38. I've been struggling with depression for 20 years and had a few misguided suicide attempts over that period, the earlier ones being impulsive. I now have a method that seems very safe, examined the risks to be sure and all. I've been preparing for quite a while now, ending friendships, making sure I don't meet any new people so that as few people as possible will feel the pain and grief over my loss.
I've been thinking about this topic a great lot over that time. In bad times, I think suicide is the only way. In good times, I think suicide is the best way. Currently are good times, but I've made sure I'm prepared for the next bad times.