Anyone want to see me ctb with sn live or no

[Umbrellaterm]

I'm really tired and on my phone, so sorry if it sounds like some rambling.

With all respect, it's not for you to decide. If people want it, I say we allow it. All Hail Democracy.

Be advised. I'm not exhorting any of the mentioned behavior nor actions in this thread.

 

[mimo5555]

I am also interested.

 

[bov]

How loud were the screams? Was not mentioner before, only gasping/mumbling/snoring

I'm amazed SN has this reputation for being peaceful. Imagine something making you *scream* for ten whole minutes.

 

[woxihuanni]

I'm amazed SN has this reputation for being peaceful. Imagine something making you *scream* for ten whole minutes.

No, nobody screams for ten minutes or at all most likely. How did you come up with that? Life makes you scream for long stretches, try it.

 

[WornOutLife]

How loud were the screams? Was not mentioner before, only gasping/mumbling/snoring

Not that loud, the verbs used describe better his death by SN.
I insist, he looked in peace all the time. I kinda envy him for finding a way out so well organised.

 

[Meditation guide]

The only indication of some pain I could see was his face and a few screams

Screams? omg the poor guy!

 

[victoria91]

I would be interested

 

[rt1989526]

Screams? omg the poor guy!

He did not scream at all. I don't know why that word was used. He passed out then started muttering and snoring.

 

[Meditation guide]

He did not scream at all. I don't know why that word was used. He passed out then started muttering and snoring.

Whew what a relief! Thank you for clarifying that.

 

[outofluck]

Wtf. No. These responses are disgusting. I'm here to off myself not to be part of a watch party of sickos pretending to do research. Do I want to watch someone die? F no. This ain't a TV show ppl.

I wish you peace but please consider this before you make it available to the general public. It will be misused. Do you really want that?

Or are you just having a very natural reaction to the thought of dying completely alone? It's awful. I've had six attempts in my past. It wasn't easy to do and the feeling of dying alone is beyond painful.

 

[Meditation guide]

. I'm here to off myself not to be part of a watch party of sickos pretending to do research.

You totally misunderstand the motives of most of us. That's not only dense but very insulting. I want to see what I'm getting myself into. How is that hard to understand.

I'm not even sure how anyone can genuinely not understand what this forum is all about to that extent. We are here to try to find a way to ctb, or at least the majority of us. It's something that I do not want to go into blind and not knowing what to expect. To twist that into calling everyone here "sickos" is beyond dim.

And when someone wants to let others observe they show an understanding of that and a simple desire to be of help.

There are videos on youtube of people self euthanising in Dignitas. Are all the ones watching those sickos too?
What kind of outlook you must have on people!

I would think someone who has failed at six attempts would be interested to see how it's done.

 

[Niirvana]

Yes, its for a good cause. Thank u

 

[elfgyoza]

I know a few people have already said, but I'm really hoping you reconsider this. It's totally okay and I get it, I understand if you don't want to be alone during your final few moments. Unfortunately, there's too big of a chance that some people will see this, especially from the pro-life crowd, and report the livestream to get you found.
Seeing what SN does is really valuable information, if you really wish to share perhaps you could set up a private video call with a few members? People who you can trust.

It's your decision ofc, I just hope you will consider all of the available options if you're gonna do this

 

[MiseryLovesMyCompany]

I've already written a detailed report during an SN ctb. It is mentally really exhausting, especially that he was a friend. I'm not sure I'd be able to do it again honestly. Watching someone die is not easy.

 

[Meditation guide]

Watching someone die is not easy.

I appreciate your contribution. It's excruciating. My stomach knots and I cry just reading about these.

 

[Echo81]

How loud were the screams? Was not mentioner before, only gasping/mumbling/snoring

Yes please more information about the screams. This seems to be one of the most disturbing aspects of this situation especially if some plan to ctb at home around others.

 

[Greenberg]

Yes please more information about the screams. This seems to be one of the most disturbing aspects of this situation especially if some plan to ctb at home around others.

It is hard to gauge the level of pain associated with the consumption of poison like SN. Everyone has a different degree of pain threshold. The only thing that can be ascertained is that CTB is not completely painless.

I believe one aspect of SN CTB that is lacking is the person remains awake and aware, and not in a state of unconscious.

 

[Echo81]

It is hard to gauge the level of pain associated with the consumption of poison like SN. Everyone has a different degree of pain threshold. The only thing that can be ascertained is that CTB is not completely painless.

I believe one aspect of SN CTB that is lacking is the person remains awake and aware, and not in a state of unconscious.

Thank you. I must remember everyone will have a unique experience based on that person's individual factors. Must remember that being born and dying require a huge amount of energy and we've got to be prepared to take the extra burden upon ourselves by choosing our time.

 

[MrAsclepius]

Despite the arguments towards watching a live sn, I too would love to get a second-hand experience seeing as how it's a viable option for me. I also plan on documenting my death whenever that time comes. To the people thinking it's not ethical, I suggest you research sites like liveleak so you may break through the ignorance of media in your mind. You may realize that this is nothing like seeking gore, and you may also see something you like. [if youre into that]

As for "screams" after sn...nonsense. A dying body can make grunts, huffs, odd sounds from everything from hanging, all the way to natural causes. Nothing out of the normal to witness some "gasps" either.

 

[wanttodie]

I would be interested

 

[AN IDIOT'S END]

Was just thinking about this today. I'm really scared of being conscious while I suffocate from SN so it would be nice to observe someone else doing it to verify if I really want to go through with the method myself. Good luck man, and be careful who tunes in.

 

[lofticries]

I hope the OP is alive and well or at least went quickly on SN.

 

[I want to end it]

This thread was created last year so OP has either left the forum or ctb and didn't show anyone. I hope he or she is ok whatever happened.

 

[Wheredidmysanitygo]

I'd watch it for sure. My own method is SN so it might give me some closure as for how it might feel. Also wouldn't mind streaming my own demise as well.