Venting being broke

[mob]

I actually don't see people talk about this a lot when it comes to being suicidal.
I'm really, terribly fucking broke. I've been trying to find a job for the past seven months. I have debt (the biggest part of it isn't my fault, as this was an error from my old job- and I still have to pay it back) and bills to pay. Just now, my bank randomly took half of my unemployment compensation, which is already low to begin with and I don't even get by with that because I have so much to pay off monthly. I don't buy shit for myself. I can't afford to eat.

Every end of the month, my bank account is in the minus lol. The debt I owe will soon be brought into court and a lawsuit opened -> keep in mind, I live well under the poverty line so even if I desperately wanted to, I couldn't be able to pay. My credit score will be fucked for the rest of my life and I'm only 22 years old.
I don't even feel like a person anymore.

All I think about is money. Every second of the day. I'm too depressed to do anything. When I vent about it to friends and family, the blame is pushed on me. They don't wanna hear it. I doubt you guys wanna hear about it either.

So yeah, I'm cooked, it's over, and it seems like I might have to CTB sooner than I assumed.

 

[here_for_now]

I understand your pain, im almost 21 yrs my credit score is also fucked i spent 10 years trying to start a sucessful business and all I have to show for it is a 20 cent bank balance and chronic ilness no chidhood and a sprinkle of wanting to hang myself every night

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Your friends and family all suck, for treating you like shit over this. I'm sorry you're in this situation, and I wish I knew what to say that could help. At least here you are free to vent as much as you want and no one will blame you for being stuck in such a mess. In your situation, I don't know what I would do, probably end my life like you are considering doing.

Sucks I can't fix your finances for you so you don't have to deal with all the stress. So stupid that companies can sue individuals over things like this, even knowing they are stuck in poverty. It's like they just want to stamp you down into the ground on purpose and kick you while you're down. Banks and corporations are truly evil.

 

[Lamentice]

Debt/poverty is a huge reason for CTBing, I'm not sure why it's not spoken about as much. I know it though, I've been paying my debt down this year, having it gone won't bring more security, I might no longer have debt but I will certainly still be fucking poor. I was over 10k in debt at the beggining of the year, I've paid it down 6k so far.

 

[yotaka]

It's one of the major contributors for me. I can't hold a full-time job and I have more debt than I'll ever be able to pay off. Sucks that this is the way the world is, but thank God
t h e e c o n o m y️
is doing well

 

[DreamingDryad]

Definitely a big factor for me. Genuinely, if I won the lottery I could at least do what I want without worry. Maybe it wouldn't fix the deeper things that hurt, but it would certainly help a LOT. Life feels like a perpetual cycle of catching up and being poor is a huge part of that.