Venting Autism and low IQ

[derpsie]

Are autistic people with low IQs all just nonverbal? I used to have an IQ of 120-115, was always kind of autistic but could kind of mask, I was really talkative growing up as a kid and couldn't help myself but bother other kids in class. At the age of 14 I tried a dissociative after telling myself I had enough of being hurt by people being mean to me in discord calls in hopes I'd get ego death and become super wise and be above petty insults forever. I ended up dropping in IQ instantly like 5 points with dxm and I just did drugs and took ssris that melted my brain for four years straight during high school and I only stopped once I turned 19. I'm fucking like 90 IQ now and always in ridiculous amounts of mental pain, I'm completely nonverbal in person, my family's aware I'm retarded now but they just ignore it, this shit is hell and I can't escape. I had boughten sn from DMC but after I watched videos of people taking sn and start violently gasping for air for like 20 minutes i threw it out. I'm always hyper anxious and have to take propranolol everyday alongside a shit load of magnesium or else I'll be gritting my teeth super fucking hard the entire day. My life is like hell, I lobotomized myself and I'm too much of a pussy to jump off building or take anything that would cause me to suffer on my way out so I've been stuck as a lonely retard going insane in my room until I get hired at Amazon and make enough money for a car in like 4 months to do the charcoal poisoning thing.

 

[EmptyBottle]

It's quite unfortunate the effects drugs can have, some recovery is possible, I once became semi silent and now I talk moderately (tho not because of drugs).

I've watched too many negative videos of Amazon work to recommend it, tho have heard retail businesses seem to be better.

Spoiler: outdated

Also, the store is temporarily unavailable... Never would I have thought a potential SN source could be found with merely lots of SaSu reading (vs creative search terms)... tho

just because a source says it sells, doesn't mean it won't silently report the purchase (I watched a chemistry supplier video that mentioned that residential orders have sometimes been reported by chemical companies, but my memory of the video is vague)

 

[Docc]

Recovery is very much possible. Also IQ tests mean shit. Even less when you are still young.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Recovery is very much possible. Also IQ tests mean shit. Even less when you are still young.

oh yes, IQ doesn't mean much coz it is a limited test, it doesn't even delve into emotion!

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Uh, did you get these IQ results from an online test or something? Typically a real IQ test has to be administered by a psychologist or some kind of professional and needs to be done in a controlled setting (at least from what I know). The environmental factors impacting IQ also start to lessen with age, and usually stabilize at some point during childhood. Your IQ shouldn't have declined by so much, so I am having doubts about you having ever been administered a real IQ test....

 

[derpsie]

Uh, did you get these IQ results from an online test or something? Typically a real IQ test has to be administered by a psychologist or some kind of professional and needs to be done in a controlled setting (at least from what I know). The environmental factors impacting IQ also start to lessen with age, and usually stabilize at some point during childhood. Your IQ shouldn't have declined by so much, so I am having doubts about you having ever been administered a real IQ test....

Well it took five years of consistent decline to reach this point, I'm just estimating I was around there since I was skipped a grade in elementary school, was noticeably sharp, I got like a 1230 on the SAT my junior year of high school on like my seventh month of Zoloft and after having abused dxm during quarantine and gotten the covid vaccine and that's the closet thing I got to a real IQ test. I recently found out I have a genetic mutation for a gene used in processing medications and drugs so I essentially overdosed and was giving myself immense amounts of brain damage with each drug I experimented with as a child with a developing brain. I guess it's difficult to believe considering how stupid I am now but I mean it's been my life, I barely remember any of it now but I know for certain I wasn't this stupid. Just kind of a weakling led entirely by my emotions which isn't really that smart but I guess I was just wired that way.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Well it took five years of consistent decline to reach this point, I'm just estimating I was around there since I was skipped a grade in elementary school, was noticeably sharp, I got like a 1230 on the SAT my junior year of high school on like my seventh month of Zoloft and after having abused dxm during quarantine and gotten the covid vaccine and that's the closet thing I got to a real IQ test. I recently found out I have a genetic mutation for a gene used in processing medications and drugs so I essentially overdosed and was giving myself immense amounts of brain damage with each drug I experimented with as a child with a developing brain. I guess it's difficult to believe considering how stupid I am now but I mean it's been my life, I barely remember any of it now but I know for certain I wasn't this stupid. Just kind of a weakling led entirely by my emotions which isn't really that smart but I guess I was just wired that way.

Yeah, skipping a grade =/= high IQ. There are plenty of cases of children who do bad in school despite having a high IQ. You can also have an average IQ and still skip a grade. Along with that, how the fuck are you estimating your IQ? I feel like you might just not be as smart as you think you are...

 

[derpsie]

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Yeah, skipping a grade =/= high IQ. There are plenty of cases of children who do bad in school despite having a high IQ. You can also have an average IQ and still skip a grade. Along with that, how the fuck are you estimating your IQ? I feel like you might just not be as smart as you think you are...

It's not like a random guess or anything I literally was just roughly around that smart. Like I did 120-115 iq people shit and talked fast about complicated stuff and taught myself how to do complex stuff for fun. I definitely wasn't just average. If I had still access to the edits I made when I was like 14 I'd show them to you and you'd believe me. I'm fucking sad. I'm not saying I'm that smart anymore I'm legit retarded now. Also 120-115 isn't super impressive it's just above average not genius level. I'm not claiming to have been a genius, just someone whose little bit of potential has withered away completely without having gotten the chance to flourish or mature. Also I'm not lying about my sat score and the circumstances behind it, I plugged that into ChatGPT and that gives a rough estimate back of around 120-115 IQ and I took that test on drugs years ago before I got this dumb.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

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It's not like a random guess or anything I literally was just roughly around that smart. Like I did 120-115 iq people shit and talked fast about complicated stuff and taught myself how to do complex stuff for fun. I definitely wasn't just average. If I had still access to the edits I made when I was like 14 I'd show them to you and you'd believe me. I'm fucking sad. I'm not saying I'm that smart anymore I'm legit retarded now. Also 120-115 isn't super impressive it's just above average not genius level. I'm not claiming to have been a genius, just someone whose little bit of potential has withered away completely without having gotten the chance to flourish or mature. Also I'm not lying about my sat score and the circumstances behind it, I plugged that into ChatGPT and that gives a rough estimate back of around 120-115 IQ and I took that test on drugs years ago before I got this dumb.

Looks like someone's in denial.