Olivie_420
King of self-sabotage š„²
- Mar 13, 2024
- 35
I haven't been on this site in more than a year, I dont know what came over me to decide to come back, but I just really need to vent.
After I graduated high school, I got disowned. It was supposed to be a small thing where I went to my friend's house for a week to chill out and keep the peace but then as parents do, life threats and allegations came through in emails to try and scare me into going back home. The day I was supposed to go, I was told I wasn't wanted anymore and could not go back.
I've been living a lie since then. Im living with a man I love and owe so much to, but I'm not able to be myself. I use they/them pronouns while dating a Gen Z Trump supporter. For the past year I've had nothing but fear. I haven't left even my room, let alone the house. Yesterday my cousin had to force me out my house so I can get help and even then, seeing the people who claim they care about me just filled me with dread.
I've tried so hard to help myself for years, as I saw some say on my only other thread, but I just can't anymore.
After I graduated high school, I got disowned. It was supposed to be a small thing where I went to my friend's house for a week to chill out and keep the peace but then as parents do, life threats and allegations came through in emails to try and scare me into going back home. The day I was supposed to go, I was told I wasn't wanted anymore and could not go back.
I've been living a lie since then. Im living with a man I love and owe so much to, but I'm not able to be myself. I use they/them pronouns while dating a Gen Z Trump supporter. For the past year I've had nothing but fear. I haven't left even my room, let alone the house. Yesterday my cousin had to force me out my house so I can get help and even then, seeing the people who claim they care about me just filled me with dread.
I've tried so hard to help myself for years, as I saw some say on my only other thread, but I just can't anymore.
