh at. Or at least I chose not to. However, I will never forget the line implying that outer space has strip mall shops with signs saying: "1 Hour Martinizing, Legs Put On While U Wait."

 

[graile]

Don't worry about being cringe on the internet. Bee yourself buzz buzz

I think this worrying about being "cringe" or "tryhard" is part of why most sites on the internet suck so much now. Everyone's so reserved and repressed, and tries to talk like they would IRL. Probably in part a result of more accounts being tied to your real life identity or upvote/downvote systems. Just be unabashedly you.

 

[Xernarot]

It's tough, not being able to post or say what's on your mind. I definitely can relate to one's opinion or words not seeming to have any meaning for others. I've missed out on so many opportunities and situations because I can't bring myself to be as open and direct as I would want to, always something holding me back.



Trying not to take things too seriously though.. Keyword here being *trying* :)

 

[H.O.Xan]

ur welcome to speak ur mind here, keep em coming!

 

[itsallpointless]

You're not alone. How about you PM me and just talk to me however you want? I'll decide if you're cringe(dw I believe I'm pretty cringe myself)

 

[epic]

Very normal .
I keep rehashing, rephrasing sentences over and over before I get them out .

 

[starrycat79]

I feel the same. I've been wanting to post something for days, see someone's opinion about it but when I try to start writing I just can't. Its like all the words are gone from my head, I cant say what I want, I'm afraid of sounding silly or meaningless. english is not my first language which makes it even more difficult, I'm afraid that my writing will sound weird (I know it does), that someone will talk about it and I'll end up feeling stupid. I think about so many things but when I write it down it seems so silly, like a poem written by a 5 year old, idk

 

[ColorlessTrees]

Thought about posting on this thread days ago, but this combined with chronic blank brain got me. Every time I write a post I comb through it over and over and over, editing every little thing because I'm too verbose or stupid.

Pretty sure it's a common feeling, and no one cringe actually talks to each other despite it having potential because "im gonna say the wrong thing, or im gonna say the right thing but say it wrong" Story of my life. Fucked up so many connections/friendships this way.

There are people from all educational backgrounds here, and there's no rule for grammar. It's not Reddit; people shouldn't care how you write. The base meaning 9/10 times will make sense, and if not you just clarify.

Still, I get it. This is so jumbled I'll totally hate myself for posting so impulsively later. It's irrational, but it feels very real.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

Even if you'll come off as cringe or disagree with someone on a topic, it's fine - this place is meant for discussion and to spark conversations and be respectful of eachother regardless of differences of opinions. And I think it's healthy to feel a slight hesitation and think twice before posting - but don't completely scrap it out of anxiety , no-one will eat you up because they think differently than you. And I agree that some people are really eloquent and knowledgeable , and it intimidates me to , but it's normal to feel that way and we can learn a lot from other users (but always take everything with a grain of salt).

 

[OceanBlue]

This world is a mad place, I think the more you ramble the more you're making sense.

You're anonymous here, you can post more and it will get easier with time.. confidence is a delusion of great apes.

 

[valkyrie]

I get anxiety on forums a little bit because everything you say is associated with the same username, but I try not to worry too much. Everybody here tends to be so nice.
I definitely struggle being myself IRL though especially at work, I just give the most mundane answers ever out of fear and everybody thinks I'm boring probably, well and shy too.
But yeah I hate the people who make fun of people for being cringeworthy or stuff, it reminds me of high school bullying.