Venting Been trying partial hang for CTB all day :’(

[sadboi]

I'm so fucking frustrated. I've been sobbing and trying various versions of partial hanging all day and Idk what I'm still doing wrong. I've used a robe tie, a belt, laying down, sitting, kneeling, n the most I've been able to accomplish is all the blood rushing to my head and jaw n now I have my neck n head hurts. Why is this so fucking hard. I just want it to be over already.

Life feels so pointless and exhausting. I'm lazy, depressed, n just over it all. I hate the way our society runs n I want out already. I'm a fucking loser in my early 30's n I've messed up my life. I don't want to work hard to fix it I just wish I was never born in the first place. Life is expensive af and I'm not even enjoying it. Just surviving trying to get by. I'm bipolar n depressed n I fall into a deep depression every fucking year that ruins any type of progress I might make. I can't hold down a job plus I fucking resent having to work in the first place.

Why won't this fucking partial hang work already?!!!!! FUCKKKKKKKKK!!

 

[AllAlone]

I've been having the same problem. I just want an easy way to die. Why does it have to be so difficult?

 

[sadboi]

I've been having the same problem. I just want an easy way to die. Why does it have to be so difficult?

Wishing us both peace however we can get it.

 

[ihatemyparents]

Same here..

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Imo partial hanging so difficult too achieve bc it's relatively easy to "back out" and SI is usually strong. It's better t go with full, once the chair is kicked and the knots are right there's no way back.

Maybe you find some useful info in this thread if u haven't read this one already.

Best way to succeed partial hanging and overwin SI

Last week, I have been practicing different ways of doing partial hanging and will share which method has worked the best out of all. In order to succeed partial hanging, is to fully block the carotid arteries on both sides of your neck, around 80-90% of the blood flow in the blood vessels has...

www.sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[rozeske]

Am sorry, I can understand the frustration. There is a good probability that you are not putting enough pressure into it. If it's any consolation many others are also having a hard time making this method work. You could find the hanging megathread's last few pages helpful. Wishing you all the best

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so incredibly horrible and cruel how people have to struggle so much to die, it's just hellish to me how people have to resort to methods like that in the first place and cannot just have the option to easily die in peace. But anyway it sounds really dreadful what you are going through, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.