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derpsie

derpsie

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Are autistic people with low IQs all just nonverbal? I used to have an IQ of 120-115, was always kind of autistic but could kind of mask, I was really talkative growing up as a kid and couldn't help myself but bother other kids in class. At the age of 14 I tried a dissociative after telling myself I had enough of being hurt by people being mean to me in discord calls in hopes I'd get ego death and become super wise and be above petty insults forever. I ended up dropping in IQ instantly like 5 points with dxm and I just did drugs and took ssris that melted my brain for four years straight during high school and I only stopped once I turned 19. I'm fucking like 90 IQ now and always in ridiculous amounts of mental pain, I'm completely nonverbal in person, my family's aware I'm retarded now but they just ignore it, this shit is hell and I can't escape. I had boughten sn from DMC but after I watched videos of people taking sn and start violently gasping for air for like 20 minutes i threw it out. I'm always hyper anxious and have to take propranolol everyday alongside a shit load of magnesium or else I'll be gritting my teeth super fucking hard the entire day. My life is like hell, I lobotomized myself and I'm too much of a pussy to jump off building or take anything that would cause me to suffer on my way out so I've been stuck as a lonely retard going insane in my room until I get hired at Amazon and make enough money for a car in like 4 months to do the charcoal poisoning thing.
 
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It's quite unfortunate the effects drugs can have, some recovery is possible, I once became semi silent and now I talk moderately (tho not because of drugs).

I've watched too many negative videos of Amazon work to recommend it, tho have heard retail businesses seem to be better.



Also, the store is temporarily unavailable... Never would I have thought a potential SN source could be found with merely lots of SaSu reading (vs creative search terms)... tho
just because a source says it sells, doesn't mean it won't silently report the purchase (I watched a chemistry supplier video that mentioned that residential orders have sometimes been reported by chemical companies, but my memory of the video is vague)
 
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Docc

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Recovery is very much possible. Also IQ tests mean shit. Even less when you are still young.
 
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Recovery is very much possible. Also IQ tests mean shit. Even less when you are still young.
oh yes, IQ doesn't mean much coz it is a limited test, it doesn't even delve into emotion!
 
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Uh, did you get these IQ results from an online test or something? Typically a real IQ test has to be administered by a psychologist or some kind of professional and needs to be done in a controlled setting (at least from what I know). The environmental factors impacting IQ also start to lessen with age, and usually stabilize at some point during childhood. Your IQ shouldn't have declined by so much, so I am having doubts about you having ever been administered a real IQ test....
 
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Uh, did you get these IQ results from an online test or something? Typically a real IQ test has to be administered by a psychologist or some kind of professional and needs to be done in a controlled setting (at least from what I know). The environmental factors impacting IQ also start to lessen with age, and usually stabilize at some point during childhood. Your IQ shouldn't have declined by so much, so I am having doubts about you having ever been administered a real IQ test....
Well it took five years of consistent decline to reach this point, I'm just estimating I was around there since I was skipped a grade in elementary school, was noticeably sharp, I got like a 1230 on the SAT my junior year of high school on like my seventh month of Zoloft and after having abused dxm during quarantine and gotten the covid vaccine and that's the closet thing I got to a real IQ test. I recently found out I have a genetic mutation for a gene used in processing medications and drugs so I essentially overdosed and was giving myself immense amounts of brain damage with each drug I experimented with as a child with a developing brain. I guess it's difficult to believe considering how stupid I am now but I mean it's been my life, I barely remember any of it now but I know for certain I wasn't this stupid. Just kind of a weakling led entirely by my emotions which isn't really that smart but I guess I was just wired that way.
 
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Well it took five years of consistent decline to reach this point, I'm just estimating I was around there since I was skipped a grade in elementary school, was noticeably sharp, I got like a 1230 on the SAT my junior year of high school on like my seventh month of Zoloft and after having abused dxm during quarantine and gotten the covid vaccine and that's the closet thing I got to a real IQ test. I recently found out I have a genetic mutation for a gene used in processing medications and drugs so I essentially overdosed and was giving myself immense amounts of brain damage with each drug I experimented with as a child with a developing brain. I guess it's difficult to believe considering how stupid I am now but I mean it's been my life, I barely remember any of it now but I know for certain I wasn't this stupid. Just kind of a weakling led entirely by my emotions which isn't really that smart but I guess I was just wired that way.
Yeah, skipping a grade =/= high IQ. There are plenty of cases of children who do bad in school despite having a high IQ. You can also have an average IQ and still skip a grade. Along with that, how the fuck are you estimating your IQ? I feel like you might just not be as smart as you think you are...
 
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Yeah, skipping a grade =/= high IQ. There are plenty of cases of children who do bad in school despite having a high IQ. You can also have an average IQ and still skip a grade. Along with that, how the fuck are you estimating your IQ? I feel like you might just not be as smart as you think you are...
It's not like a random guess or anything I literally was just roughly around that smart. Like I did 120-115 iq people shit and talked fast about complicated stuff and taught myself how to do complex stuff for fun. I definitely wasn't just average. If I had still access to the edits I made when I was like 14 I'd show them to you and you'd believe me. I'm fucking sad. I'm not saying I'm that smart anymore I'm legit retarded now. Also 120-115 isn't super impressive it's just above average not genius level. I'm not claiming to have been a genius, just someone whose little bit of potential has withered away completely without having gotten the chance to flourish or mature. Also I'm not lying about my sat score and the circumstances behind it, I plugged that into ChatGPT and that gives a rough estimate back of around 120-115 IQ and I took that test on drugs years ago before I got this dumb.
 
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It's not like a random guess or anything I literally was just roughly around that smart. Like I did 120-115 iq people shit and talked fast about complicated stuff and taught myself how to do complex stuff for fun. I definitely wasn't just average. If I had still access to the edits I made when I was like 14 I'd show them to you and you'd believe me. I'm fucking sad. I'm not saying I'm that smart anymore I'm legit retarded now. Also 120-115 isn't super impressive it's just above average not genius level. I'm not claiming to have been a genius, just someone whose little bit of potential has withered away completely without having gotten the chance to flourish or mature. Also I'm not lying about my sat score and the circumstances behind it, I plugged that into ChatGPT and that gives a rough estimate back of around 120-115 IQ and I took that test on drugs years ago before I got this dumb.
Looks like someone's in denial.
 
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Well it took five years of consistent decline to reach this point, I'm just estimating I was around there since I was skipped a grade in elementary school, was noticeably sharp, I got like a 1230 on the SAT my junior year of high school on like my seventh month of Zoloft and after having abused dxm during quarantine and gotten the covid vaccine and that's the closet thing I got to a real IQ test. I recently found out I have a genetic mutation for a gene used in processing medications and drugs so I essentially overdosed and was giving myself immense amounts of brain damage with each drug I experimented with as a child with a developing brain. I guess it's difficult to believe considering how stupid I am now but I mean it's been my life, I barely remember any of it now but I know for certain I wasn't this stupid. Just kind of a weakling led entirely by my emotions which isn't really that smart but I guess I was just wired that way.
I don't think you can estimate your iq based on skipping a grade, or like you said ,"doing 115-120 iq people shit." And you said something like dxm dropping your iq by five points with one use. It just doesn't work like that. Depression comes with brain fog and just overall doubting yourself I think maybe that could be the case. The other person is right if you haven't had a legit iq check and are just guessing I think you are fine and just overthinking it.
 
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It's not like a random guess or anything I literally was just roughly around that smart. Like I did 120-115 iq people shit and talked fast about complicated stuff and taught myself how to do complex stuff for fun. I definitely wasn't just average. If I had still access to the edits I made when I was like 14 I'd show them to you and you'd believe me. I'm fucking sad. I'm not saying I'm that smart anymore I'm legit retarded now. Also 120-115 isn't super impressive it's just above average not genius level. I'm not claiming to have been a genius, just someone whose little bit of potential has withered away completely without having gotten the chance to flourish or mature. Also I'm not lying about my sat score and the circumstances behind it, I plugged that into ChatGPT and that gives a rough estimate back of around 120-115 IQ and I took that test on drugs years ago before I got this dumb.
Also it is literally a random guess if you have never had your iq tested by a professional. And you can't self diagnose yourself with brain damage.
 
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Sadbanana

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Aug 20, 2024
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I think depression is the culprit. I feel like I used to be a lot smarter before, now I just lack all motivation to even think.

I'm also too much of a pussy to kill myself. I'm not sure, but probably I wouldn't also throw the SN away. I wish this society would actually respected our dignity and helped us die painlessly.
 
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Daphne

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I think depression is the culprit. I feel like I used to be a lot smarter before, now I just lack all motivation to even think.

I'm also too much of a pussy to kill myself. I'm not sure, but probably I wouldn't also throw the SN away. I wish this society would actually respected our dignity and helped us die painlessly.
Those in charge of society like to make or watch people suffer, so death with dignity is a pipe dream. In the U.S. anyhow.
 
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Aug 14, 2025
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Well, you need to mask a lot. Most people are not as smart as they show themselves, and that's because of a lot of reasons, personal, social and especially political (of the government), smart people who ask questions and even do good in front of the government are problems for them. I can give detailed proof with the involvement of governments in our mental health, I've studied it for years.

That said, people love to hate. As soon as you are even a little below them, they will kick and kick you mercilessly.

I was extraordinarily smart and attractive (not so much) until this year even after years of agony and strain due to schizophrenia and abandonment - that said, a series of recent, regular tragedies have made me less so, and thus making everything far worse and unbearable.

I'm in a similar situation as you, derpsie, and I'll tell you that you need to mask a ton, also, honesty these days is punishable, unless you're strong, in fact normal healthy people do this every day, so much they don't remember when they speak truth. It's stupid, the world. Immorality and lies are the foundation of our current world.

So yes, mask your "low IQ" (again, I'm in the same situation in this context as you), appear clean and smart, NEVER BE A VICTIM. In caps cause I always followed this and this has helped me more than most people... Also, post practice the things you did when you were smarter, as trauma does take the mind's ability to think with time. Mask it with how you were when you were better, if nothing else, it will make you respect yourself. Self respect is a great tool for just getting by.

The biggest reason to painstakingly practice smartness is to have dignity and lessen suffering. This is extremely difficult and I struggle with it (for me it's opinionated philosophy + writing my books and music, of course no help) myself but when people start treating you better your dignity and health betters, only if a little bit. Myself, I wish to die every day, but a dignified death outdoes one when people want to forget you.

Also, low IQ is not really you, the entire world is reeking with pseudo intellectualism (overthinking on the most trivial things to avoid actual thinking), so what you're facing, in all truth, is not your fault in any way. It is the horrible people around you, my situation's the same. Most people don't even have proper (full) linguistic skills and their biggest wish is to do well in their office, lol. Their souls are in the green bill. It is just hatred what you're facing... The world masks itself as this beautiful place, until you start looking through, that's when you see we're just animals.

Also, write a diary, it's cliche and I didn't follow it myself until this year, write your most different and innovative thoughts and also your suffering, for when help comes as little as it is, you can fully or at least accurately express yourself.

Another thing is to face that the world is in fact evil. Also, love yourself more than anyone. What you're struggling through, in very little magnitude is faced by all of us (not being respected and heard despite your best), and to be honest most people back down and then take others' help.
Also, be strong, never give up from what you deserve.
 
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Galam

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I cannot believe in such psychiatric diagnoses. For me Lookism is the reason why some humans are excluded and then the normal people say we are mental ill, we are autistic, different, ugly, bad, dumb and so on.

I think I would be smarter and would have a better life if I would have the body of Chance Perez or Jannik SchĂĽmann. They just have good genes and are loved by anybody for it and can give love back.

I cannot hide anything with my body. I am always seen as slow, dumb, ugly by others. I suffer from Fetal Alcohol Syndrom and my parents look like they have disabilities too, Cushings or something. As I got older (17 or so) my sexual instinct kicked in and I now understand why normal people dislike me and that my parents are truly ugly.

In germany it's often ugly people that need to be in welfare or become homeless and they are abused in asylum. To me this was done too just because of these normal people.

I was bullied my whole life by them, so I could not make any good grades. I have no employment. I always think, it doesn't matter. Normal people have a job and make sure to support other normal people, but I am not normal, I am attacked by them and downgraded. But I never believed they are good people and what they do is good.

They are breeders who act similar to parasites, and should suffer for what they did to vulnerable animals and humans. We deserve our own society and compensation from them. They disabled us, stigmatized us and their whole system depends on us as prey, so they can generate their good lifes from our vulnerability.
 
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