Are there many who are 30+ years old? Those who do it without impulsive feelings?

[Passersby]

Its been a long term planned out rational thing for me however I still might do it impulsively someday when things aren't going well. Technically it wouldn't be impulsive though as I would have already planned it to a t for years. Would rather set a date though and follow through.

 

[astaeste2021]

43. Got everything prepared. Can't make myself to do it. Waiting for an impulse strong enough.

This is me too. I'm 48. I have a long history of making careful pre-suicide plans, and then not being able to go through with it at the last moment. I think I fear the loss of control—those last few moments of awareness after the point of no return. If I were more impulsive and less of a methodical plodder, it would probably be over by now. I don't know what to do about this. My chances for actual recovery seem remote, so suicide may actually be my best shot. Getting drunk disinhibits some people, but not me so much. I guess blind, impotent rage might give me the final push I need. Maybe I need to watch the news more often.

I'm sorry you are hurting

 

[restforeternity]

37, has done it on impulse at 35 after a series of unfortunate events...learned that I will never step foot in a mental hospital. now I no longer see hope in MY life sooooo, I am painfully smoking, starving and working myself to death. I have to show a facade that I am a strong and independent single parent so that no one will ever have to worry.

 

[wait.what]

I'm sorry you are hurting

It's very sweet of you to say so. Thank you. <3

 

[Adamsnolife]

I'm 33. I'm just in a waiting game until UK lockdown ends

 

[justanotherstar]

I'm in the 33 club (there seems to be a few of us). I want it to work too much to try to CTB impulsively

 

[fly away]

Turning 60 in a few months. Almost 50 yrs of hell. Im surprised I've made it this long. I'm ready, just waiting for the right time.

 

[CahCaw]

Hey, not in my 30's by any metric, but I am curious - what sets y'all apart from your peers, in the sense that you feel depressed but your peers don't?

 

[Tackingintothewind]

Hey, not in my 30's by any metric, but I am curious - what sets y'all apart from your peers, in the sense that you feel depressed but your peers don't?

I'm not sure that theres anything we in our 30s on here all have in common. For myself here are the things I dont have in common with most of my peers
I'm autistic (asperger's), have dyspraxia, am ace/aro, have photographic memory and have PTSD, I also suffer from mal adaptive day dreaming.

 

[-Tandem-]

30.

 

[hfdepression30]

30 here

 

[Symbiote]

36 here, it's always been pre-meditative and all about timing on a day where everything falls into place. Like planning the world's greatest escape from the prison called LIFE.

 

[A Desperate Fool]

32.

 

[astaeste2021]

Turning 60 in a few months. Almost 50 yrs of hell. Im surprised I've made it this long. I'm ready, just waiting for the right time.

How is it to be 60?

 

[fly away]

I never cared about age at all, but 60 yrs means I would've been dealing with mental illness for 50 yrs. Half a century. Ugh. It's been my life. And I've had enough.

 

[letsdiee]

How is it to be 60?

How is to be 30? How is to be 40? The same like to be 20. Nothing changes.... What a stupid question. The only diffrence he/she probaly has less libido, no longer productive and from evolutionary point of view no longer needed in society. You're brainwashed by your parents if you care about age.

 

[mini_weeny]

How is to be 30? How is to be 40? The same like to be 20. Nothing changes.... What a stupid question. The only diffrence he/she probaly has less libido, no longer productive and from evolutionary point of view no longer needed in society. You're brainwashed by your parents if you care about age.

I have to disagree, being young doesn't automatically make you productive, many ppl in their 60s are very productive indeed and evolutionarily speaking grandpas and grandmas serve the function of helping care for the youngsters while their parents go get sustenance for them, so it's a myth that old ppl are useless for society. Also, they concentrate lots of useful knowledge about the world. Finallly, the most powerful men and women in the world and that also are Influencing the future of the newest generations are 60+ I.e: Putin, Gates, etc.... So, show a bit more respect for them, they know so many things about life that u don't. I wish I had a dad or mom in their 60s that could have given me advice on how not to fuck up my life and end up in this damned site.

 

[drivingaround]

I'm 31. In the past I've had impulsive attempts and then another more planned attempt but survival instinct definitely kicked in. I plan a lot in my head but never followed through with more elaborate plans. In times when I feel better I still have this sense that I will eventually ctb.

 

[Last chance]

Im 37,I have had suicidal thoughts since my mid twenties that have only got stronger each year. At the moment its the last thing I think of before I go to sleep and the first thing I think of when I wake up. I have two options which I am prepared for,hanging and CO I want to go soon but I guess Im just waiting for something to motivate me and finally push me over the edge.

 

[letsdiee]

I have to disagree, being young doesn't automatically make you productive, many ppl in their 60s are very productive indeed and evolutionarily speaking grandpas and grandmas serve the function of helping care for the youngsters while their parents go get sustenance for them, so it's a myth that old ppl are useless for society. Also, they concentrate lots of useful knowledge about the world. Finallly, the most powerful men and women in the world and that also are Influencing the future of the newest generations are 60+ I.e: Putin, Gates, etc.... So, show a bit more respect for them, they know so many things about life that u don't. I wish I had a dad or mom in their 60s that could have given me advice on how not to fuck up my life and end up in this damned site.

Nice joke. They don't have any knowledge automaticly beceause they're old. More often in addition to being stupid they have degenerate brains - and you want to give your children such person? Yeah, you'd be great parent! Maybe your children would end up in this site too.
Something went wrong with your life and that's mean your parents were shitty parents and without details they just didin't prepared you for life, neither your grands. If you had the same persons for parents but older (let's say 60+) they wouldn't prepared you either so stop lying yourself. Moreover i gurantee that if the were older you would end up in bigger mess.

 

[mini_weeny]

Nice joke. They don't have any knowledge automaticly beceause they're old. More often in addition to being stupid they have degenerate brains - and you want to give your children such person? Yeah, you'd be great parent! Maybe your children would end up in this site too.
Something went wrong with your life and that's mean your parents were shitty parents and without details they just didin't prepared you for life, neither your grands. If you had the same persons for parents but older (let's say 60+) they wouldn't prepared you either so stop lying yourself. Moreover i gurantee that if the were older you would end up in bigger mess.

If ur here then your parents were shit too, so. Some teens and 20 somethings act as if they had degenerative brains or mental retardation too, so... the joke is on you darling.

 

[letsdiee]

If ur here then your parents were shit too, so. Some teens and 20 somethings act as if they had degenerative brains or mental retardation too, so... the joke is on you darling.

You've just discoverd that the earth is round and confirm what i said at the same time. Age doesn't matter... Congratulations at least you have useful knowledge now

 

[calssilva]

I guess bpd / bd are more impulsive and ocpd / ocd / depression are more planned

 

[deadinsideforever]

45, so many times I've wanted to ctb but my children have prevented me ( not physically but the thought of hurting them) just waiting for my youngest to graduate next year and then I'll bow out. Just so wish I could go today

 

[TessB]

Forty fucking 4.. feeling a bit elderly now compared to all you whippersnappers

 

[deadinsideforever]

Forty fucking 4.. feeling a bit elderly now compared to all you whippersnappers

You a 1975 too? I'm not actually 45 til November but though I might as well round up. I agree everyone else is so young

 

[TessB]

You a 1975 too? I'm not actually 45 til November but though I might as well round up. I agree everyone else is so young

1976..I'll be 45 in June xxx

 

[LONE WOLF.]

48, ctb plan sorted, Will sorted, requirements sorted,location sorted, now just playing the waiting game, my dog's 10 so 5-years or less to go,unless the Zombie apocalypse happens then l am so getting stuck into that!!!

 

[deadinsideforever]

1976..I'll be 45 in June xxx

My god I must actually be 45 then, I lose track of time I'm just a fucking mess

 

[TessB]

My god I must actually be 45 then, I lose track of time I'm just a fucking mess

You're making me wonder if I've miscalculated now Oh dear!!! It's our age catching up with us.. losing our marbles