So, I am trying to get out of this pit of depression and I look at these videos of people who either attempted suicide or where in a bad place and then they found a reason to hang in there and now their life is better. They just make me feel worse because I have nothing to hope for and I weirdly end up resenting them for having hope.
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unluckysadness
Enlightened
- Jul 9, 2025
- 1,125
These videos make me feel more miserable. Why some people have the chance to recover and why other can't ? It's so unfair and cruel.With these extremely shallow/by-the-numbers viral videos, yes. But for people here in the Recovery section I feel genuinely happy, as if I knew them for a long time. And some of their stories can be very inspirational.
eggsausagerice
last chance for cake!
- Apr 21, 2025
- 1,382
i want the same motivation and support from others that lead them to not killing themselves. happy things don't come into your life, they need to already be there or there needs to be opportunities for good things to happen to you. just sitting in my house wallowing and looking at these stories or motivational messages from people who have way better lives than me, i just want to block them out because they aren't going through the same struggle i am. i know i can't get better if i spend all my life staying in the same, but i can't imagine myself being in anyone else's situation because i can only imagine mine stretching into infinity because i have no support from anyone.
people can be happy for you when you recover, but they can't help you when you're still thinking about killing yourself every day because you see no better alternative. it feels like people inevitably step away from you until you die or get better, and they'll just say, "i knew they would get better!" or "there was nothing i could do". it's hard for me to believe that i could legitimately be happy when it feels like recovery is mostly luck than perseverance. i'm not an inspiration to people. i'm still very depressed.
Macedonian1987
Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
- Oct 22, 2025
- 945
I hate those stories because most of them are fake motivational talk, made by people who wanna make money from them.
TheLastGreySky
Wizard
- Nov 24, 2023
- 690
I think you're so used to beating yourself down that you are rejecting the notion of recovery.
If you don't have anything to hope for then respectfully you owe yourself personal accountability for that. Whether it's school or relationship or any sort of future, you got to take the steps to build it. All these people who chose life also chose to make their life better and the blessings they received were from hard work and patience and endurance.
I understand wanting to give up. But we shouldn't ever be dismissive to those who choose to hold on.
Life is strange.
Life is wicked.
Life is beautiful.
At the end of the day YOU write your own story,
NOT circumstance alone.
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So, I'm going to have to make a video to explain where I'm at, but basically. I'm between the hardest part of my life and a bright new future and it's hard. But I think everyone here will at least see things for what they are authentic. And I think posting it only on the site would be really supportive to a lot of people who need it.
Because you're absolutely right that there are people who claim this past but have no association here which is big as the site is seems kind of odd.Last edited:
