Discussion Anyone else suicidal because of work?

[5er50ji]

Going through workplace bullying and really not wanting to be here anymore. I've been in denial and only just realised how badly it's affecting me when I started trying to suck my tears back into my eyes on my commute home. I hate staring at the train tracks wanting so badly to jump but being too scared. I've lost 15lbs in two months which is not normal for me at all. I'm looking for another job but not living would be the better option.

 

[rorosbones]

not quite the same reasons, but the other day at work i had the horrible realization that this is all there is. when i get home from work i'm exhausted, and when i'm not working i'm recovering from work or preparing to go back. it makes living seem so unappealing when all we're expected to do is work until we're too old to.

 

[amnesia999]

Yes, I have felt like CTB'ing due to work. Long story short, I felt unable to go to work due to bad anxiety, mainly with the way my boss treated me, and I ended up losing the job because I didn't go to work. This also left me very short of cash until I was able to get my early retirement income going. It was a bad time in my life, but I actually have a pattern of "shooting myself in the foot" due to anxiety-related issues.

Hey, if you want that 15 lbs. back, I'd be happy to donate them to you! I want to get on a weight loss drug like Ozempic in order to drop some of this weight.

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

I've haven't suffered as much as you, but when work does go bad, I carry it home. To my chagrin, I can escape a bad home situation by throwing myself into my work, but the other way around doesn't work. Is there an HR person that could help?

 

[valar_morghulis21]

when I had a job, I was suicidal. Now I got no job, and I'm also suicidal. 2 side of the suicidal coin

 

[dragonofenvy]

It's not the sole reason, but it's yet another reminder of my soul-crushing existence. Each day I spend are hours trapped in monotony with nothing to occupy myself with other than music and the ruminations that run through my mind. Each day I wake up to work I am again reminded of how I failed to attain a career I could take pride in. And what is there waiting for me when I am done with work? Nothing. Time is spent waiting for the day to end just so I can do the same tomorrow.

In your situation, I would try to find another job as fast as possible. You don't deserve to deal with bullying in the workplace to that extent. There are better places out there.

 

[itsgone2]

My work is hell. I have the best job possible, then we sold and now it's a nightmare. No way to describe it properly. And absolute hell.

It not the only reason. But if it were steady still, I wouldn't be here right now.

 

[passthisnote]

yes but for me it's more of an existential thing like wow i have to be a wagecuck for the rest of my life if i want to live and then it just makes me want to ctb even more