Venting Anyone else who‘s hyper logical but full of love at the same time?

[pumpkinpie]

It's like being made up of oil and water. Love and logic are so contradictory. It impresses me so much that there's people out there who can just be like "FUCK love and feelings I don't need that shit" and live by that. And then there's me who thinks the exact same thing but can't live by it because I have way to much love to give and receive. It constantly feels like trying to keep a door shut against an entire room of water, it's so exhausting.

I really don't want to go before being crushed by the most honest and heartfelt hug ever. If I can't have true love in this life then please at least give me this

I love you

 

[cme-dme]

Oh absolutely. Although, in 2020 I was in a relationship with an extremely toxic person. Even 4 years removed from that relationship it seriously fucked up my perception of love and my ability to express it. I want to tell my friends that I love them and that they mean the world to me but it's very hard for me to actually express those feelings...

 

[truede4th]

the reason i think i am so hyper logical but so full of love, almost like i am trying to make up for something is because its tied to a lot of guilt. guilt for just existing for being born and taking up space i wish i could be better for the people around me but i cant because im just so so sick so fucked up. i try to push through but i am always so aware of how depraved i am. so, i guess i try to appreciate the little things to hold on to whatever good moments i can find its like i am searching for some sort of redemption in those moments but its hard to shake off that guilt i have never been in such love tho platonic or romantic or maybe even familial but i have been very very close its so beautiful but its not for me i dont deserve it but its so beautiful i guess if i do end up getting born for the second time i will be good enough to be deserving of that

 

[whiskeyblanket]

I use logic as a means of hiding from overwhelming (or honestly any) feelings I may have. So I guess in a way, yes, but I learned a long time ago that feelings, including love, are dangerous and to be avoided at all costs (for me). I tried very hard to undo this to no avail. However, I honestly think it's a good thing to be hyper-logical but also willing and able to feel and express love. A sharp mind and a full heart can make you an amazing person. I hope you can experience the love you crave.

Edit: part of a sentence was missing for some reason.