Are you dead inside?

[ManchildLoser]

Wondering if any of you are the same.
I have been depressed and suicidal for far too long, that i just dont feel anything anymore, like an empty husk. I have lost my purpose and cant find joy in anything.

 

[sparkle]

Not yet, I currently am alive... Thank you for your time

 

[Unending]

Completely dead inside.

 

[SHpr0]

have been for awhile

 

[No_Lxve]

I don't know how not feeling depression feels. I have also been depressed since i was 13 years old but im not sure if i am numb to it or idk

 

[Lxions]

I'm too desensitized to everything, it makes me seem cruel. But I just lack empathy.

 

[ThisIsGoodbye]

Somtimes I feel like I am. And then other times I remember that there are people that care for me and I feel a spark or a light inside. It barely flickers, but I know the only resason i'm still here is for them. That I don't want to hurt the few people in my life that love me and are there for me. I just also know that I can't do this for much longer, and that it's better off for it to end this way.

 

[Hollowman]

I don't even see myself as a person anymore, I'm sooo empty. Wish I had an off switch.

 

[DeathMarch66]

Yes! :)

 

[Riu]

There was a period in my life where I kind of just did what I had to do or was told to do. It was like I was dreaming, I could barely remember anything I did and everything just felt blurry I guess? I didn't feel anything at all, I kind of just existed. Didn't feel a lot of joy or pain, I felt literally just nothing. I remember not even caring about what I ate, just ate what I had which was weird because I am a big fan of food. I kind of just gave up trying to live my life because I didn't really have the choice of CTB and I didn't really want to live anymore so I thought I would just stop complaining and just go with the flow. I think that's how it was. Anyways, I didn't really want to live like that any longer because I felt like there could be more I was doing with my days, so I somehow got out of that state and got a little better. My whole life has just been depression and then life dangling hope of getting better in my face just to rip it away right after.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Always, especially when I see triggers. Now I just need to be outright dead for things to come full circle.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I don't even see myself as a person anymore, I'm sooo empty. Wish I had an off switch.

Same, I just view myself as an objective being instead of a person. Definitely a strange feeling losing your identity although mine never actually fully developed.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Not sure when I died inside but it's been decades ago. Actually I thought of something but I don't want to post it.
I have to be careful.

 

[expiredfckmeat]

For a while now I've been sort of watching myself die from the inside out, it's sad but I'm surprised it takes so long. I'm still here? ...fuck. Why? Stubborn. I'm sorry.

 

[devoidvessel]

I have been dead inside for over 8 years. I'm not the same I was before 2015. Even though I'm depressed and suicidal since 2010, i still had moments of feeling good inside, buf since 2015 I have been feeling like a shadow of my former self, an empty shell, a fatal error of existence that must be corrected. Love, hobbies, family, work aren't enough to make me feel like I should still be here

 

[tired_starlight]

I often think that something is wrong with me, because I feel a huge emptiness inside. It's like there's a hole in me that nothing can fill. I can feel emotions, I can be happy or sad, but this emptiness still remains.

 

[nosoul]

Wondering if any of you are the same.
I have been depressed and suicidal for far too long, that i just dont feel anything anymore, like an empty husk. I have lost my purpose and cant find joy in anything.

I think you perfectly describe why so many of us want to ctb, not only I get no joy, it now makes me sad and anxious. I just want my emotions back at the least

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

have been for a while too
been years since i felt alive

 

[WaitingToGo]

Yes that's just exactly how I feel. No enjoyment in being alive, no joy, no happiness just existing

 

[goodbye_._]

That's the thing, I already feel dead.

 

[tams]

Quite often I feel dead inside, I have my moments of hope and enjoying life, but obviously they are fleeting. I hope all hope is lost soon so I can follow through with my chosen purpose. That whatever good is left turns against me to confirm my choice.

 

[H.O.Xan]

bro asked, "does anyone else feel like me?" proceeds to cast vote, guess what 75% of ppl here are!

 

[Disappointered]

Dead inside for over a decade. The older I get the more I realize that I was born dead. There were times when i thought I was alive but I was only half-alive. The bad parts yes, the good parts no. A strange voice told me that I was already dead a couple of years ago.

 

[outrider567]

Yes , I am dead inside, and what's worse, no relief from sleep, had 3 separate nightmares alone tonight(which is why I'm up now)

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I'm only just waiting to actually cease existing, sadly I'm still trapped here in this world, if only it was possible to just choose to pass away without struggle then that would be ideal. It's cruel how even if someone has basically died inside they are still stuck inside this flesh prison with awareness of this hellish world, permanent nothingness sounds perfect to me.

 

[Red Moon]

I am mostly dead on the inside.

 

[Challu]

Every human being is dead. Because the wages of sin is death.

Nothing other than a spiritual revelation can counter this fact.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

Me, I never enjoy anything, I can't feel anything, everything doesn't matter to me, I never want to get out of bed, many times I don't even feel sad, I feel so dead and empty

 

[charlotte_]

I always have this deep and dark void inside of me. No matter how much good things happen to me, at the end I'm gonna get consume by that emptiness again. Nothing good ever enters my brain, idek why

 

[mrwizard11]

It's hard to think that two months ago I was happy and had a perfect life. How quickly everything comes crashing down and the depression sets in.