Anyone planned and didn’t go through?

[DreamEnd]

I plan it every god damn day and it always fails because of SI and the inability to hurt my family like that. Does anyone else struggle with making a coherent plan and following it?

 

[failingthroughlife]

I do all the time! The smallest thing will happen and then I struggle to stick to my plan but I always come back to it- it's an endless cycle and I think it makes things harder!

 

[Sad_Sack]

I never planned it. I wouldn't be able to set a date like that. I came so close one time after a spike in my desperation. It was spur of the moment and I can safely say the next time will be the same. This time I need to make sure it works and doesn't just land me In the hospital.

 

[makethepainstop]

I plan it every god damn day and it always fails because of SI and the inability to hurt my family like that. Does anyone else struggle with making a coherent plan and following it?

I ordered sn and my money was refunded, I sent them an email and no response. I have a 45cal deringer, but im afraid of brain damage. Death I can handle, brain damage an living in a nursing , not so much. The source was DD. What to do now!

 

[DreamEnd]

I ordered sn and my money was refunded, I sent them an email and no response. I have a 45cal deringer, but im afraid of brain damage. Death I can handle, brain damage an living in a nursing , not so much. The source was DD. What to do now!

Can you try ordering from IC? Also DD is on Amazon last time I checked you can get it through that

 

[makethepainstop]

Can you try ordering from IC? Also DD is on Amazon last time I checked you can get it through that

IC is very expensive. But I may have to use them. Still researching sources. Thanks.

 

[Tristan]

SI and leaving my nana alone is what is keeping me here. I have sn and I'm so afraid it will hurt and I will suffer for hours, so that scares me and I end up not doing it. Why isnt there a peaceful way to go. I mean we all been through so much pain. Do I have to suffer to be free?

 

[Nikki2020]

I've been trying for the past few nights. I'm afraid I'll throw up and get caught. but I need to do this I'm suffering every minute i cry my heart is so broken.

 

[myfinalform]

i always striving to eat pills and OD, but i heard it only will get me a ticket to the hospital to get my stomach pumped, so i keep on the low while sufffering

 

[Callie Arcale]

Yes.
Many times.

 

[Hirokami]

A few years ago I planned a week in advance. It was easy to get certain methods, so I could've done something within that short time. I had too much interference, though.

 

[Onw9]

Shit I've planned for today. Hoping I dont mess up

 

[DreamEnd]

Shit I've planned for today. Hoping I dont mess up

what method are you using? Peace to you

 

[Onw9]

Partial hanging

 

[lionetta12]

I plan it every god damn day and it always fails because of SI and the inability to hurt my family like that. Does anyone else struggle with making a coherent plan and following it?

Several times, usually because SN require planning and takes a little bit of time to proceed with. By the time I want to do it I'm usually too depressed to do anything.

 

[HelloIMustBeGoing]

I set a date ... planned accordingly. Bought a final meal to enjoy, dropped a copy of my Will in the mailbox and sent to my friend ... and then when the moment came I couldn't do it. I felt too bad doing this to my mother ... and decided to hold off until she passed away. Boy did I have to come up with a good BS excuse to tell my friend why I mailed him the Will.

 

[Tristan]

I tried so many times, I always fail, get my stomach pumped. Wanted to take my SN yesterday even wrote a long FB goodbye post. But SI kicked in and Im still here, and now I have everyone asking if I'm ok. Luckily I hidden the audience on that post from family so no drama family wise. I'm just afraid it will hurt. And I'm such a pussy with pain. God I wish I had N. I wouldnt be here now that's for sure.

 

[Zegers]

IC is very expensive

It is really quite expensive, 100$ for 50g I have deduced that IC's business is basically help to death in disguise. God bless them.

OP have you tried benzos to reduce SI ?

Why isnt there a peaceful way to go

SN is peaceful

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I've failed twice, but it's been more than two years since my last planned ctb date. On my birthday last year, I committed to doing it before my birthday this year. Well, I'm only three weeks away now, and I'm pretty sure it's not going to happen by then. Trying not to bear myself up about it. Setting a new goal date of January 16, 2023, but who knows?

 

[Ashu]

SI and leaving my nana alone is what is keeping me here. I have sn and I'm so afraid it will hurt and I will suffer for hours, so that scares me and I end up not doing it. Why isnt there a peaceful way to go. I mean we all been through so much pain. Do I have to suffer to be free?

By the way, Wagner's Tristan und Isolde is my favorite work of art, perhaps it's yours too.

 

[Nikki2020]

It is really quite expensive, 100$ for 50g I have deduced that IC's business is basically help to death in disguise. God bless them.

OP have you tried benzos to reduce SI ?

SN is peaceful

how do you know sn is peaceful?

 

[Zegers]

how do you know sn is peaceful?

Testimonials, ppeh values it at 7/10 so what can be expected is peaceful. There is no method that is completely peaceful because fear, uncertainty and SI come into play but i think its better to have a smoothie than jump off the window

 

[hemlock_gal]

IC is very expensive. But I may have to use them. Still researching sources. Thanks.

Sorry, but what is IC? I read hear about SN but I'm still unsure about what it is.

 

[Maudlin]

Sorry, but what is IC? I read hear about SN but I'm still unsure about what it is.

I like your username.