Venting At least you could have pretended to care

[kaleidoscoped]

Hey. This is my first post on here, so sorry if I mislabeled this.

This happened awhile ago, and while they try to care now, I can't get this off my mind anymore. It feels like the mask was dropped for a second and their true colors were revealed. I have a small group of friends who I (honestly, now, can't tell if I do) trust a lot. A few months back, while I talked to my best friend about my issues, he finally told me that my issues were annoying and stupid, and that I should just "look up and believe more". I feel like this is how a lot of people feel when it comes to mental illness. It's just a ton of people pretending they care about you, only to drop out when the going gets tough. It all just ends in "shoulda coulda woulda". I know this is said a trillion times, but seriously, nobody gives a fuck until you're finally found.

I don't know if I'm the problem here anymore. Ever since it happened, every time I talk to them about my issues it feels like they're reading a script. All this did was prove to me that I should just keep my problems to myself and away from them.

 

[derpyderpins]

If you want a more positive, but still realistic, explanation: people care, but they're weak and have to put themselves first. With mental illness, part of this is an internal judgment of self, because we're always comparing ourselves to others. The view is that we have circumstances, and then how "good" we are. ie if you don't do as well as someone born rich you blame that; if you have a disability, you blame that. From that perspective, the ego wants to downplay issues others might be dealing with to make the equation look better for them. So they certainly could legitimately care about you but still have that type of bad reaction.

Accordingly, you are not the problem for wanting to vent your issues.

 

[StillLife]

It's why I stopped expressing these type of feelings with people a long time ago...