attempting to ctb via sn tonight. (in ~4 hours from the time this posts)
5' 2" female, about 155 lbs (don't have access to a working scale to check). i only have enough sn to make one drink: around ~23g SN w/ 41g of water. the rest of my sn was used up in a failed attempt. the sn i do have may have turned into nitrate so this attempt may also fail. if it fails, i will let you all know. i am using the stat dose method so i will be taking 30g of meto an hour before drinking the sn. this is because i am bad at swallowing pills, so i am allotting extra time for the pills to hopefully get down my throat and into my system. i will not have eaten or drank for about 12 hours by the time i drink the sn.
i am hoping that this works. i don't think i can afford to fail. i am trying to fool my SI into thinking that i am just "attempting" with no real chance of success (ie: nitrate, throwing up due to the taste, etc.) but i think that i may freeze up while trying to swallow the sn again. i am going to do my best to drink it this time. i hope that by posting this, i can hold myself accountable and commit to ctb. i'm already past my initial deadline for ctb, i don't want to be late any longer.
5' 2" female, about 155 lbs (don't have access to a working scale to check). i only have enough sn to make one drink: around ~23g SN w/ 41g of water. the rest of my sn was used up in a failed attempt. the sn i do have may have turned into nitrate so this attempt may also fail. if it fails, i will let you all know. i am using the stat dose method so i will be taking 30g of meto an hour before drinking the sn. this is because i am bad at swallowing pills, so i am allotting extra time for the pills to hopefully get down my throat and into my system. i will not have eaten or drank for about 12 hours by the time i drink the sn.
i am hoping that this works. i don't think i can afford to fail. i am trying to fool my SI into thinking that i am just "attempting" with no real chance of success (ie: nitrate, throwing up due to the taste, etc.) but i think that i may freeze up while trying to swallow the sn again. i am going to do my best to drink it this time. i hope that by posting this, i can hold myself accountable and commit to ctb. i'm already past my initial deadline for ctb, i don't want to be late any longer.
