Pvnie
Giga-autist Wandering Scumbag
- Oct 8, 2022
- 67
The other day, I was making myself a sugar milk coffee in the kitchen. My mom had just came back from the store and I shit you not, she stared at me the whole time I was making this coffee eyes wide open and nitpicking everything I did.
She said I used too much sugar, I used one full load of whatever spoon she had set in the jar, okay cool, I then put one and half of coffee into my cup you know? its a water cup, so I don't wan't my shit to just taste like fucking milk, and shes acting like I hadn't done this before, talking about how its going to be bitter and shit and how I constantly overuse things.
I called her out, she would mock me and my body language, had this uncanny smile on her face and just stood there. Talking about how I'm metaphorically outgunned by her either due to her position of perceived authority over me (basically shes my caregiver, or this smart intelligent whizz who I will never intellectually beat)? and how my feelings of being patronized are basically from a complex of mine. Shes in the medical field psychology nonsense, thinks shes helping people and shit. Shes laughed at people on the local crisis line where she works. bleh!
I don't feel patronized, I know I am being patronized, its a pattern and I call her out on it. She mocks my words and says they don't make sense. She also tries to patronize me when I say I'm being patronized, sorry if I sound jumbled by the way, I can't form clear thoughts anymore but bleh. But anyways she'll bring up like my skills or something, and she thinks the way i interact with her is like how I'd interact with the rest of the world.
And basically shes saying that, because she can kick me out, I should kiss her feet, and that at a job or some shit I wouldn't be allowed to call out injustice, which is true, but I wouldn't do that because of course I'm aware that our whole world is governed by sucking dicks. Plus i don't care if she kicks me out because living a normal life is a means to an end to me. I truly do not care.
And then she'll bring up my social issues talking about how she wants people to like me or whatever, despite trying 2 embarrass me in front of people. she actively calls me a weirdo and shit. she knows what shes doing, and I think she is a lizard person potentially.
She said I used too much sugar, I used one full load of whatever spoon she had set in the jar, okay cool, I then put one and half of coffee into my cup you know? its a water cup, so I don't wan't my shit to just taste like fucking milk, and shes acting like I hadn't done this before, talking about how its going to be bitter and shit and how I constantly overuse things.
I called her out, she would mock me and my body language, had this uncanny smile on her face and just stood there. Talking about how I'm metaphorically outgunned by her either due to her position of perceived authority over me (basically shes my caregiver, or this smart intelligent whizz who I will never intellectually beat)? and how my feelings of being patronized are basically from a complex of mine. Shes in the medical field psychology nonsense, thinks shes helping people and shit. Shes laughed at people on the local crisis line where she works. bleh!
I don't feel patronized, I know I am being patronized, its a pattern and I call her out on it. She mocks my words and says they don't make sense. She also tries to patronize me when I say I'm being patronized, sorry if I sound jumbled by the way, I can't form clear thoughts anymore but bleh. But anyways she'll bring up like my skills or something, and she thinks the way i interact with her is like how I'd interact with the rest of the world.
And basically shes saying that, because she can kick me out, I should kiss her feet, and that at a job or some shit I wouldn't be allowed to call out injustice, which is true, but I wouldn't do that because of course I'm aware that our whole world is governed by sucking dicks. Plus i don't care if she kicks me out because living a normal life is a means to an end to me. I truly do not care.
And then she'll bring up my social issues talking about how she wants people to like me or whatever, despite trying 2 embarrass me in front of people. she actively calls me a weirdo and shit. she knows what shes doing, and I think she is a lizard person potentially.
