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HFK40000

HFK40000

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
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I constantly feel like either being used by someone or I'm having to beg for someone to notice me. A month ago I was sent to psych observation for five days and there were so many people who claimed to care about me but since that episode so few people have reached out. I really need friends other people but I'm scared that I will become too attached and they will leave me like everyone else.
 
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rest2love

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Nov 5, 2021
38
I can relate to this. Im sorry dude, I can talk to you if you'd like. I really failed at nearly all of my relationships even when I put myself out there. I am invisible and undesirable in pretty much all forms of relationships except being a punching bag. Ive had a few small successes though.
 
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Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
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It really is the worst thing when you get invested in someone and they just honestly don't care about you. It really is a curse to care.
 
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Kokonoe

Worthless Doll
Apr 20, 2023
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I constantly feel like either being used by someone or I'm having to beg for someone to notice me. A month ago I was sent to psych observation for five days and there were so many people who claimed to care about me but since that episode so few people have reached out. I really need friends other people but I'm scared that I will become too attached and they will leave me like everyone else.
It really is the worst thing when you get invested in someone and they just honestly don't care about you. It really is a curse to care.
i feel what both of you are saying so, so much. i hate feeling like i have to beg for anybody's time but that's all i ever get. i'm constantly reminded of my worthlessness and how i'm never worth anyone's time, no matter how much i thought they cared or how close i am to them. caring really is such a curse, it's so awful to care at all that i'm so terrified of just interacting with anyone anymore.
i wish i could just be alone forever and be happy like that. i wish humans weren't social creatures and we could survive on our own without our own biology getting in the way. it really is cruel.
 
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HFK40000

HFK40000

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
97
It really is the worst thing when you get invested in someone and they just honestly don't care about you. It really is a curse to care.
I could imagine a beautiful life where we stayed together. Now, I'll I see if a quick and lonely death.
i feel what both of you are saying so, so much. i hate feeling like i have to beg for anybody's time but that's all i ever get. i'm constantly reminded of my worthlessness and how i'm never worth anyone's time, no matter how much i thought they cared or how close i am to them. caring really is such a curse, it's so awful to care at all that i'm so terrified of just interacting with anyone anymore.
i wish i could just be alone forever and be happy like that. i wish humans weren't social creatures and we could survive on our own without our own biology getting in the way. it really is cruel.
I feel the same, I wish I could be happy being alone at peace with myself but that could never happen.
 
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