Venting back here again

[sleepydeaths]

i try so hard not to lash out or be angry at others, and i try so hard to be rational and self aware. it's not their fault they can't help me. but i hate how i bear myself out and they just tell me things i already know and don't try to listen further or try to change their approach. i need something but i don't know what i need. i want to be comforted and i didn't feel comforted at all