Curlyfried
Member
- May 19, 2020
- 29
Of course! There's always things to look forward to in life. For me it's hanging with friends, playing games with them, smoking weed etc. Whatever the little things you enjoy are embrace them
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LADY007
Specialist
- Feb 25, 2020
- 373
Ctb before a nursing home is needed.. Takes all the joy out of life.
AlreadyGone
Taking it day by day
- Jan 11, 2020
- 917
If there was something I was looking forward to, I wouldn't be here. I lost all love of life.I have read on this forum I think that you can live like you already suicided, it is pretty interesting idea. I am waiting SNI look forward to hear about my father and mothers death. Mainly because then I'll get a good amount of cash which can secure my peaceful death and secondly, I just want them to die because their stupid act of getting children, which I really despise. I'm an antinatalist and I wish every parent would die (pain***fully).
If I wont CTB before they die, I will feast and celebrate on the day any of them dies.
F*ck them both.Last edited:
Oh shit how I undertand you on this one. My father was a complete psychopatic monster.
Yeah. All parents are basically, they're just trash all of them. Playing games with human lives. Thinking it's just for their "meaning" and discard any chance of the child having a mental illness or just doesn't enjoy life which is a lot of people .. Disgraceful pieces of s**ts.
Soulless Angel
Did someone say Rum?
- Jul 6, 2020
- 1,272
A long walk alone on a beach, headphones on, kicking the sand, sitting in the water, before drying off and heading to a bridge, where Ill grab a drink and take a walk,
this is all I look forward to now,
I am sick of pain and ground hog day, I welcome hell and the devil
I mean seriously there are people called psychopaths who want to destroy you covertly and if they feel weakness they atack you ten fold. My father bassicall brought me to psychosis then stole my flat and after that he came to hospital and stole my car and started atacking me again. He was a complete scum not like other parents
Sslsh
Experienced
- Jan 29, 2020
- 293
My last day. The day I ctb. That's the only thing I look forward to every waking hour.
Schevan
Future Dead Rodent
- Jan 3, 2021
- 46
I would really really really really really like to sleep in a comfortable bed without a headache, and without my extreme pains.
Dear Agony
The Void
- Jan 24, 2020
- 296
I always look forward to the next moment I'm gonna eat, the next moment I will cuddle with my dog, the next moment I'll hug my mom. Idk I think that's it. I look forward to simple things. They make me happy. For a moment. Just not enough to look forward to living though.The day I die is the only thing I look forward to now. Hopefully I can draw up the courage to ctb instead of toying with the idea and dying of old age, thus torturing myself more.
Tortured_empath
Arcanist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 490
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 46,990
Of course I am looking forward to non existence. Eternal nothingness sounds wonderful to me. I'm not sure I have anything to look forward to in life really, I mean some small things make me feel better and I try to distract myself, but I just have dread for the future. The fact that I could potentially have decades left is an unpleasant thought. I do in general look forward to sleeping, it is a break from existence but sometimes that is hard.
lofticries
obedear
- Feb 27, 2021
- 1,469
To stop being a shut in/hikikomori and become a workaholic once again. Also to lose the final 10 pounds I've been wrestling with even though I'm scrawny af to ppl (this my eating disorder talking).
I would also like to get my own place and get out of this hellhole of a state i've been living in for years and years.
I know i'll always be depressed (and i'm mos def gonna ctb sooner or later) but at least maybe I can find some peace in independence and actually feeling like I can start anew.Last edited:
MeltedJello
My brain is a liquid mess.
- Aug 18, 2021
- 2,213
Scribble Fan
I'm out!
- May 30, 2019
- 816
I'm looking forward to my debit card arriving in the mail. Then I can buy some dumbbells and stop being so skinny fat.
TriggerHappy
In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
- Jan 24, 2021
- 1,297
BitterlyAlive_
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- Dec 8, 2020
- 2,394
I look forward to another opportunity to have a meaningful life. If there is mercy somewhere in the universe, then I may have another go left in me.
However, life seems to be telling me that I am destined to CTB. Beat down, kicked around and feeling empty right now.There is this high quality warhammer mod for mount and blade 2: bannerlord that I'm looking forward to seeing completed.
eternalmelancholy
waiting for the bus
- Mar 24, 2021
- 1,168
Just counting down the days until I ctb. I hope it is soon. Been posting here nonstop recently. Don't like how I have become an annoying presence on here. I guess your real life personality comes through even online.
avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
- 1,356
littlelungs
Wizard
- Oct 21, 2018
- 646
Much like most others in here, I'm looking forward to not having to do any of this shit anymore. I'm looking forward to no longer: being in constant physical and mental agony, having to deal with other people and all of the exhausting nonsense that comes with doing so, being subject to the consequences of a corrupt system and depraved society full of arrogant and power-hungry people, experiencing flashbacks and withdrawal symptoms and feeling like I'm drowning in my own existence... you get the picture. I'm looking forward to no longer having to entertain this sorry existence for no good reason whatsoever. I've overstayed my welcome by a long shot and I'm ready to go.
I guess I'm also looking forward to the pre-made Rösti that I'm going to eat later. It obviously doesn't solve any of my problems but, shit... if I can't die right now, then at least I have some fried potatoes to stuff my stupid face with in the meantime.
Blue_mist
Mortal
- Apr 14, 2021
- 229
