Wanting to reconnect with someone from the past but..

[sheburnedmedown]

I've always been kind of alone but I met someone who made me feel less alone but because I'm a dumbass I fucked things up by lying to them about myself + life got pretty bad because my overall bad decisions and so we ended. The problem is that I'm in love with them, in a weird, twisted way. I miss waking up to their texts ever single day i miss us just joking around and playing video games together i miss our dumbass inside jokes. I really wish we were still together. It's been a few years since we last spoken.

I recently rediscovered their profile and I wanna reach out but at the same time I'm afraid that they've moved on without me or even worse that their doing way better without me. In a way I wish for them to be similar to me which is partially why I wanted to reach out. Maybe we could've find solace in our suffering. I always thought we were pretty similar and I liked having that little control over them that I couldn't have over my own life. I don't want to be alone in my suffering. I know Its terrible, I'm not a good person

 

[Redacted24]

You already have the courage to be honest about what happened - you posted here!

That's a good thing. Being able to objectively see what happened and to articulate it says a lot about you, and your nature.

We all make mistakes, because we're imperfect beings. And sometimes that brings relationship challenges.

Relationships can be repaired though. And when one of the people had done something wrong and acknowledges that to the other, it can make the bond of trust even stronger - if the other person will accept.

You might consider trying to reach out to them, to acknowledge the things that happened, and to let them know that you miss them, for all the things they meant to you.

They'll either accept, or not.

But even if they don't, it would be meaningful to them to hear your acknowledgement and that could help them come to an inner peace about what happened. So there's some potential benefit to them to hear from you again.

Just a thought. Wishing you the best outcome!