Curlyfried

Curlyfried

Member
May 19, 2020
29
Of course! There's always things to look forward to in life. For me it's hanging with friends, playing games with them, smoking weed etc. Whatever the little things you enjoy are embrace them
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
If there was something I was looking forward to, I wouldn't be here. I lost all love of life.
 
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bigdog

Arcanist
Jul 12, 2020
434
I have read on this forum I think that you can live like you already suicided, it is pretty interesting idea. I am waiting SN
 
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Eachdaymakesmedumber

Member
Jul 25, 2020
64
I look forward to hear about my father and mothers death. Mainly because then I'll get a good amount of cash which can secure my peaceful death and secondly, I just want them to die because their stupid act of getting children, which I really despise. I'm an antinatalist and I wish every parent would die (pain***fully).

If I wont CTB before they die, I will feast and celebrate on the day any of them dies.

F*ck them both.
 
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bigdog

Arcanist
Jul 12, 2020
434
I look forward to hear about my father and mothers death. Mainly because then I'll get a good amount of cash which can secure my peaceful death and secondly, I just want them to die because their stupid act of getting children, which I really despise. I'm an antinatalist and I wish every parent would die (pain***fully).

If I wont CTB before they die, I will feast on the day any of them dies.
Oh shit how I undertand you on this one. My father was a complete psychopatic monster.
 
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Eachdaymakesmedumber

Member
Jul 25, 2020
64
Oh shit how I undertand you on this one. My father was a complete psychopatic monster.
Yeah. All parents are basically, they're just trash all of them. Playing games with human lives. Thinking it's just for their "meaning" and discard any chance of the child having a mental illness or just doesn't enjoy life which is a lot of people .. Disgraceful pieces of s**ts.
 
Soulless Angel

Soulless Angel

Did someone say Rum?
Jul 6, 2020
1,272
A long walk alone on a beach, headphones on, kicking the sand, sitting in the water, before drying off and heading to a bridge, where Ill grab a drink and take a walk,
this is all I look forward to now,
I am sick of pain and ground hog day, I welcome hell and the devil
 
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bigdog

Arcanist
Jul 12, 2020
434
Yeah. All parents are basically, they're just trash all of them. Playing games with human lives. Thinking it's just for their "meaning" and discard any chance of the child having a mental illness or just doesn't enjoy life which is a lot of people .. Disgraceful pieces of s**ts.
I mean seriously there are people called psychopaths who want to destroy you covertly and if they feel weakness they atack you ten fold. My father bassicall brought me to psychosis then stole my flat and after that he came to hospital and stole my car and started atacking me again. He was a complete scum not like other parents
 
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Bruces

Specialist
May 11, 2020
389
No there nothing to look forward to now
 
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virtually_anybody

Just your average John Doe.
Jun 25, 2021
29
Yes, Meto to arrive so I can gtfo of hell
 
Sslsh

Sslsh

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
293
My last day. The day I ctb. That's the only thing I look forward to every waking hour.
 
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Schevan

Schevan

Future Dead Rodent
Jan 3, 2021
46
I would really really really really really like to sleep in a comfortable bed without a headache, and without my extreme pains.
 
Dear Agony

Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
297
I always look forward to the next moment I'm gonna eat, the next moment I will cuddle with my dog, the next moment I'll hug my mom. Idk I think that's it. I look forward to simple things. They make me happy. For a moment. Just not enough to look forward to living though.
 
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nobodyspecial

Member
Jul 10, 2021
71
The day I die is the only thing I look forward to now. Hopefully I can draw up the courage to ctb instead of toying with the idea and dying of old age, thus torturing myself more.
 
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Bruces

Specialist
May 11, 2020
389
There's been nothing to look forward to for a long long time
 
Tortured_empath

Tortured_empath

Arcanist
Apr 7, 2019
463
Next year. If I make an effort hopefulle things will be better
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,187
Of course I am looking forward to non existence. Eternal nothingness sounds wonderful to me. I'm not sure I have anything to look forward to in life really, I mean some small things make me feel better and I try to distract myself, but I just have dread for the future. The fact that I could potentially have decades left is an unpleasant thought. I do in general look forward to sleeping, it is a break from existence but sometimes that is hard.
 
lofticries

lofticries

obedear
Feb 27, 2021
1,470
To stop being a shut in/hikikomori and become a workaholic once again. Also to lose the final 10 pounds I've been wrestling with even though I'm scrawny af to ppl (this my eating disorder talking).

I would also like to get my own place and get out of this hellhole of a state i've been living in for years and years.

I know i'll always be depressed (and i'm mos def gonna ctb sooner or later) but at least maybe I can find some peace in independence and actually feeling like I can start anew.
 
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MeltedJello

MeltedJello

My brain is a liquid mess.
Aug 18, 2021
2,214
The day I'll finally get the chance to ctb.
 
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Scribble Fan

Scribble Fan

I'm out!
May 30, 2019
815
I'm looking forward to my debit card arriving in the mail. Then I can buy some dumbbells and stop being so skinny fat.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,298
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Yeah :: a Formidable Death. Definately.
 
BitterlyAlive_

BitterlyAlive_

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Dec 8, 2020
2,394
Nothing but death tbh. My life is so empty and such a waste
 
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Beeper

Experienced
Sep 28, 2021
227
I look forward to another opportunity to have a meaningful life. If there is mercy somewhere in the universe, then I may have another go left in me.

However, life seems to be telling me that I am destined to CTB. Beat down, kicked around and feeling empty right now.
 
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OrcWitch

Warlock
Sep 3, 2021
703
There is this high quality warhammer mod for mount and blade 2: bannerlord that I'm looking forward to seeing completed.
 
eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
Just counting down the days until I ctb. I hope it is soon. Been posting here nonstop recently. Don't like how I have become an annoying presence on here. I guess your real life personality comes through even online.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,234
littlelungs

littlelungs

Wizard
Oct 21, 2018
634
Much like most others in here, I'm looking forward to not having to do any of this shit anymore. I'm looking forward to no longer: being in constant physical and mental agony, having to deal with other people and all of the exhausting nonsense that comes with doing so, being subject to the consequences of a corrupt system and depraved society full of arrogant and power-hungry people, experiencing flashbacks and withdrawal symptoms and feeling like I'm drowning in my own existence... you get the picture. I'm looking forward to no longer having to entertain this sorry existence for no good reason whatsoever. I've overstayed my welcome by a long shot and I'm ready to go.

I guess I'm also looking forward to the pre-made Rösti that I'm going to eat later. It obviously doesn't solve any of my problems but, shit... if I can't die right now, then at least I have some fried potatoes to stuff my stupid face with in the meantime.
 
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