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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

Account Wipe.
Apr 30, 2020
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What I meant, is that they thought my psychosis was over, but it came back. Dunno what caused it, I had some kind of mental breakdown.

I hope you can recover from it tbh.
Is there anything in particular that bothers you to cause your breakdown?
 
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foreverlikethestars

foreverlikethestars

Member
Jun 23, 2020
79
I don't remember how long I've been there. First they let me go. But then I walked naked into supermarket, and was sent to psych by the cops, they also handcuffed me, which was uncomfortable. In the psych they gave me huge dose of paliperidone, which messed up my breathing, I was constantly suffocating. What a fucking terrible society.
the cops treating you like an animal must've been awful im sorry that happens. also telling where they have their priorities if they let you out after puncturing a lung
 
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Deleted member 19276

Wizard
Jun 28, 2020
679
I wouldn't really call it an act to punish myself in the past when I harmed. It was rather diverting attention from one pain to another, more physical one. Mental vs Physical, focus on physical, less harmful thought to think. Things like that.
 
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SuicidalSymphonies

SuicidalSymphonies

I think I'll take a dirt nap.
Oct 13, 2019
1,028
To put it simply, the high it gives me. Adrenaline.
 
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Soulless Angel

Soulless Angel

Did someone say Rum?
Jul 6, 2020
1,272
I do it when I get angry at myself, to make me wake up to what a total fucking failure I am, and what a selfish person I am, I do it and watch the blood run, then sit and go what the hell, wouldn't it be easier to just CTB rather then this shit
 
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greekyfish10

greekyfish10

i’m kinda screwed in the head but aren’t we all
Aug 1, 2020
51
i mean i do it for the typical reasons like trying to feel something and also to punish myself because i feel i deserve it. but i also really enjoy pain so when i cut i just feel proud and i like that feeling. i just need pain sometimes so i'll cut because of that.
 
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sadandconfused

Member
Jul 5, 2020
19
I never self-harmed until I got into rough sex. I realised that I loved being covered in bruises and bite marks. Now I'm not with him anymore so I do it to remind myself of the good times. And no, it's not anywhere near as good
 

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