So, I am trying to get out of this pit of depression and I look at these videos of people who either attempted suicide or where in a bad place and then they found a reason to hang in there and now their life is better. They just make me feel worse because I have nothing to hope for and I weirdly end up resenting them for having hope.
I think you're so used to beating yourself down that you are rejecting the notion of recovery.
If you don't have anything to hope for then respectfully you owe yourself personal accountability for that. Whether it's school or relationship or any sort of future, you got to take the steps to build it. All these people who chose life also chose to make their life better and the blessings they received were from hard work and patience and endurance.
I understand wanting to give up. But we shouldn't ever be dismissive to those who choose to hold on.
Life is strange.
Life is wicked.
Life is beautiful.
At the end of the day YOU write your own story,
NOT circumstance alone.
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So, I'm going to have to make a video to explain where I'm at, but basically. I'm between the hardest part of my life and a bright new future and it's hard. But I think everyone here will at least see things for what they are authentic. And I think posting it only on the site would be really supportive to a lot of people who need it.
Because you're absolutely right that there are people who claim this past but have no association here which is big as the site is seems kind of odd.