Discussion Are you going to write a suicide note?

[LeWantsToDie]

I am. Just so that people know it's not their fault. They're less notes and more scheduled emails though.

 

[MidnightDream]

Yes. An individual letter to everyone I care about. Although, like you, would probably be a scheduled email or a text message rather than a physical note

 

[tinyghost]

when i die this universe will forget me so there isnt any point

 

[justcallmeJ]

Im writing lots of letters on my computer at the moment. Gonna write them by hand later, feels more personal that way.

 

[LeWantsToDie]

Yes. An individual letter to everyone I care about. Although, like you, would probably be a scheduled email or a text message rather than a physical note

How many people do you care about? I have two so I'm also going to write two separate emails

 

[MidnightDream]

How many people do you care about? I have two so I'm also going to write two separate emails

At the moment, 3. But when my parents eventually pass, it'll just be the 1

 

[lifewasawillow]

No. I used to think I would write handwritten letters for ppl I care about, mainly my so called friends. Long heartfelt messages. And then some others for certain other individuals in my life to make them feel guilty. But now I don't have the energy or the effort. It's going to be more entertaining to just slip away one day. After all, everyone's going to move on and forget me soon enough, might as well not waste that time and instead put that energy into how I'm going to ctb.

 

[兎の耳]

I have things I need to say and feelings I need to confess, but the fear of failing and having to face people afterwards is strong.

I don't think telling people that it's not their fault will be effective since they're going to blame themselves anyway if I know them as well as I think I do.

 

[Interestedsadboi25]

I think I will, at least for the two people I care about. Maybe let them know that it's not their fault, tell them how I feel about them and just say goodbye.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would if I had a reliable plan to cease existing on my own terms. I'd explain how death is truly what I wished for and how now I'm at peace, eternally free from all suffering.

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

I can't really decide if I want to or not. On one hand I like the idea of writing a note generalizing why I did it and a little backstory about my life kinda like people do with their goodbye threads on here. I've also considered just going with no explanation because a lot of people know I'm close to my end so I doubt anyone would be surprised. If I don't write a note I'll just tell this person it wasn't their fault and it's the reason I never let them into my life.

 

[mysadstuff]

For family- I dont think so it would make me too upset and break my will to CTB. But I would write a brief warning note and put it outside of my room so that they do not have to suffer seeing my corpse.

For friends / acquaintances- No. i dont want to cause anyone distress. I feel guilty for making others stressed out with the state I am in. I dont want to cause unnecessary trauma. I do not wish to be mourned

 

[Pardoe84]

I wrote already 13 individual letters. Everyone who i care about receives one. Parents, Brother, Friends, Neighbour, even my Psychotherapist receive one. In case i have i put old pictures to the letter with the person and me seen on the picture.

 

[spacehardware]

Yes, already written. I have left out anything that apportions blame, anything that would cause anyone who reads it any lasting guilt. It's a watered down version of an explanation. There are plenty more things I could say about how I truly feel but they won't help anyone. My ctb will cause enough harm as it is, it is my final kindness to miss out the parts that would cause additional unnecessary suffering.

 

[untildeathdousapart]

Definitely, because i #1 wouldnt want people to think that it was an accident and #2 to explain why I did what I did in hopes that they would feel less guilt.

 

[DV.Aston55]

I thought that I would at first, but now when I think about it, who cares really? I'll be out of this world, that's the only thing that matters.

 

[kittyswift]

When i was a teenager and planning an attempt, my mother went through my room and found my notes and letters that i had been writing over a few days. I hadn't attempted yet but it was very humiliating when she showed everyone in my family (close and extended) and her friends what i wrote. She shamed me for it so now it just makes me feel bad when i think about writing them for when i CTB in the future. If it wasn't for that- i probably would

 

[LonelyStarrySky]

I will definetely write a psyhical letter to everyone to let them know my reasoning and to have them know that they didn't love at all and that I am content making this choice. To make myself understood at once, something I never achieved while alive, maybe they will once I am gone? Perhaps not because they are just gaslighters and will set it all to being "craziness" and move on, but I spoke it is up to others if they wanna listen.

 

[BlazingBob]

Nope.

 

[IsThisEverything]

I keep trying to write one but I don't know what to say. I can't articulate the pain and emptiness I feel. Anything I write doesn't capture it. I don't think the people in my life who would read it would understand anyway. All I've got written down so far is some arrangements like accounts that need to be closed, who my money's to go to, etc.

 

[MyLifeisHell]

I already have, several. They've been stashed away in my drawer, on standby.

 

[twin size mattress]

I don't think so. I've tried but I can't seem to get it right if that makes sense? I feel like I can't put what I want the note to be into words, so as a result I think I won't end up writing one at all. Not that I'd have the motivation to even if I did want to write a note.

 

[Rher]

I want to be forgotten and I don't want to be remembered by anyone. So, no, I won't be writing a suicide note when I die. I am going to hide it as much as I can and pray that nobody I know finds out I died.

 

[phantomime]

Too much work. I have a suicide playlist instead of a suicide note. Will either leave it playing or message someone I care with the files.

 

[Smelly_ballz]

Yes. I wrote my official note earlier today. I have journals I write in often that have seemed to become 'suicide journals' so those might explain more than just one note I wrote in a few hours.

 

[TransientEternal]

No, whatever happens after my death has nothing to do with me.

 

[LeWantsToDie]

I want to be forgotten and I don't want to be remembered by anyone. So, no, I won't be writing a suicide note when I die. I am going to hide it as much as I can and pray that nobody I know finds out I died.

I wish I was the same. For some reason, the thought of being forgotten after my death terrifies me.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

Yes, I will be it's already written and all I have to do is sign it with the date I choose.

 

[notahappygirl]

Yes just saying sorry

 

[BlockHammer]

Perhaps im going to write it, but only to my best friend