Anyone staying because of parents ?

[DreamEnd]

I don't want to hurt them that much. Ctb would destroy them.

 

[Gaga786]

Yes.It destroys me from the inside knowing what might happen to them, but I still feel so lost and isolated. I know I am loved, but I degenerate as time passes by. Each day is painful

 

[enditall222]

Same tbh. I know it will destroy them, but I feel there is no other choice

 

[sorrowful]

I live with my grandparents. My grandmother recently got diagnosed with cancer. I cannot leave with things the way they are, my grandfather struggles to look after himself let alone her. I believe things become worse, and I do not want them to suffer even more.

I had planned to ctb this year or the next, so I am in a tough spot. I'm unsure of what to do, I don't want to suffer here either. Though, I know that may be a selfish way of thinking. It is a difficult situation where I feel like I am in a constant battle. My grandmother is dear to me as she is the closest family member to me and wouldn't give me up no matter what. I can't just give her up.

 

[SentimentalTrip]

They are pretty much the only thing holding me back. I don't really get along with them and they often mistreat me, but sometimes we have our good moments. If I CTB they would only be left with my sister.

But I don't know how much longer I can hold on.

 

[fuzzy-clown]

Yes. It will be 2 or 3 decades until I am free. With a broken mind and body.

 

[SoftWorries]

No parents at all. It's hard the leave the hole they left behind.

 

[lazyegg]

i'm just lucky to have a mom that loves me a lot- shes pretty much the only person holding me back. however, it does hurt continuing as i see myself grow more apathetic to being alive.

 

[LeatherRectangle]

For a long time I did not want to hurt my parents. Even after I decided that CTB was the right move, I made plans to do it someplace else because I did not want them to be the ones to find my body.

They say that suicide does not end pain, it just spreads it to other people. I have reached a point when I can no longer hold this pain. Besides the fact that my family has seen me in pain for so many years and has not helped.

I need to do what is best for me, even if it leaves others in pain.

 

[Bobert_Beniro]

fortunately I don't have problems with this, I don't have love for my parents, because they gave me not the best childhood

 

[Vizzy]

I don't want to hurt them that much. Ctb would destroy them.

I am gonna ctb because of parents!

 

[The anhedonic one]

No. My so-called parents are dead. But if they were still here, then I would still have no problems with ctb. My deranged " Mother " was a narcissist. My revolting Stepfather was a paedophile. Lucky me. My childhood was quite the nightmare.

 

[stingy cherry]

Im here in this place because of them if anything

 

[The anhedonic one]

Yes.It destroys me from the inside knowing what might happen to them, but I still feel so lost and isolated. I know I am loved, but I degenerate as time passes by. Each day is painful

 

[brokeandbroken]

To be honest nothing I do ever do in my life will ever be for my current (extended) family again. Kinda goes hand and hand with them doing nothing despite being more than capable in my situation.

Whether I live, die, thrive, fail, or otherwise. I can't say what it will be for but it won't be for them.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes- for my Dad. My Mum is already dead.