Anyone up for conversation?

[beyond.space]

Hey, I have basically nobody to talk about my suicidal ideation with. I have my parents, a few friends and I go to therapy but I feel like I've become unable to fully open up and connect with anyone. I've been isolating more and more and even just quit my job now to focus on my art (or what remains of it). I live alone so when my savings run out, I guess that's when I catch the bus.

Until then, I want to talk to somebody because I've become more alienated than ever and sometimes I feel that towards other users here too, because my reasons for wanting to CTB don't even really seem valid compared to theirs. I've had an okay life, but I've always struggled emotionally and spiritually to find stability and meaning. I still haven't and I believe I never will.

 

[Crow_88]

Hey! Feel free to message me! No judgment!

 

[losthope1980]

Hello, I'm here if you want to talk

 

[beyond.space]

Hey! Feel free to message me! No judgment!

Hello, I'm here if you want to talk

hey, thank you for being here. i've messaged both of you using the "start chat" feature but it just leads me to a blank page. might that be because im too new of a user?

 

[Crow_88]

I was able to send you a message after you sent yours. looks like its working on my end!

 

[beyond.space]

I was able to send you a message after you sent yours. looks like its working on my end!

well thats a bummer, i haven't received any notifications and i cant even find where the chats button is supposed to be, so i suppose its bugged for me or something?

 

[khairan]

I would like to say I would but I don't think you would want to talk with such a miserable wreck like myself. No one ever does.

 

[Crow_88]

I sent you a mail to see if that goes through

 

[beyond.space]

I would like to say I would but I don't think you would want to talk with such a miserable wreck like myself. No one ever does.

not at at all man, i definitely would like to talk to anyone willing to open up to me. im in the most miserable and pessimistic state in my life, so i bet no beliefs of yours are going to scare me or anything like that

 

[losthope1980]

I sent you a message as well

 

[beyond.space]

I sent you a message as well

thank you, but it seems like my chat feature is not fully unlocked so i can start chats but i cant actually see them for some reason

so im going to try and solve this, then get back to you with a reply, if my chat appears

 

[khairan]

not at at all man, i definitely would like to talk to anyone willing to open up to me. im in the most miserable and pessimistic state in my life, so i bet no beliefs of yours are going to scare me or anything like that

Appreciate the sentiment but there's also the problem the chat feature in this site is extremely restrictive.
I'm actually surprised how little I can express in a website where suicide is openly discussed. Pretty ridiculous.