Anyone want to see me ctb with sn live or no

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

It doesn't sound like it's gory.

There are videos of hangings on BestGore, which are also not particularly gory.

 

[Stepheng7287]

Gotta admit I kinda wanna watch just to see.

I kinda wanna watch just to smell.

 

[Conker]

If you're gonna do it, then you may as well use it to spread a valuable message at the same time.

 

[Kruger]

I watched LIVE LetzteAusfahrt catching the bus by SN and it was an amazing experience. He was really quiet and provided as much info as he could about this method.
Anyway, I'd be glad to watch someone do it again because it might be my chosen method too (and if I do it, I'll also stream it)

Would you be willing to provide more information about that? For the benefit of others? Details like whether he was in pain, whether he vomited, whether he had diarrhoea, convulsions, etc. And how long it took for unconsciousness and how long till death? Thanks in advance

 

[Avril]

I would like to see how the SN works please.

 

[Kruger]

I think most here would want to watch. It would be immensely helpful and educational for the rest of us to have reliable first-hand knowledge of how the journey goes. It would help others make a decision as to whether or not to use the method. I know that exit is offering to send peole a burner ohone that sends the footage straight back to them so they can use it to inform their research

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I'd be careful about publicly parading the fact that you are doing a stream. It's one thing to do it with people you've gotten to know a little, but through announcing it to everyone that can see the forum you risk letting the wrong person in and getting reported. Please be careful.

 

[mayHeCurseUsAll]

If you don't mind I'd like to watch, again not because of any perverted reason, just because this is my intended CTB method and I've had SN 150g and meto for almost half a year now so it would be informative for me to see.

edit: just wanted to reiterate I hope you don't at all take any of these responses to your question in the form of added pressure to go through with this, its totally your decision and I respect it whatever it is. If you're totally uninfluenced by these responses then please ignore this.

 

[Womps]

Ive got a hell of a drug collection to burn through first, might as well get my use out of it rather than have it all go to waste. I know you are all counting on this, some of you to get your sick-twisted rocks off, others for the informative nature. I am finalizing the collection of materials as we speak and will have it all together in a few days. If i do this in a few days or a week is uncertain. It will be a sporadic decision in the midst of one of my many mental meltdowns. Publicizing this to be a de-humanized soul posted among various gore/shock/suicide video collective sites is something i am still trying to come to terms with. I would like the information to be as clear and concise as possible. If i go through with this live stream i will be explaining in as much detail as i can every second of the experience to add to and spread information on this particular method. I am scared to have the last thing i will see is a shit load of horribly malicious and evil messages in the chat rather than wishful goodbyes. I am trying to come to terms, I am now completely alone as the person i was talking to on here i abandoned, and i now believe they have ctb themselves. I am to blame for the preemptive death of another human being and will never accept this. I am going through alot of pain, very very deep pain in the center of my being. If i decide to leave on my own, its because i just wanted to do just that, be alone. I will keep you updated periodically from the depths of my drug binges and if i dont im sorry to have failed you guys. I dont know how much sense this post even makes, im high and rambling. im just going to stop talking now

Formatting here is shit and i dont give a fuck, sorry.

 

[mayHeCurseUsAll]

Ive got a hell of a drug collection to burn through first, might as well get my use out of it rather than have it all go to waste. I know you are all counting on this, some of you to get your sick-twisted rocks off, others for the informative nature. I am finalizing the collection of materials as we speak and will have it all together in a few days. If i do this in a few days or a week is uncertain. It will be a sporadic decision in the midst of one of my many mental meltdowns. Publicizing this to be a de-humanized soul posted among various gore/shock/suicide video collective sites is something i am still trying to come to terms with. I would like the information to be as clear and concise as possible. If i go through with this live stream i will be explaining in as much detail as i can every second of the experience to add to and spread information on this particular method. I am scared to have the last thing i will see is a shit load of horribly malicious and evil messages in the chat rather than wishful goodbyes. I am trying to come to terms, I am now completely alone as the person i was talking to on here i abandoned, and i now believe they have ctb themselves. I am to blame for the preemptive death of another human being and will never accept this. I am going through alot of pain, very very deep pain in the center of my being. If i decide to leave on my own, its because i just wanted to do just that, be alone. I will keep you updated periodically from the depths of my drug binges and if i dont im sorry to have failed you guys. I dont know how much sense this post even makes, im high and rambling. im just going to stop talking now

Formatting here is shit and i dont give a fuck, sorry.

It makes perfect sense to me. Have you considered the possibility that said person is still alive and has just been institutionalized for a while or is taking a break from this website? Also, just trying to ask questions here, obviously you would know better than me, but perhaps your role in this persons potential CTB (whether it has happened or not) is a lot less than you may be putting on yourself? Its natural in these circumstances to ruminate and ask a million what ifs, but at the end of the day that persons CTB was entirely that persons decision.

 

[Womps]

It makes perfect sense to me. Have you considered the possibility that said person is still alive? Also, just trying to ask questions here, obviously you would know better than me, but perhaps your role in this persons potential CTB (whether it has happened or not) is a lot less than you may be putting on yourself? Its natural in these circumstances to ruminate and ask a million what ifs, but at the end of the day that persons CTB was entirely that persons decision.

Its just that i promised to be there for her. A promise is a promise and i failed to be therw

 

[Deleted member 14573]

A thread like this is an invitation for trolls and predators. I wouldn't be surprised if some people made accounts just to see this. Sometimes I get a feeling that there are people who come here in hopes of seeing people die in real time. It's disgusting and takes advantage of members' vulnerability.

Not everyone here has your best interests in mind. Don't let anybody else sway your decision or pressure you.

Have you seen the comment sections of suicide videos? Some people just don't care and will troll and make fun of the person. I'd really hate for that to be the case with you in your final moments.

I can understand someone wanting to see what it will be like when they take SN, but I don't think it's a good idea. It can also be traumatising for the people watching, even if they expect what's coming. You're a member of the forum, a human in pain that we've interacted with, not just a random dude in a video.

Another thing I' add is that I don't want this forum to be seen (or even become) as some kind of death cult where we watch each other die. Goodbye threads are understandable as it's more emotional comfort in your final moments, and even updating how you feel. But live streaming with an audience starts to enter a zone that I guess I'm not comfortable with, and that I think can be dangerous.

Lastly, I don't know if there are any legal implications to watching a livestream like this, but it's something to be cautious about or read up on before engaging. Keep your identities private.

Anyway OP I hope you consider this carefully. I'm sorry you're at this point.

I'm really tired and on my phone, so sorry if it sounds like some rambling.

 

[Time to fly]

Its just that i promised to be there for her. A promise is a promise and i failed to be therw

You reached out to me the other day when I was planning my CTB...you are not a bad person and what ever you decide to do do not think you are responsible for another's ctb..I wish you well in your choice and what ever you do know that you are welcome and accepted here...

 

[TattiQueen]

I don't want to watch but would be interested if someone can timestamp events and break down what happens.
For science!

Best of luck in your endeavours

I was going to say, I would be willing to help in this aspect of it. From what I've seen it's quite fast and uneventful for the most part. Are you planning on having someone report back to the forum for you @Womps ?

 

[shay23]

Ive got a hell of a drug collection to burn through first, might as well get my use out of it rather than have it all go to waste. I know you are all counting on this, some of you to get your sick-twisted rocks off, others for the informative nature. I am finalizing the collection of materials as we speak and will have it all together in a few days. If i do this in a few days or a week is uncertain. It will be a sporadic decision in the midst of one of my many mental meltdowns. Publicizing this to be a de-humanized soul posted among various gore/shock/suicide video collective sites is something i am still trying to come to terms with. I would like the information to be as clear and concise as possible. If i go through with this live stream i will be explaining in as much detail as i can every second of the experience to add to and spread information on this particular method. I am scared to have the last thing i will see is a shit load of horribly malicious and evil messages in the chat rather than wishful goodbyes. I am trying to come to terms, I am now completely alone as the person i was talking to on here i abandoned, and i now believe they have ctb themselves. I am to blame for the preemptive death of another human being and will never accept this. I am going through alot of pain, very very deep pain in the center of my being. If i decide to leave on my own, its because i just wanted to do just that, be alone. I will keep you updated periodically from the depths of my drug binges and if i dont im sorry to have failed you guys. I dont know how much sense this post even makes, im high and rambling. im just going to stop talking now

Formatting here is shit and i dont give a fuck, sorry.

Please don't feel pressured because of the responses on here. I think it's easy for people on this forum to be desensitised to death, me included, due to research of methods which can include images and videos surrounding suicide and accepting/normalising suicide. Live-streaming is a big decision which can add pressure, you may want to back out but feel pressure to go through with it or you may encounter trolls or people who screen record your stream.
You don't owe anyone anything, people on this site are going to CTB with SN with or without seeing your live stream. Death is a very personal moment which you will be sharing with people you may not know. There have been suicide videos that have been made into memes on 4chan, I don't think that would be nice for the people who knew the person who committed suicide.

 

[TattiQueen]

A thread like this is an invitation for trolls and predators. I wouldn't be surprised if some people made accounts just to see this. Sometimes I get a feeling that there are people who come here in hopes of seeing people die in real time. It's disgusting and takes advantage of members' vulnerability.

Not everyone here has your best interests in mind. Don't let anybody else sway your decision or pressure you.

Have you seen the comment sections of suicide videos? Some people just don't care and will troll and make fun of the person. I'd really hate for that to be the case with you in your final moments.

I can understand someone wanting to see what it will be like when they take SN, but I don't think it's a good idea. It can also be traumatising for the people watching, even if they expect what's coming. You're a member of the forum, a human in pain that we've interacted with, not just a random dude in a video.

Another thing I' add is that I don't want this forum to be seen (or even become) as some kind of death cult where we watch each other die. Goodbye threads are understandable as it's more emotional comfort in your final moments, and even updating how you feel. But live streaming with an audience starts to enter a zone that I guess I'm not comfortable with, and that I think can be dangerous.

Lastly, I don't know if there are any legal implications to watching a livestream like this, but it's something to be cautious about or read up on before engaging. Keep your identities private.

Anyway OP I hope you consider this carefully. I'm sorry you're at this point.

I'm really tired and on my phone, so sorry if it sounds like some rambling.

I have some similar concerns, but surely OP would do some looking into for those who would ask to observe? We never really know someone's intention. The only way I'd even be remotely willing is to help further the scientific aspect and for other members to be updated in real-time, as the majority would be unable to watch themselves. The trolls are disgusting. There's a special place in hell for THESE kind of trolls my dear, don't you worry! Glad you shared your concerns though.

how Did his journey go ? Am new to this website

It's posted under its own thread. We were updated in real time. @LetzteAusfahrt <— Click on username, then select messages. The goodbye thread will come up. I can't remember who shared for him, but run through the comments.

Would you be willing to provide more information about that? For the benefit of others? Details like whether he was in pain, whether he vomited, whether he had diarrhoea, convulsions, etc. And how long it took for unconsciousness and how long till death? Thanks in advance

It's all detailed on the goodbye thread. Check my last response directly above this one to you, and you'll find it dear. Someone else was asking as well.

 

[WornOutLife]

Would you be willing to provide more information about that? For the benefit of others? Details like whether he was in pain, whether he vomited, whether he had diarrhoea, convulsions, etc. And how long it took for unconsciousness and how long till death? Thanks in advance

The first 10 minutes after drinking the SN were very quiet but then, he was about to vomit but instead, started having some short convulsions and seemed to have lost consciousness.
He was breathing in the wrong way (no rhythm at all) but was unconscious and this lasted 20 minutes. There was no sign of diarrhoea or urine.
So, it took him 30 minutes to die.

 

[Cakes]

I watched LIVE LetzteAusfahrt catching the bus by SN and it was an amazing experience. He was really quiet and provided as much info as he could about this method.
Anyway, I'd be glad to watch someone do it again because it might be my chosen method too (and if I do it, I'll also stream it)

Do you think it's painless and peaceful?

 

[WornOutLife]

Do you think it's painless and peaceful?

As I wrote before, there seemed to be just a small amount of pain in comparison to other methods. You lose consciousness after 10 minutes and then breathe strangely and convulse but it still looks more peaceful than my planned method (partial hanging).

 

[Cakes]

As I wrote before, there seemed to be just a small amount of pain in comparison to other methods. You lose consciousness after 10 minutes and then breathe strangely and convulse but it still looks more peaceful than my planned method (partial hanging).

Yes sorry, I didn't see your other replies until after I commented..
My method was partial as well

 

[Kruger]

The first 10 minutes after drinking the SN were very quiet but then, he was about to vomit but instead, started having some short convulsions and seemed to have lost consciousness.
He was breathing in the wrong way (no rhythm at all) but was unconscious and this lasted 20 minutes. There was no sign of diarrhoea or urine.
So, it took him 30 minutes to die.

Thank you for educating me. Did anyone find him while the video was still running?

As I wrote before, there seemed to be just a small amount of pain in comparison to other methods. You lose consciousness after 10 minutes and then breathe strangely and convulse but it still looks more peaceful than my planned method (partial hanging).

What indications were there of pain? Anything visual or did he communicate to you he was in pain? I truly hope he is at peace.

As I wrote before, there seemed to be just a small amount of pain in comparison to other methods. You lose consciousness after 10 minutes and then breathe strangely and convulse but it still looks more peaceful than my planned method (partial hanging).

What indications were there of pain? Anything visual or did he communicate to you he was in pain? I truly hope he is at peace.

That depends on your following on OF but I doubt they pay a monthly subscription to watch a suicide

Very true

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look at this maybe it will be shut down I hope not now I've found this place im at comfort speaking to so many people who feel the same as I do

I've never seen anyone here encourage anyone else. What utter bs.

 

[WornOutLife]

Thank you for educating me. Did anyone find him while the video was still running?

What indications were there of pain? Anything visual or did he communicate to you he was in pain? I truly hope he is at peace.

What indications were there of pain? Anything visual or did he communicate to you he was in pain? I truly hope he is at peace.

I've never seen anyone here encourage anyone else. What utter bs.

The only indication of some pain I could see was his face and a few screams but that lasted less than 10 minutes.
I didn't see anybody finding him during the stream because it seems someone was helping him and ended the livestream once he was finally dead.
He seemed to have gone in peace and his plan was perfect. He's really a good example for all those (including me) who struggle to CTB properly.

 

[Rue89]

...also users being dehumanised (I know the user is consenting to it but they are a person not a scientific experiment).

I agree, that is a concern. I was making plans to do a livestream of sorts, but it wasn't going to work out because of tech issues on my end.
One thing I took away from it is that I'd much rather do a video call than a livestream, if I were to try something like that again. It would be much more comfortable and humanizing to be in communication with someone rather than it just being my ctb on camera. But then again I don't want to die totally alone, whereas a lot of people don't care about that or prefer it.
But maybe trying to do anything like this isn't worth it; maybe it would complicate things too much, I don't know.

 

[BLUE1970]

I wonder if it would be possible to live stream my dive from Beachy...have a body / head cam of some sort.

 

[woxihuanni]

The only indication of some pain I could see was his face and a few screams but that lasted less than 10 minutes.
I didn't see anybody finding him during the stream because it seems someone was helping him and ended the livestream once he was finally dead.
He seemed to have gone in peace and his plan was perfect. He's really a good example for all those (including me) who struggle to CTB properly.

How loud were the screams? Was not mentioner before, only gasping/mumbling/snoring

 

[Time to fly]

I wonder if it would be possible to live stream my dive from Beachy...have a body / head cam of some sort.

You can film mine as I'm going before you

 

[LiesAndLigatures]

I would watch it if you are willing. No pressure, because this has to be your choice. But I think SN is going to be my method (way easier to get than N), so it may be useful to see how it goes before I fully decide on my method.

 

[depressedsally]

Don't know if am allowed to ask this but have many people from this website have actually live streamed it I don't think I could I'd rather not take that chance on being caught in the act

 

[timetofly]

I would watch it, SN is my method too, and it'd be nice to see how it works.
But don't feel pressured of course, it's up to you whether to stream it or not. Your peace of mind is what matters most when the time comes. You won't fail anyone whatever you decide.

 

[Arthaniel]

I am interested to see How it works.